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Appreciating Our Past

It is easy to be negative about past mistakes and unhappiness. But it is much more healing to look at ourselves and our past in the light of experience, acceptance, and growth.
Our past is a series of lessons that advance us to higher levels of living and loving. The relationships we entered, stayed in, or ended taught us necessary lessons.

Some of us have emerged from the most painful circumstances with strong insights about who we are and what we want. Our mistakes? Necessary. Our frustrations, failures, and sometimes stumbling attempts at growth and progress? Necessary too. Each step of the way, we learned. We went through exactly the experiences we need to, to become who we are today. Each step of the way, we progressed. Is our past a mistake? No. The only mistake we can make is mistaking that for the truth.

Let go of negative thoughts that may be harboring about past circumstances or relationships. Accept, with gratitude, all that has brought to you.

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Today took a vid of my Nan Quan for James, haha conclusion: Not gonna go competition, haha standard not there liao =) but still better than the one in competition, so yea improved =) yipee ya ya yipee yipee ya~!

Then went to church for lunch and a few chat, woah just 2 days more never see them they pounced on me like hungry hyenas snatching to devour down a helpless hamster....

After that went to Safra, due to a last min decision, for minds, yet some meeting was in progress, so we went for a round of bowl and then pool. Though did not gave my best yet I scored over 100~ wootz haha. Supposedly 4 strikes a spare~! woots~! Cheuck got a -/strike for first ball, then... you know... Haha, he was rather pissed in pool cuz he was missing the shots. I would think it is because he is too used to the bayshore pool, which I couldnt aim there, thus his aiming angles are off in the actual pool table.

Minds was frankly the worst, the stonest, the coldest time so far. Only the express-it game got them enthu a little. My best was perhaps with hoe han and nicholas, they're awesome people that really anticipated to be excited by the unknowns. Oh well, different group of personality, though ofcoz I prefer the later =) somehow I always felt that someone has been constantly the ice... and to this group, I think the only way to get them a little enthu is dirty jokes.... Hoe han and nic was so awesome, totally clean jokes, no turn downs, crazy and funtastic~ we had at least 10 times the fun lorh, as we can see in youtube, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ll1sdHj4no8 =) oh now I realized I have not uploaded the rest of the videos for that day~! gotta do it soon...

Played catching as usual with the SCC kids at the library playground, until 7, then went home. wow, lots of Aries babies, Auntie Rita's just over, April fool's Frankie, 4th Noel hay's, 5th Jacinta's, 6th Auntie Imm's, 7th Alvin's... Bought a photo frame probably gonna take a picture with the staff together and put it in SCC for display? Then a hotwheel car for Noel, wanted a cap for Alvin but dont know which type he like =( hopefully under 10...

Tomorrow last day for Uncle Joe =( sob sob, awesome guy, fun and easy-going, bonds well with kids, not too much restrictions, best in blending with the kids among the current staffs next to Auntie Imm =) Gonna get him a Joe Cool snoopy plush =)

Jumpstart 1st Grade Song - Sea Song HD

finally found this song~ its been so long... 10 years already~

7 Benefits Of Hugging:
1. Reduces heart disease
2. Diminishes stress
3. Promotes longevity
4. Strengthens social ties
5. Lowers blood pressure
6. Lowers heart rate
7. Benefits the hugger and the huggee equally

Yongjie once commented: "You are attracting weird attention, why is it that almost every boy see you will pounce on you?" haha. See what mean? There's nothing wrong to hug the kids, anyway I didnt initiate them. Hugging is a common sign of friendship, affection, sense of security and trust, its almost inevitable when kids trust you they would automatically hug you as as how they hugged their parents when they sense insecurity of menace threats. It is also a natural reaction for kids to be expecting a hug when you raise both hands in front of you, when they did not receive hugs, they would probably grab you hands and sway around.

I realized this one morning when i reached SCC and a kid approached me sharing me about his achievement, then naturally I out both arms out, palms facing up, even when I had no intention of giving the kid a hug. Then the kid locked fingers with me and the face showed a slight disappointment =( so we swayed as the kid boasted =)

Oh, somehow, rumour has it that hugging affects your growth too, so more hugs = taller... darn sure missed out lots of hugs during childhood. yes, somehow we can somehow see that besides genetic or fitness, the height of a person might give you a clue on their parent-child relationship.

Speaking of these sociology findings/phenomenon, it is not really true that we might become more judgmental. Yes we are somewhat stereotyping, however we do take into accounts of the exceptions and the 'prominent's. Some people do differ from their peers, these might be due to external factors like environmental or social changes. Deep down inside, sometimes I do feel that a certain person would have a certain personality and so called 'fate', it is just that in their current circumstances, they might be suppressing their true self or simply acting. And strangely enough, when we became a seasoned actor, we would eventually be too immersed 入戏太深 that they became that character, just as they say: Watch your habits, for they become character. So everything starts with the thought =)

Thus, it is fine for us to find out more of these patterns of life, just as how music has their certain pattern and order too. Knowing these patterns of life, we could find the most suitable and effective way to deal and handle with them.

Oh and yes whoever came out with the idea of free hugs and the organisation is really really awesome, should deserve the nobel peace prize~!!

Wang Lee Hom 王力宏 - Bo Ya Jue Xian 伯牙絕弦 Bo Ya Cuts the Strings English + ...

Today was too tired that I skipped my volunteering in the morning, so I arrived church at 1pm. They burst out and shouted my name haha, so welcoming, like celebrity. Ofcoz, there are one or two that will be the sour plum.

Todays topic: Sour plum

Seriously, I don't get why the need to dampen the atmosphere, to verbally assault someone. Does it hurt to shut up? Silence is much better since you've nothing better to say. For example, "now then you come, might as well dont come". For someone who made a choice to appear right in front of you instead of not wasting the time, effort and money to see you, you should treasure that kind of commitment for you.

Then come those who are reluctant to move along, walao, when in roman do as romans do, when everyone is 'high' at least act to be one too larh~ if not get out of sight, no need to suan and dampen the atmosphere.

Also, I see no harm in acting younger than who we are. AKA, act childish, just go with it larh, better than ice and stone atmosphere right? If you prefer that then get lost larh. No need to stay and give chao bin face right? Dont give a damn about how other people see you, in that group, just have fun for that moment.

Though this is small matter, but kindda sick of it.

These sour plums are assholes who are who of jealousy and insecurity. They are jealous of people having fun because they did not feel engaged in it. So when they are envious, they will spoil the fun. Look, you are the one who is not willing to participate, we didnt exclude or disregard you but you did it yourselves so if your business, not poke our asses~!

I think the online games culture of the modern society is atrocious. All they could say is 'lagger', 'noob', 'sucker', yes they had been through that stage, but not others, maybe they're still learning, then just let them be. Due to this absurd online game culture, those frequent player became influenced too. So those who are more civilized would not enjoy being there, but those who are addicted to the game would persist on and when they reached a certain 'pro-ness', they would vent all their years being insulted to the newbies, so more and more people became assholes, how to cultivate a graceful society?

No wonder people are more united in less developed countries. They treasure and would share anything and everything they have with at least a few friends. They grow and learn together, not competing and making rivals.

Sigh.

Today I had the most interesting talk with the most interesting mother, Auntie Ah Hiang. Unlike most mothers, she is one who really protects her children, in a sense she do not want them to be in top 10 academically. Her reason was that she do not like troubles and problems. Thus, she would not want her children to have problems in coping with failure. She wanted them to be ordinary so that they would not need to stress over maintaining the position, but most importantly surpassing oneself. She never exposed how great was her children, she merely, humbly said: as long they passed. They were smart, but had to sometimes act dumb, 难得糊涂. However eventually they indeed gave gratitude to her as they expand their horizons - to see many people struggling to be 'sane'. 物极必反, too much of a thing would cause a backfire. This is why some poeple meditates, to keep their mind empty, to give their brains a rest, to focus on lesser stuffs, since subconsciously we had been multi-tasting too much. She also shared how she witness students shivering for no reason and eventually had to let him take a year break from studies to regain 'sane'ness. He totally blanked out for a year. I've seen one in real life too but not gonna disclose it here.

Speaking of this I remembered the feeling as I stepped into 3A, the moment the frog finally met the filthy creature that destroyed his bliss (ignorance). I was toally not used to mugging, and my life turned rather 180 compared to sec 2. Parents arent as supportive, conflicts at home got more intended due to teacher's complains, I could not handle the idea of being at the bottom even though it was actually a bottomless pit, and eventually thinks that life will find a way and started to hate education and school. I indeed was 自暴自弃-ing.

Though yes it is true that life will find a way, Auntie Ah Hiang's husband drove taxi for their children to complete universities and masters, all through their own choices instead of forced. I think they are indeed an awesome, extraordinary family.

As Jacky Wu ever said, we youngsters are like planes, we can fly and soar as high as we want, but the vital factor is whether we can land back safely and willingly. Be contented that we have experienced our peak, that we had gone far enough to realize how far we can go.

Speaking of this I remember Francis got a blog post on icarus - most commonly seen as an over-ambitious, stubborn adolescent but why not someone who has made a decision that's the last day he's gonna live? that he wants to fly high, high, high and never fly again?

I replied he is someone who had decided not to be a fugitive/slave/escapist of life on earth and lived his life to the fullest =)

My days volunteering in SCC

Boisterous boys and giggly girls echoed the hall as I make my way into my first 'job' interview. Frankly, I was attracted by the very 'noisy' atmosphere that they discourage. That created the impression of a 'home of fun and bonding'. Neither did I know that it actually contained quite a few dramas and extraordinary stories.

Awesome things happened, and some not so pleasant things, however I still feel that my presence did not influence them much, they are somewhat still the same old them.

Well, I left a month before school, I'm a little worried I could not adapt back to the lifestyle I suppose to be having. No matter the extend of my influence, at least I had fun.. and filled-stomach haha. Sometimes I feel like I'm a world class entertainer without the need of vulgarities and obscenities, or racism. Most of them really enjoyed by company when they play hantam bola, coz I would come up with lots of ridiculous ways and ideas and dance and stunts to 'evade' the ball. Being with the kids really is like revisiting my childhood, just that I could not do anything but nag at them. At most, I can prevent, but not forever.

The hantam bola game today was totally a war, John A-kid Kenneth was targeted, the shot was thrown at their utmost strength, all cleared space for the thrower to aim at the victims. I was totally upset, by his behavior. How could someone like him stay to lead such bad example? SCC is not just a place to hang out after school, it is a third, if not second, home. Why is such conflicts necessary? And during baseball, he jeered for the other team, shouting 'keep it up' when the thrower threw a foul ball, dampen spirit. He is a typical damai. I think he had became worst, he showed signs of becoming a mud hooligan.

On contrary, I see people like John, never giving up to put up a good show even if he is the only boy in his team of 3 girls, versus the all-boys opponent. I see how he distant himself away from someone who his teacher deemed as 'bad company', and the amount of books he has read. Some funny stuffs of him is that his mum usually forbids him to buy snacks and drinks, so he never tell his mum about him snacking, however his mum claims that when she took him to the supermarket he would comment: 'This I've tried, that i've tried, this flavour not as good as that one, this brand is cheaper' haha =) cute... He's a malaysian, I think he's quite a good kid except he might be a little big headed sometimes.

Well today I came to heard of some family issues of some people. I'm still glad that my family is still bonded by love, even though there might be little understanding. And yea, I'm glad to have parents who trusted me and gave me permission to socialize in pri sch so I do not have to sneak out to snack, not to mention beat me or confiscate my hp. I accompany him home, tried to cheer him up and gave advise of how to smoothen their relationship, hope it helps. This reminded me of the day on bus he told me 'I don't have parents, I only have parent'... These little ones have extraordinary tales amidst their ordinary faces... he's rather handsome haha =)

(to be continued)

*the shower of lead has deadly crippled the opposition*
-quoted from Cheuck

awesome~! great expression =)

Tiring day today, SCC was peaceful as usual, today not as many kids, just slacked around, just nice can do my own stuffs awhile, then pop excel...

Last week I took sec 2NT and sec 1 for maths, was quite tiring because I taught them beyond the current topic since they already understand the current topics, I want to lay a brief foundation on their next topics so they can comprehend school lesson with ease.

What could be more tiring than that? Today I thought I was doing the sec 2NT, yet weichong stepped in to say that he needed help with p5 foundation maths, I actually went into the wrong class so I went into p5 the rest of the class... for ENGLISH~!! Met andy's brother there haha, their faces are so identical, so as their behaviours haha. Anyway, let them did some compo, marked on the spot and corrected them. This gave the me the idea of Mr Tan's debate activity at sec 2 (yesterday was flipping through the archive. So for the next class, p6, I did this with them, they.... though they enjoyed it they were quite distracted with their own 'attacks' haha. Then I ended of with the old donkey story.

Then went to help Alan with the junior games, then went to YC coz some youths decided to sit in... zzz... luckily the speaker is Jeffery, or I guess I would collapse in there already. Then cell as usual, and met up with Tai for subway at Bedok Point. Saw Uncle Joe and Pricilia, also Mei Chan and Yichane... and Irfan~! ahah. Irfan was working there so we asked about different games that we had never tried before there...

Anyway yea flipping through archives are fun haha, realized how moody I was in secondary school, and ofcoz there is obvious changes in my personality, I was much kinder then to anything and everything around me, now im more of childcare person, kiddos person haha, no choice, as I grow up, I realized people do change, so I guess is better to make the difference to the lives of our younger generations than the current ones, at least they will have a better childhood hopefully with my presence. This also polished the dusty memories of some of the interesting happenings I had, such as the debates in sec 2, about the farm, as well as the 'Merdeka' speech. Mr Tan rocks haha. Interesting, because he made 'usually hated' stuffs fun, eg instead of formal debates, he used scenarios... well, to summarize, interesting sec-sch life, htough not wonderfully happy and joyful, but interesting larh, about the way I used to think, and still thinking... The rants... oh, most of all, impressed my the poetry I crafted, I even made ASSHOLE a beautifully crafted poem that I realized the anagram only when I copied and paste it~!!

zzz... half asleep already, collapse the moment I reached home, rebooting time takes 3h... now going to shut down first.... =) ciao

Yeah~! 500th post~!!!!

right, just bringing up few lines from 2 songs that I think is brilliantly written and harmonized with the music and probably the singer...

想哭~ 来试探自己麻痹了没 全世界好象只有我疲惫
无所谓, 反正难过就敷衍走一回, 但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
yepp sometimes we feel like crying for the sake of crying, but for men its hard and quite unbearable coz somehow it is harder for s to cry... but yea, it is scientifically proven that it reduces stress and can cheer up as well as live longer =) since we had 'let go' the sadness... but anyway, yea, when the world world seemed to be immune (unaffected by our sad pressence), I think it's time to change ourselves instead =)

难过是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多
是心理起了作用
yepp alot of times we mistook, misinterpret, or simply just thought too much on a particular CRAP (Critism, Rebuttal, Assholes, Pressure), that we feel crushed, annihilated, devastated...