Today cycled to MBS with Dad. Felt so great that he accomplished such a feat! 1 hour there and another hour back, with rest stops at Satay by the Bay and Old Airport. He didnt complain much about the distance or anything at all. In fact, he enjoyed the trip.

I'm still in the Cruise mood, so mood for anything else. Oh, I was ona movie spree suddenly, from Infernal Affairs, to Ba Gua Master, to Grandmaster, to Old Stephen Chow movies, running man and Despicable Me!!! It's so interesting to see how we loved the minions so much! They represent the very raw behavior of men, vicious and selfish, at most dutiful. But they're so adorable!!! They also wished for recognition and love.  Well, tomorrow shall find job and a movie before April come. Needed a job as April is full of events, Alvin's Bday and Lin's Wedding.

With money, anything is easier. Cycling down east coast, kallang and marina, let me thing that actually Sg is the only country I know that had its downtown area focused on the river. I guessed except for perhaps Venice, downtown is always at city area with buildings and more buildings. Beside Satay by the Bay, there were ongoing constructions too. Imagine the speed of development.

So my point is, actually Brunei could utilize its money too. Perhaps some of the rich countries could start developing a city for the old? Catered for elderly? If all the developed countries are all economically orientated, then there would be competitions and little room of originality, So perhaps if some of the emerging powers could decide to head towards providing quality old age living, they will definitely attract the rich ppl. Actually, they are just like kids, they need security, service and convenience. Period. At least for the basics. Personal Customization differs on service providers but the basic facilities shouldnt be hard to imagine?

Then I saw a few of my friend's photography web and singing talent. If only I had the capability to sponsor small companies on their start ups, and see them prosper, it would be so great. I think that's my big companies are willing to offer chances for ideas to roll in. Since capital is the most important factor, the big company provide it, and then the money will roll in as they had chosen the creme de la creme idea/company to invest in.

Seriously, with money, so much things could be done, can enroll yourselves into music schools, skills workshops, get good teachers, and you can be superman in a short while. Yes, practice and hardwork and diligence tops that, but seriously, that's a wishful thinking, something that is meant to comfort commoners. The power of money, can buy appearance, that comes with charisma and charms. And then can buy "talent", cuz they dont need proffesionals, just up to standard, and jack of all trades kind, and you will be a superman already. Next can contribute greatly to the world, as you can use your fame and etc to support cause and sponsor people, to help them get whatever they need as a foundation to achieve their dreams.

I imagine all the water jet packs, luxury cruise holidays, gambling for fun, just have the feel of putting in chips or getting chips, and to give money freely to street buskers that have hardwork and dedications, and even hire them, trian them, and give then a chance to pursue something greater, and can support causes, can have no pressure about not being able to support family, can secure a future as there would be people who are grateful of the help in the past so if something happens in the future when you got no money, there will still be a lot of helps and ways.

I remembered someone asked: Why does heaven seems to only help when someone is in most desperate situations? (reference to deities movies and dramas).

Cuz I guess thats the most critical point where people need help, if not then there might breed greed, and no sense of contentment among humans.

If I were a rich man,

Yubby dibby dibby dibby dibby dibby dibby dum.

Just back from a really enjoyable cruise trip. And I made up my mind to name my son Jeffrey, as every single Jeffrey I met was charismatic and cheerful, people persons. Jeffrey was my activity manager, frankly speaking I think the whole cruise was only enjoyable because of him.

Anyway, lots to talk about it, probably elaborating on thur or fri.

Today, Alvin came by, a short meeting, then I went to see CH concert. Again he dont seem to have any other supporter, what this the most I could do, so snap a few shots and perhaps 10 year down the road he might appreciate that we had this archive of his performances?

Then at night, chat with a guy, who I had nagged many times, who had followed me quite a lot at some point in time. Today, he did something really marvelous, a great achievement, and also that he stepped on the journey to lump people together and be the entertainer.

Being the entertainer is not easy, and definitely not for all ages. I could say I am no more the entertainer of kids, but more to the elder population now. So I'm retired to make way for new people. XD I remembered seeing a trainee entertaining kids too the other night.

Jeffrey was similar to a clown too, he is able to entertain without even uttering a word! Hahas! But of all the jokes aside, he was very sincere and caring off stage too. Really really awesome. For that I dream to working together with him in Royal Caribbean Cruises.

Yesterday we were talking about abandonment, forsakened. Sometimes, when the going gets tough, when we are hard pressed on all sides, we feel that its Me against the world, that sense of helplessness. But then, there is always a way out, life will find a way, we are not crushed. 

But recently, perhaps influenced by the piano guy Will, the song If Tomorrow Never Comes kept playing at the midnight hour. However, instead of the subject being someone dear to me, I actually would think of all the things I could not do if tomorrow never comes, and that whether my love and contribution to the world is even enough to make a little difference, whether it even mean something. What if I die and lose that chance to make huge contribution to society? Will I even be at ease? In peace? My bucket list grew, of unknown things, but I know I have this hunger to do something big, just not sure what and how and with what or who.

Is the love I gave her in the past,
Gonna be enough to last,
If tomorrow never comes?

Also, I came across the song, My Way by Frank Sinatra, and thought that the lyrics are really meaningful too. It's probably an aged man, after experiencing so much, felt that he has no more things left to do, since he had done everything his way, and understood the world, so he is really to die. I aim for that day when I had done so much that I will feel nothing could be done further.

Thinking about future often............ Ciao...........

True friendship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable. - David Tyson Gentry

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. - C S Lewis

For all my life Ive been searching for that someone that could act as a bro, someone to know me totally upside down inside out and vice versa, that we could grow up together, and brace the society together. Yet no matter the resources and emotion I always give, just seems to lack. It's perhaps a problem in me, or perhaps destiny, of a lone wolf.

The other night was asking a friend if he feels happier with his gf, he said even if they do nothing, they felt happy. Nothing wrong about that, but thinking back, he always moans and groans and complain and restless when he is doing nothing with us, he dont really like to meet just to talk and simple things like that. So guess Im not even close to that level. 

Also, stumbled an awesome quite from lonelyreload.com, "Don't let the people who do so little for you to control so much of your mind, feelings and emotions" I got to learn to be neutral, to be like Grandma.

Then again, sometimes even my family dont understand me much but Im thankful they do listen and change. In fact, they were not worked up for the Gambling Incident. Elaborate next post.

Today met up with S. Mainly cuz I forsee people quiting out cell, so dont want her to feel abandoned. So no choice, tired, but still gotta go.

Today, my topics are so saddening. For example, I talked about people who are just enough to live in Singapore, their expenses=salary, and so in big risk. Then, I talked about supporting family members. Then, talked about friends, what is true friends and all. Sigh. Guess as we grow older, we are more emo.

Temptations....... always seducing me. Sigh. Gotta brace through them as usual. XD at least Im not alone!

Got alot to say, but no mood to blog, so keeping this short, nights!

This week was great catching up with an old friend, knew of so much secrets and happenings and updates on stuffs, and his personal stuffs and also current situation of other people.... Really admired his "holiness", how he greatly relied on God to curb his problems and all, and his heart for the people, and etc.

Interestingly he do share problems up openly too, grateful for ppl like him, that I can also talk about my problems and get the stifling cotton wool off my lungs... But then again, I'm still feeling that incompleteness.... like there isnt a reli satisfying friendship i fostered throughout the years, like yes even if my purpose is to bridge people together, can at least have someone by my side to talk to and rely upon??

Perhaps I'm too into the quote:
"You measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you."

Sometimes I'm really angry that i am inadequate towards stuffs, and the possibility of better outcome without my existence, and etc........ and that sometimes I think I had too much expectations towards people that the other party did not place me as high as what I do so for the person, and etc, like the song "you needed me", that i would do so much just because I needed them.... and the different behaviors of people... and then I see many bonded groups like gigantic covalent bonds, sharing and strong. Perhaps, Im more of ionic, strong due to giving, but could be taxing, and might be superficial. Sigh.

And also, those charming people, those good at singing people, am Im jack of all trades master of none, nothing i can really excel in, with so much passion but no ability to do anything significant... sigh

Then again, its like getting angry and thinking you're a failure and flipping table, it simply just making your flaws more obvious.   

Okay move on..... Then..........

It's called the Basil Soup Incident. Basically I have never tasted a Hakka traditional dish and so I followed the recipe, to turn up with a bowl of green herbal strong and weird tasting soup, I thought I failed.

Thus after we went to taste it, we conclude I succeeded the recipe but it was not tasty...

So then we had second round at bak kut teh, which made our taste especially good, and so we named it the modern version of "starter" dish. And the concept of "not knowing what is nice if you don't go through the bitter ones" (卧薪尝胆).

Hahas we're quite sure that ancient Hakka ppl was playing truth n dare in herbs and created that, then a prankster had the idea to make it a traditional Hakka dish to troll future generations like us...

The week passed by fast, again mainly cooking and teaching, and a little of sports here and there for leisure.

Thats all for this post, ciao~!

It's been long since I blogged. Anyway my exams wasnt really done well, mainly because I only studied them both 6h each. Anyway, sleep deprived most of the time. Home alone requires me to water the plants, clean the house, refill the water, and all these trivial stuffs, and for the curiosity of a 19 year old boy, to cook too. On top of all these, gotta guide J on his studies, as I only have these 2 months to boost his foundation.

So anyway, nothing much to blog about. Some milestones are to meet up with Samy, cooked a few dishes, Lunch with Tai before he fly for 6 weeks, and such. Well, I'm actually very thankful of a friend for being always there for me when sometimes my attitude might destroy friendships. It's like Wreck-It-Ralph, sometimes, we all feel undervalued, but oh well, all is fair in heaven! A faith to justify for them. And another that showed concern when he mentioned that I looked tired and wished me to take care of myself. Really feel great about it. Also, one long lost friend fb me to thank me for teaching the person to prioritize friends. Though actually im just merely prioritizing the particular person with me at that particular moment.

Next, its about the topic on true happiness, I wonder how it feels like. These fews days I think Ive experienced one time of that, but then as I feel happy, I wonder if the others there would be feeling the same way.

So yea, anyway, I was told that people envied my large social circle, really appreciated that people thinks that I helped expand their social circle, P.Jac words cam back to me, maybe, it's my purpose to be the resources and plan and they build the bridge themselves. However, sometimes I feel that I failed to start the sparks in certain groups of people.

Someone also commented that he would like to have a group like any other groups, all very close to one another, and have frequent meetings and etc. Well, guess kindda thik of it dont think I have such group. He commented to say he dont quite sociallize well, but in my opinion, given his fun-loving and appearance, many would like to hang out with him, perhaps its just him that dont wish to do so.

Well, money depleted real fast. =( im seriously wondering what to do, thus I went around looking for jobs.

Oh right, I might help a trainee to organise a running man soon. Hopefully would be big and fun.