It's been loooong time since I posted again. 

Well, days in Army is same old shit again, nth much worth to mention. Ofcoz, there are lots of fun times and all, really thankful my section mates to be so fun loving! Every single one of them, no matter the age, are just adventurous kids in a young adult body. Lots of stories ofcoz but im being mindful in social media. 

Well, CNY day 1 passed. Had a luxurious lunch for the first time with my family, luxurious means costing over $100. Usually my family don't even spend $50 on a meal, so $50 plus is considered special occasion, and today is just WOW! So yea no Yu Sheng or any of such sgreans customs, but Man Fu Yuan is a great restaurant with mouth watering fried Liu Sha Bao! 

Then rot at home the whole day, watching movies. Managed to catch "Girl in Pinafore" once again. 

(spoilers alert!)

So anyway, nothing special about the movie, unlike someone I know (hehehhe), but yea I reflect back on the movie. Why I always felt that the movie contains so much reality in it, is probably that it really reflects on life. I actually like the way May died. It's like, that's actually the truth, All Feast Comes To An End, eventually, nothing actually lasts. Yes, you may have a few friends of very long friendship, but to have all the crazy hell fun and laughter, and silly actions and stuffs like that, is really quite impossible. 

I always like to look at old photos, gatherings, and all the fun activities I went with friends. The memories, laughter, all felt so fresh everytime I look at them, but cant help to feel a tinge of fading fun too. It's like, we may have that period so close, so many topics to talk, but now if we were to meet up, everything is just different, that moment just stays at that moment, that photograph, and nothing more than that. 

So looking back at the true fear 2015 I did a while back, it's true, I dont really care where my life is going, nor death, nor being looked down on or commitment, because I have nothing to worry but NS now. And it's precisely so, I started to feel that old friendships are dimming. Like, I realize I dont meet them much, and if I do, topics now resolves around army only. It really makes me think, "what makes us friends? common interest? can two person be good friends based on nothing but character and person itself?" 

Then, talking about CNY again, my family gathering is not that kind that laugh boisterously, full of guffaws and half chewed food kind. It's very simple, one person talk, the rest listen kind, like merely catching up. Ofcoz, Im glad enough already, cuz we are so busy in our own loves, it's hard to find a time to update one another about life. However that didnt stop me lamenting on the imperfection in my already perfected situation. I do wish to have a family of a table, happily talking in volume, lo hei like hooligans, and stuffs like that. 

Then I think about family, what would my own family be like, as much as I wished to be Zi Sun Man Tang, but then I really dont want my children to have my gene. I want them to be musically and physically talented, adept, or at least of decent capability, Hopefully, with some charms in the appearance and personality too. So these could not be found in me. Then thoughts about raising kids too, the balance between protective and space to innovate and learn from banging walls. All these are tough decisions! 

Anyway, there's an interesting reality in the idea behind the plot, why it was so real, because the director was referring to a real symbolism, and a hope towards the end of it. 

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