ystd pe our class made great achievements excp albs group, was so delighted yet dissapointed with myself since im the only one that couldnt score any points for the javelin, so diff than i thought and tried.. funniest moment was that some guy knocked down the javelin of another person and got higher than the one kena knocked down... well i think wilbert a little bias since the last 2 throws from eugene landed tip first yet he fault them... so far no prob financially and though owe a little hmwrks not as much as last year... tmr would be the big day of wushu hub reunion dinner, and i think alot of screwed up in the ppt slides, damn it....

Yea survived the week, spammed with homeworks and overdued homeworks, will try to clear the debts by next week or juz ignore the overdued and continue on with live, started the year sleeping at 3am, no wonder kept lacking of sleep, buay tahan man, felt the rush of things, no break at all... how i hope all these will just go by faster.. as again, i study not for myself, for parents who had high hopes on me and for society to not overwhelm me... dad still have the stubborn mindset that psychologist cant do anything much, inferred from telling me lives of lawyers and doctors and blah blah blah.... no offense whatsoever, but these are dead subjects, working for bullshits.... i wanna change the world.... i dont mind giving up high wages, just a stable income just enough or a medium living. I must admit sometimes a sudden whole lot of money would unleash the wrath of jealousy, which would anytime devoured me and my live, and i do not want that.... this year starts well by paying off debts, good start... last year was bad for me as i wasted lots of money. Mostly becuz of the sculptures i bought and dynasty warriors weapon keychains, then ofcoz poor management of mine or perhaps naive state of mind that thought everyone would turn up for tai sin5 birthday, therefore forked out 20+ for the cake... whats passed had passed... hope i'll survive this year....

爸妈的话/冰儿

got from Spy Next Door，nice comedy though inexperienced actors (unnatural), unattractive roles and stiff moves unexpectatedly from jackie...

Pavarotti And Friends La Traviata - Brindisi

Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone lyrics

wow passed chem, well with a not so pleasant mark, again as usual i studied more for chem yet resulted 26, where else i did not studied for phy and got a 27 and one of the only 2 passed.... life's weird... so not rewarding...

had never felt so unbearable as now...
it's like...
everything's superficial...
so fake...
so different...
than what i hope this year would be...

The night sky is so beautiful now
i suddenly feel so puny
it has no edge nor depth
a sea with unknowns lurking
and i might be that only star there
at least from my window view...

The world is full of amazing things
and i feel like im wasting my time
learning dead things and plain theories
i wanna travel around the world
just sightseeing relax and talk
to new people, different people
weird and funny people
know the world in different perspectives
learn different cultures
their habits and language
and thoughts and hearts and feelings

i want to be worry free
so my heart wont be hooked by
the fishing rods
of families or friends
or responsibilities or society
so i wont feel sad angry or unbearable
when people just walk away like that

but to do that, what i need most is money...
money money money....
whether for selfish purposes
or good deeds or descendants
everything needs money

it's like the piano
with the white a tune can be played
of sounds of musics of tones
adding the blacks will expand the selection
with sharps with flats with chords
but with the gold pedals
a newbie could sound professional
by the sustain, the soft, the togetherness

right, survived 3 days of school already, did well for chi diagnostic test therefore was super proud with none other but me, myself and I... 39/70 i think but with more than half the class failing, highest was 41... eng diagnostic was not announced yet, but that is not a concern, but rather the chain of tests tomorrow after pe of emaths, ss, lit and chem, luckily phy was postponed to mon. but the utmost importance, chem, that determines if i'll stay at pure stream or drop to sub to probably beautify my graduation card with poa too. just gonna work hard for the 4 months until mock exam 1, then i'll be slightly free i hope. my few glances and reference to wiki during the holidays should help me i guess, good luck then... a comp without sound is a total torture, no youtube no itunes, damn, eyeing for a sony multimedia laptop, sound rather cheap considering the reputation, features and elegance. 700 for something with blue ray player to substitute my current old dvd player for enjoying a super quality movie on my to-me-big tv... 4GB RAM and a 320GB HDD would far exceed this current computer and could upgrade to 2.80Ghz T9600 Core 2 Duo if the 2.26GHz P8400 Core 2 Duo isnt enough. Since being a home laptop, battery life would be out of concern so as internal speakers and weight. cool eh?

today wushu was tough..
"Warming up for the new year" claimed shixiong...
haha after a rather intense warm up which i was amazed i survived through...
played a game where u must complete 3 wushu related stunts to pass to the cather, before u could tag other people... was amazed i successfully did things like one hand push up, one hand finger push up, kip up and er qi tui... only fail is the 2 breakdance moves (1 is the one leg jump over the other leg, 1 is the carb style freeze) and the bridge.... my hands not weak yet, so glad...

after that met randy, suppose to get help for amaths work but he wanted to do finish his work then let me copy, bo bian study myself, i study most from copying anyway, like what i did for the past 2 hours... almost learning from scratch cuz except for the trigo, i completely forgot all... first time mug eh, good start for the year, hope i could mug throughout and get a good grade on retests and midyear, so at least could persuade mum to somehow create space for christian and yohanes to come at june, show them around sg... then after olvls could go back and enjoy myself thoroughly

sigh, another thing also to try to use the results to persuade mum for wushu competition this year, if im ready by then larh, for three section staff...

right, almost midnight, hope tmr is an easy day, never had been as reluctant for sch, this is like.. rebellious reluctant already.... arghhhh!!!!!!!!

had the best new year countdown ever, stayed over at shixiong's house, reached just in time for countdown.. remade the wushu reunion dinner teaser vid, this time with our avatars that jo gave!! it was so cute and hilarious haha, especially the 'chairman' message at the back. will post up probably after the event haha. that was the 2nd party i had for new year countdown. i think i slimmed down, cuz i went without dinner yet was VERY full just after a bowl of curry chicken rice. then afetr being rather sick at indo, yea it's almost certain that i had slimmed. expected jo to strengthen up his arms magnificently but he couldnt last mine, sigh, well, lucky i have not deprove, hope so... spend yesterday reformatting, uploading photos to facebook and singing... doubt the exchange program would be successful, nevermind then, next time ba. oh, last day of 2009 i went digging up old photos, especially the first birthday party i had in sg, with han wei and ding hsuan, faint memories came back, i remembered the times where we went to the nearby drain (last time it dont stink) to catch spiders to keep... it was rather adventurous and brave last time. doubt i would go near a big spider now... also the first puncak trip with christian and yohanes years ago, which they still remembered and i dont, how dissapointing.... looked rather fun haha, i do have lots of poses last time, compared last time photos and now, it was like a superstar comparing with a stone statue of mona lisa.... sigh...

this year's resolution:
-study hard for o levels so parents would be pleased and so could enjoy my end of year holidays thoroughly
-smile more, as in smile naturally and joyfully
-all my friends to be successful in what they're doing...

and again...

Happy Memories are addictive drugs that made us feel alive for just that brief moment yet had left me in such unbearable plight, yearning for more, and got no choice but to counter the eagerness by consuming more...

started the year with so much laughter, hope it lasts...