Afetr lunch played chess with Johann, yeah we draw 2-2... improved abit, must work harder, I must like win the bubble tea shop auntie everytime, then next week play with shi xiong, wanna see how he play, then got more experience.. 2nd post for today, may have one more afterwards... or might combine...

Went late for wushu, kena 50 yuan di tiao, hahaz, to me now like not as tiring le, yeah I improved.. cartwheel I could do single hand, yeah, success... continued the mantis pattern abit, then went to bubble tea shop, the auntie not there, so went back home. Waiting for lunch now, char siew rice for today, yeah!! maybe some time I wanna play chess with shi xiong too, =D tmrw is monday.. Printing out lyrics for 'I would walk 500 miles' and 'You got a friend' lyrics, let me predict... people will complain for sure, hahaz, anyway, sunday!! must enjoy myself, coz im easy.. easy like sunday morning... really leh, so easy, so relaxed, so calm... btw saw uncle Kok Guan on way to wushu... Bao Hui linked me this morning, yeah.. Only hang out with him so little, must spend time too.. my life is becoming happier now, it's the art of relax... the mind id a very important object in your life, so must let your mind be at ease, then you'll be happy and live comfortably le... actually friends and family too play an important role to our lifes... Coz cheuck shares same interest in songs with me, then james eager to learn and sing the songs, bubble tea shop auntie like to play chess.. these things lorhh, make me forget all fustrating things, all bad and hurtful things, ignore rotten comments, blah blah... So long nv see Jacky le... should organise a gathering some time, and oe friends too, the china people also...

Today was a fine day... Woke up, ate breakfast, check some mail, on music and slept again... Again woke up, ate lunch, listen music, go friendster, went church... After maths was English, Auntie Linnet wore beautifuly, then everyone was like, what occasion izit?? Ohh, she had wedding in the morning... Then the games time we played dodge ball, but it turns out to be only the leaders playing... so we switched to Gesstures... choose 4 words to act out, with time limits... It was quite boring at first but then fun in the end.. During my turn I chose 'sexy' then Auntie Linnet expect me to lose that but I did it, I shoot out my butt then made the slim woman shape then everyone knew le... hahaz, there was mermaid too, but people could only guess until the merlion part... After that was Uncle Kok Guan's sharing, he made us write down our names at a paper then the paper was passed to other people, the people then had to draw an animal to describe the person that wrote his/her name in a positive way.. Alan drew an ant for me, he said I was dilligent, then I was like shocked, didn't expect someone to say such a word to be, most ppl would say I'm dumb, ben, fat, slow, idiot... Auntie Linnet added hardworking, she gave an example that I always browse through her books to enrich my knowledge when I got nothing to do.. I was so glad, didn't realise until she said, I always thought myself as lazy... It's true really, it's harder to say something positive to a person than negative. Mille once listed down all posible words between I and you... example : ihityou, imissyou, i punchyou...etc... I turns out positive words are harder... Wel, that's all for today... Tomorrow Wushu, hope it will be an interesting lesson. Then Monday!! I'm gonna sing again!! Btw cheuck said my singing was not that bad, ofcoz again Im glad, damn never had someone really say that, unless joking or just comforting. Since K2 gratuation when the teacher chose another guy to sing on stage instead of me, ehich chose the song, I stopped singing, then when I started again, there were onnly complains... haiz.. let's not talk about this, Cheuck and James is always the best when it comes to community singing... well, 3-ppl community singing... gotta run.. byezz

I wont he auntie again!!! yeah!!! anyway today cooked fried rice, nice sia, then due to washing dishes, we took an hour, skipped recess and sci 1 period.. lol... some people like ZX lorh, everytime leave the work to others, he take good stuffs... then the MX dont know anything, he dont listen one lol... nth much to talk today... sang abit only... James knew the lyrics for islands int he stream and top of the world.. woohoo!! continue post later

sci sci sci.. so bored... we sang top of the world, me, james, cheuck... fun fun fun!! ofcoz with some shutups and stuffs... can't you all understand I like old songs?? we must treasure old songs, especially those brings you happiness... that you will smile and sing together.. nvm.. genertion changed too much. Well, mille is like avoiding me, i sit behind her she like abit bsbs.. damn she used to be my best friend for gurls...today worst,the most people calling us to shutup, I got the notes lost halfway, glad i didnt, my heart is like breaking, nvm.. they wont understand... glad i still got cheuck and james... haiz.. last time in pri seldom people comment on me singing, haiz... sec sch life is so depressing... oh ya.. again.. plz QH dont read my blog, just tag and listen music or something like that... anyway, lets think positive, tomorrow will be a brighter day where i can sing again with james and cheuck!!!

additional info...
I got no more hatred for WeiDe or Eunice or whoever le...
as I said, I became calm suddenly, it's the wok of James and chess...
Life's gotta find a way that is comfortable...
so I'm dribbling through the troubles, towards happiness...
taht's why I walked out today maths lesson...
"I don't want to stay in the uncomfortable enviornment.."
I said to KT.. she understands...
I did all I can to make a happy class...
the rest are all up to fate and how God wants it...
I'm here for a purpose, not to be defeated by all these troubles...
coz...
I still got chess waiting for me...
I still got needy people waiting to receive aid...
I still got money waiting for me to donate...
I still got happy people waiting for me...
I still got jokes and laughter along the way...
I still got a wife waiting for me to marry...
I still got children that needs to be born/adopted...
I still got a career and plenty of poems to write...
I still got alot more things to make people I treasure happy...
I still got a loving heart and caring soul to continue...

*** I still got a life to be lived to the fullest... ***

I sang..
and sang..
and sang...
and sang again...
and sang again...
and sang again one more time...
and sang again one last time...
with james, he's fun, he could be a study partner and a entertainment partner. He wont let me copy, nor help me do homeworks, but he will lend me tools, or share foods.. and sing. Yupp, we're happy, so we're crazy, then we're crazy, so we're happy... sian.. sci Samuel nag nag again, damn the chi compo I no idea/inspiration sia, then the maths KT nagigng, I walked out go library red book.. kindda addictive too, skimmed through a bit basically of a boy who kept dreaming of the same thing, and with an inner self, on a mission for his teacher to find out problems of a girl... then they found me, I forgot to hide... nvm... then go back, KT talked to me, damn she really understands me well, she knew I would probably go to library or find teacher... she knew I hate an angry enviornment, she knew when she upset me too, she knew I love to see people smilling... she knew when people happy, i'll be happy... then go play chess, sian today bad luck, lost all... must jy worhh Kaya.. the auntie very kind lehh, a can of soda cost 45 cents if I'm not wrong, a siao siao guy came and bought it with 30 cents sia.. always like that, she fed cats too... sometimes she would buy something and share with her neighbour whom daughter stole her money each time she was away... she share me quite alot too, like friend le... these small things makes me happy, even though i look at customer buying bubble tea and she happily making the ordered items... that too make me happie... simple things, hanging out, joke around, chat awhile, im satisfy le... gotta run le... byezz

wow, it is rare to see cherie tagging my blog... boo~! she found me... ^v^ well, that's me behind the smile alright. I'm actually a sensitive boi, just that seldom people know... Gerald and some guys said my singing sucks when I sang today, that hurts me too... But nah, wont take it too hard, not as much as what teachers did... it changes my thoughts over teachers alot.. I apologise to KT for sleeping in class today, to my surprise she said 'Did you?'... wow, it was like my 6th times... felt so guilty especially when the teacher take me as a good boi... she actually know me larh... today chat with HK, lol so hilarious... fun fun.. getting addicted to chess, may bring to class to play.. played with Johann that time, he pro sia..

dad was angry with Mario (my cousin) just now, my heart felt discomfort to have my parents wasting their anger on him... anyway these few days been playing chess with bubble tea shop auntie, I felt calm... now I'm not so negative towards life, I'm calm now, in any situation... I laughed my way through... btw dad picked a few CDs that ppl threw downstairs, on eof it was Country Ballad, darm that's what I've always wanted, all the songs were very nice... Especially Islands in the stream, Stoney, Don't cry Joni, Rose garden... changing blogaskin soon...

wow, amanda like pavarotti...cool.. same as me... im no more so negative lol... keow tee scolded zaf for talking to Qh, I talked to her.. she happy le... well, sometimes a nice talk can solve the problem... Term 4 im doing well, im glad, hope i can get same class with ppl like tai fong, zi kang, james, cheuck, amanda, etc... those fun people... played chinese chess with bubble tea shop auntie... first 2 rounds i won!!! yeah.. then we play aeroplane chess, you know the throw dice, move steps, blah blah.. coz 4 ppl could play marhh.. play play play.. so fun.. lol next time must bring mask, all smokers sia.. nvm.. like i said, i dont mind sacrifising for friend and fun... just hoping to get more true friends then betrayers... i trust people too much, alot people said, anyway its like i used to help, but the blame is on me, so i gave up the class, i felt my class not very dependable. maybe alot people hate me or something, being with the auntie so fun, and her helpers too, and the neighbouring shop people... simple life, but fun... next year im gonna work there too!! btw we fed the stray cats too, with a tin of cat food for $1, we can feed 2 cats... i feel so happy, im the kind of guy that i will be happy just to see ppl smile.. i hate to see my parents fustrate with my cousin or me, or teachers dissapointed or nagging, ppl breaking down, i get uncomfortable too, but the class is hopeless, i cant make them or the teachers happy, so lets bring strangers happy, accompany them, they smile, play with the,, they laugh, joke with them, they giggles... so i met some new friends already... I'm going there everyday, just like few dollars, i can be happy, happy enough at least to cover my sorrows, bring joy and laughter to my heart... free my mind of frustration and troubles...

Pencil

I get shorter, each time you use me,
I can be found anywhere, even in White House,
On Bush's desk.
Whether you're a newbie or an expert,
when you draft, you need me,
when you draw, you need me,
I am glad,
Won't regret,
Not that I wanna die fast,
You got your job done first,
Then, when my time on Earth has come close to the end,
I finished the last stroke,
I turned blunt, short, and broke
I leave Earth,
But not Earth,
She does not,
She frames up my work,
On the museum wall,
She admires it,
Just like one I did,
The painting of La Monalisa

Poetry could be on anything, be it small as pencil, or big as White House.
I did this, to tell people to treasure things around you.
Hope you like it, comment and correct my mistakes...
*smiles*

Mrs Samuel scolded me for asking Cheuck to collect the $$$... I was helping Melyn coz' I know she don't want to.. Fad too busy, anyway didn't do duty now, the attendance book thing.. never stay back arrange tables too, i just got a feeling wanna go do my part again, but Samuel made me not... Anyway we must give other people to prove their responsiblity too marh. Darm, as I said, I just want a happy class... Mandar too did her best to please Abraham, but she is always caught... I understand. But it's like, we both landed ont he same boat, we want a happy world, but the world is against us.. Damn.. I just hate these, sometimes Mrs Samuel is not that great after all, Ms Foo is the best, as always.. I hope... But still, in the end, I love OEPS teachers... I want the teachers to be please, but I just cant, so I give up, im tired of all the lies, im tired for my heart cries every post, im tired of being nice, im tired of the world... some personal things, you know those chain mails that say make a wish.. from young, since i receive my first chain mail, my wish have been to make all around me, positive or negative, living or non-living, enemy or friend to be happy... but it never came through, i get happy just by playing and laughing, or just sit and chat, I don't need comps and stuffs to be happy. I found few people that got in the same state of me, my forum memeber Riha, 1E Amanda, some adults in JPiC... once I found a new handphone, with addons and downloads and tons of games and songs.. it was new then. I love it so much, I only had a nokia 2100, but i call theowner's home, talked to his friends, waited for him to pick it up.. another time I found 40 bucks, I gave to police... I found wallets or $$ more than a dollar, I gave to GO... but what do i have, 4 lost wallets, 1 lost phone, 1 phone dropped to toilet bowl... lost $$, stolen 30 bucks... owe people $$, cheated by people... damn..

WeiDe said shut up to me, when I;m actually talking in nice tone... From today on I announce.. I BREAK THE FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN HIM AND ME... after I bought bubble tea, I see the auntie feed a cat... We began chatting, and then she took out board games to play... it was fun, life or an ordinary boring day... HK not in good mood, I really hope he's fine... The auntie verry cheerful... I think I tue and Thur will go there accompany her lorh.. I try to learn Chinese Chess through her too... I hope... I just wanna know what LY and Sam was talking about, the dream thingy.. then ZX shouted shutup at me too...darn.. I really hope I can transfer... I cant take it anymore... but it's no use, at least ZK, CH, James is there for me... I did all I can, to make the class a happier place, all the postcards are fakes.. those that you gave me to cheer me up, what crap good AC.. rubbish.. FUCK OFF I TELL YOU... GET LOST.. GET LOST FAR FAR AWAY... DONT APPEAR IN FRONT OF ME... DISSAPEAR !!!!!!!! ARGH !!!!!! damn... *i cnt trust ani frenz animor, i trust strangers...* as James said before... "Friends are Fiends with a 'R', 'R' in the second letter of TRAITORS..."

I always wanted the class to go smoothly... without teachers' nag and scold, without conflict.. damn.. it wont happen, Ms Ung mentioned my name about something like : Kyanta is happy when I nag nag the class... i think... man, it really changes my thoughts for teachers... Teachers I like is Ms Foo.. Ms Pradepa... OEPS teachers... I hide my tears from smiles... dont you even know I'm a sensetive boi... and my hatred for wei de increase each day, he kept opposing me, when i actualli treat him as a friend... same goes to some friends... i know im a useless AC btw... ugh damn i cant continue this.. my eyes are red.. (to be continued) this is not for people to read sorry...

In the darkness, I am home,
Dagger-like needles lay about,
Thrust into me with corroded steel,
Scarlet blood now my cover...

Burn me slowly with the flames of loneliness,
Inject me with the will to live,
Then abandon me to suffer cruelly,
I tremble and shiver from pain...

Leave me be, in this dark corner,
Forget me? I am nothing to be remembered,
Slowly dying a gruesome death,
My wrists are slit as they bleed out...

Erase my existence; forget me you will,
I was not of importance to anyone, not even myself,
Hate me, despise me, ridicule me, then stab me!
I am nothing.

adapted from :
Riha, Hate me (freeverse)
writtersmania.forumcircle.com (yes is double 't')

Bop Bop Baby (Live Acoustic) - Westlife

another video!! acoustic version.. the melody is sooo beautiful...omg, can't wait for their new album!!

Took a personality test and it was a miracle.. omg..
I think back, the results are matching..

They said the things I considered important are in order of : Pride, Family, Carreer, Love, Money... People say I'm bhb, so that's pride, but not too much coz I tend to get lazy... anyway i got usually more hardworking when people compliment on my work... the second is family, which means friends too, carreer comes 3rd and I think yeah, after friends and family, I need a carreer to stablise, which probably would be poetry or doctor... love is 4th, it's a no wonder I'm not that romantic and such... Money is the least I take as an important thing... I always thought money rules people when they are rich, and not people ruling money...

second question resulted...
My own personality is loyal...
My partner's noctural
enemys' sneaky
my own life will be calm...

Quite true.. except last one i don't think it is...
and 2nd one, my partner noctural?? for??

Third is about friend..
again my friend that i can count on and will remember is Huang Kang...
and someone close... Ng, he's been stuck wif me since p1...
the rest doesn't really matters...

today i let the cat off the bag... i let off the bigest secret since june about June... the truth is, she doesn't exist... it's just a clean lie that just broke by my ownself... You see, in pri, I liked someone, but then I heard rumours that another one found out, I smsed the other one that i like her, she got so mad and complained to teacher, my teacher told the whole class... since then we became apart each day... I don't think I talked to her this year... YOU NOE HU LARHH ... te truth is: i need a sunshine that bright me up, the sunflower. i need someone who gets happy together and sing and dance and laugh all night long, like most friendship movies... So I don't know whether I should just follow my fate or get a hot girl and stead like alot did... I'm not in for sexy, i'm in for happy... That's why I'm not interested in porn.. I don't know whether I love _ or not, she too is confused once, I could guess her dilemma... what i want is someone like ___, __, ____, ___... aiya, so sian... the lie just ends here.. this particular moment... I found out I got angered by fustrate and not pain... I don't fight angrily... my target... to be super calm... under any circumstances...

westlife turnaround tour melody

cool.. and this includes F.R.I.E.N.D.S theme song.. wow, athirah and ariel will love this most... again.. westlife ROX !!! to me larh...

Bop Bop Baby-Westlife

cool and funny... it's 4 heroes now, no more the old-fairy-tale 1 hero 1 fame... love this. Westlife is coming out a new album somewhere end of year if I'm not wrong, they will be realeasing around the day spice girl realease their return of spice girl

So tired today, did a compo during tuition... lol today only 6 ppl from sec1-4 come.. Nothing to say about today.. let's talk about yesterday.. and also skip the first half... I went back to OEPS, met Mdm Roz, Mrs Rafiq, Mr Koh, Mr Kwan, Mdm Nora... etc.. I gave 1 whole box of Forrero Rochere to Mdm Roz, she shared with all her batch of students, just noticed that she's the most popular teacher... We talked, laughed, joked..etc.. so fun. I gave her the thumbdrive so she could share my poem to all the teachers, she opened it, skimmed and gladly like it. Even though in BDS I couldn't show to 1D teachers, I still feel glad, I feel a sense of happiness and belonging in OEPS... Played bball, halfway plyd with Jasline, Ting Ting, Chanel, Xue Wei... chase around, blah blah, then finally I went down and all splash water in me, hahaz, fun fun fun!! One thing I forgot, Mrs Jenny Loh, I was suppose to visit her, she lives near Giresh, darm it sia, btw my tagboard unavailable for me to see, sian.. sry sry. At night Eileen sms me about __, nvmd, don't really like to talk about. Overall, OEPS is my home, not BDS, it sucks, seriously, I'm treasured and appreciated more in OEPS rather than BDS. Oh ya, met my shi xiong today walking home, and xie lao shi too, wished them happy teachers' day... Made my day to see happy teachers. I love to see happy ppl, not ppl that always so gloomy, that's why everytime going back OEPS so high, Durani also say I like siao... Next week holiday, so sian, maybe call my friends for bball, again they very kind, cheerful, don't smoke, don't fight, don't insult... well, dirty only lorhh, but not too over marhh... Feel like changing address, but lazy sia, anyway lesser people coming le. I MISS JUNE !!!! lol... SIAN, WHY FOUND PERFECT LE LEAVE !!! WHY !! ARGHH !... -.-" ... back to topic my friends all p6 now, hope they won't change when they go sec sch, hope we could still gather, still play.. I feel that alot of ppl change, terry, weisong, han wei, yang kai, zhi gao... haiz, will I be lonely after this year, my futer is still in darkness, i messed out all. I wanna get closer to ___, she left, wanna go for ___, she hate me even more, sian...