today i let the cat off the bag... i let off the bigest secret since june about June... the truth is, she doesn't exist... it's just a clean lie that just broke by my ownself... You see, in pri, I liked someone, but then I heard rumours that another one found out, I smsed the other one that i like her, she got so mad and complained to teacher, my teacher told the whole class... since then we became apart each day... I don't think I talked to her this year... YOU NOE HU LARHH ... te truth is: i need a sunshine that bright me up, the sunflower. i need someone who gets happy together and sing and dance and laugh all night long, like most friendship movies... So I don't know whether I should just follow my fate or get a hot girl and stead like alot did... I'm not in for sexy, i'm in for happy... That's why I'm not interested in porn.. I don't know whether I love _ or not, she too is confused once, I could guess her dilemma... what i want is someone like ___, __, ____, ___... aiya, so sian... the lie just ends here.. this particular moment... I found out I got angered by fustrate and not pain... I don't fight angrily... my target... to be super calm... under any circumstances...