couldnt sleep, or should i say no mood to sleep, drankly, i cried, 2nd consecutive day, dont know why tears just soaked my eyes. it's about studies again, i think, cant really remember how it started, was watching tv happily then mentioned english again. didnt really catch his words but the word 'childish' kindda triggered the beast inside me. yesterday too was the same problem. he said i played too much games, i felt deeply hurt as compared to others, i am like half of them, many had comlained the devoid house i have, not much online gamesnor board games. i felt insulted when they said those words, and have always hoped for someone to cheer me up, since i dont know when. well, he said because of games i write fantasy stories, unrealistic. i must admit i dont read alot of books thus unable to come up with nice stories, but, sigh, to me his words are like saying im not realistic at all, which is crap, who do he think am i? today did not wish to quarel, but seriously, the constant mentioning of past mistakes mkaes me so pissed and therefre flared up. as a human, not dogs or cats (which i believe they will too), we feel guilty of our mistakes, so why mentioning repetively, like as if purposely wanna create quarel. so i said that he had never congratulate me for anything this year, all i remember was the time he said my improvement at piano was good, i was so hoping they would congrts we when i got 82 for emaths as 3D had only 1 passes, but yet they did not, therefore decided not to tell them the rest of the marks. then on parents teacher meet, my life is doomed. i do appreciate how to improve on my studies, but not critisising old mistakes. until now, i think i've lost quite a number of valuables, but think again, each time i lost, it would be an apoclayspe, so the next time lost something it would be like, so what, sooner or later also kena. i dont believe small bad lucks would lessen the huge misfortune lies ahead, shixiong is wrong. im weird i know, i yearn for a family time where there is a common topic besides stocks and studies, maybe family games and such, or picnic etc. this would probably sound insane to most haha. sigh, hope my own family would be a better place. i dont know, my parents seemed to have hih expectations, im just not up to the challenge, cant blame me, and he said it himself, all this is for my future, to earn big $$. seriously, $ had deprived children. example, for many, because of the good for child's future, some parents give ever-going tuition, for the rich, endless toys, spoiling them. are they really happy? society is shit, i just could not take it anymore, i dont really know how to explain, but i had this suffocation in me, like i want to release all my strength, and become violent and brutal, weird and scary feeling... sigh, well, blame my luck, i've got nothing to say.  someties i really feel like trying what is life without home, the door is always open as he said. blame me for a big stomach, doubt i can survive a day. maybe family isnt a good choice, maybe 'home' is a better description, get the meaning? in family, there are bonds, communications and faith, in home, there is only shelter, place to sleep and food. i really doubt my life would have a purpose, but suicidal isnt a wise way to find out, sadly...

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exams are over, yet I got nothing to do still, school's back to normal except for the study part, rot through the days Im bored. My poker was confiscated by a bitch, wth I lent to a friend, they played so long didnt get caught, I was just playing my first round she came and confiscated them, fuck larh blinded bitch no one told me cannot play. 

got bored and pissed, that was yesterday, monday released results and got quite disapointed, failed eng yet do well in chinese, opposite of CA, my sciences are borderline, should be dropping soon ba, try my best for next half year lorh, but prefer to drop now if they offer, then get good grades and be happy and work hard happily ever after lol. I dont know, if eoy screwed then no mood to study lehh... I work for reward, reward for work, well at least thats one of the guiding principle of govenance. SS was glad I passed as I never study at all, all I study was sciences. Lit still sucked, 30/50.  Interesting subject, stupid student haha, really lorh learn about people, can take psychological course in TP, although future job kindda.. erm... limited... Anyway emaths get 82 when 3C highest 74, 3D 1 passes only, yet parents still not pleased with the results, siao... amaths did not get A as expected, stupid signs lost me my As. 

Well, today... no PE, slacked in class, as usual singing and feeling damn bored, reccess, then chem lesson broke a chair, and sang more, chi lesson went over next door played dou di zu with ben and ming xin, lol but yea got nothing to do. Then went back to class, split my PE pants while jumping across legs and under legs, then assembly, apparently all eyes were on few of us who were late, few sec of the centre-of-attention feeling, it feels good... haha, combine humans, ss and lit in our class only me and Evelyn, screwed the average score badly as I got a C5 but she got an A2, lowering the average score to 3.5, just nice school's target, haha. Sigh, work harder lorh. 

Was gonna swim at 5 today but gambled at alvin's house instead, 10 bucks lost, probably biggest loss ever but well, no harsh feelings they are just for the sake of fun joy laughter. In the end due to rushing kindda rash and all-in with triples, lost to an straight sadly, furthermore, decided not to swim in the end. Do not want zijian to get into trouble with his strict parents. well, sometimes swimming could help kill time, and the feeling of it is great, floating like in heaven, somewhat free, diving here and there, and kindda calm too despite the crowd. But seriously, the water IS SO FREAKING HOT !!!! anyway hope we going to minds cafe, with shixiong ofcoz or would be somewhat unenjoyable... thats all folks

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was still singing these few days, wonder why is it that hard to hang out with friends nowadays, they sound so reluctant to go out. was planning to go dapeng's bbq party, kindda overslept. anyway only chueck going, if i late so paiseh haha, sigh, blame my luck for being born too late, should have borned at the 70s or 80s, in the western countryside region, where I could have been drinking and singing with some folks in the pub. well, the more i feel money is important, with them could have solo time crisis or daytona; high class coffee or  big feast; solo kbox or movie marathon, so great, though lonely, but no choice, better enjoying alone than not enjoying at all. maybe i would be now karaoke-ing with some grannys, or perhaps im already in heaven looking at how ridiculous is the world now, well, i think i know my purpose in life, to be that minority who are cosidered social pariahs, those that doesnt think that online games are form of socializing. i find it weird, rather brace the insults in the game, facing a dead thing and is happy. actually, im too, singing towards a dead thing, how silly haha. many times is like here people shouting to online players noobs and laggers, considerate larh, not all people have good comps and good skills, by the way, i swore that im not gonna play any other online games except facebook or occasionary wivava. no gunz, no maple, no warcraft.... hmm, back to topic, i came by an old song 'if i were a rich man', which have been ages since i sang that, again memories of past flooded my mind, well, no choice larh, be happy that i have throat to sing, perfect limps to do stunts, normal brain to think, an average guy. appreciate that people are different, which makes life enjoyable, although at most times sucks haha... by the way, wondering if i could even find a girl next time, who would be my type, who doesnt mind my oldie personality. sigh, yearning for someone who could spent time singing oldies, maybe the 80s haha, or leeway of 90s... rare.. very rare... impossible... just simple impossible... 

Sarah Brightman - Love changes everything

Yesterday was a whole lot of fun. Was suppose to play basketball, but got bored since 3E teamwalk over, so we won, thus have to wait very long. There is a gladiator duel there, blance on a platform and fight using a big inflatable pole. My first opponent was Jehan, he's good, by the way, the rules are that if both fell down, no matter who first, it's a draw, so pounching suicidal is frequently seen. We fought very hard, was breathless, but managed to win. Oh, criteria to win is 3 CONSECUTIVE knock out. Thats why kindda hard. After that rushed to basketball match with trembling feet lol, tried my best to run but lost... 10-0.. trashed, but it's okay for me, no grudges. Went back to the gladiator duel, this time against Bowei. Wei Heng helped video, after the experience with Jehan, managed to knock out Bowei easily. I use it like using the pole taolu in Wushu, as long as I can balance and opponent didnt hit me before I whack the first hit, should be instant win... Tried it with Byran too. Oh yea, Irfan was the funniest. He couldn't get up, thus took like 5 mins to get up, yet 5 sec to get down. I was so bastard when he's out of balance I blew him, rofl. Another one of the match he threw the pole towards me, I did same. Then we use hand signal to gight lol, he lost his balance and fall, but it was decided a draw... hilarious... Oh, there's a briefing on the elective module thing, no one participated so I dont. Not very interested either, but poor Ms Soon trying hard to persuade participant, I said I'll go on November then. In the AVA room was singing with the mic, as usual people tried to shut me up, haha dont really give a damn, whole lot of fun. Skipped CCA, then was suppose to meet up yet Jo is sick, cancelled too, spent 2 hours singing at my desk, haha, watched O Brother WHere Art Thou, movie about christianity, but I just love their songs haha. Today is gonna be bored too, wanted to swim yet no one's free, wanted to go out but dont know about Johann, hope he's fine.

ESC 1994 Winner * 03 Ireland * Rock ´N´ Roll Kids *

I remember sixty-two
I was sixteen and so were you
And we lived next door on the avenue

Jerry Lee was big and Elvis too
Blue jeans and blue suede shoes
And we never knew what life held in store
We just wanted to rock 'n' roll forever more

We were the rock 'n' roll kids
Rock 'n' roll was all we did
And listenin' to those songs on the radio
I was yours and you were mine
That was once upon a time
Now we never seem to rock 'n' roll anymore

Now Johnny's in love with the girl next door
And Mary's down at the record store
They don't wanna be around us no more

Golden oldies, but we hardly speak
Too busy running to a different beat
Hard to understand we were once like them
How I wish we could find those rock 'n' roll days again

We were the rock 'n' roll kids
Rock 'n' roll was all we did
And listenin' to those songs on the radio
I was yours and you were mine
That was once upon a time
Now we never seem to rock 'n' roll anymore

hopefully my life arent as stated haha, but yea, when we were young and unafraid, the world seems to revolves around us, some may say its selfish, but i would want that almost care-free life... but thats life, cant stop in the middle haha so continue appreciate what we still have... speaking of that, walao sway I didnt bring tie kena detension, will escape till caught hopefully haha

just watched angels and demons today, as expected for a tom hanks movie, really nice and creative like the da vinci code and national treasure. one thing very unrealistic is that why would the  Camerlengo go through so much just to be the pope, during the last 5 min before the antimeter activate, (which is also unrealistic as it would be more than 5min to run out of the church, control the helicopter and fly), he could fly the helicopter acting hero, then drop the antimeter onto new york, destroying it... also 1 hour is so short to unlock the mysteries to the place where illuminati is keeping the antimeter... well, gonna watch night in museum hopefully on friday is all them could make it 

will not use comp in the day due to relative staying at my house. Im using dads comp so gonna afk until he is done using then take over, exams been quite managable but parents nag more and more, chatted with aaron kokuanyu, long lost classmate, he changed alot as in appearance, not in mind though sadly, have been taking quizes on facebook, alot results somewhat acurate in terms of personality. Well, cant say 100% acurate as sometimes I could be random, like suddenly random sadist, random high... haha, souls, minds, spirits is still mystery. God is also a mystery. this world is full of wonders, like a spider could spin web just as when it was born, and anything can happen in just a sec... Still i do want some thrill and fun in live, probably life's objective is to pass on generation, thats all then live live fullest by enjoying life. Dont get it why some people so scared of death, life will end,just matter of when and how... Some people on the other hand ennjoy money, money so materialistic, although again without life, you cant do nothing.  Probably when I can make it, I would buy an island in Indo, then create a simple living there, maybe only for people who love the sun and breeze, elderly, those who want to enjoy the world as it is in the beginning. Right, the word is 'care-free'... One quiz i find particularry interesting is that I resulted 'The Underappreciated Bestfriend'.

You try to keep everyone happy, and sometimes at your expense. You foot the bill when you're all out to celebrate, just so everyone can have a good time and not worry about money. You'd do anything for your friends, even though they forget to thank you or don't show you the appreciation you deserve. Although it's nice that you're being everyone's rainbow, think about yourself, too. No one will think you're a bad friend if you say no to some of their requests..

This was a result I had never had, quite true larh, one example is 3A, all them so unwilling to participate in activities. I could just dump the forms, after 10 mins oh 3A has got no participants, but dont really feel right doing that. Then also sec 1 stayed back help arange classroom nicely, every row neat like hell sia dont think I have the patience now... then in one committee meeting they say i worthless, so disheartening, though cant control the class at least did some help... if not wrong i cried there, dont really remember this incident or another...

Maybe is just me, that people seem to not have the kind of friendly tone that I expected. Simple things like when I intro a game u dont like, dont just walk away like some assholes. Also saying things like noob and such like they so pro, or exagerate a fault to huge extent, the victim feels badly guilty already lorh. Some tend to be hypocripe like example person B loves the thing person A is doing yet person C despise that, so person B agreed, so coward... Maybe just ying yang of people. Some people was treated badly therefore he became tyrant too, some people was abandoned before therefore later in their lives they tend to abandon people too.... and maybe society has changed too, maybe this is the way to live life, aiya, so many maybe, troublesome, I would be still be, although trying to suit other people, but never change what i believe in...

Weird ping pong match

hilarious !!!!! MUST SEE

suddenly listen to songs I used to listen when young, sigh, memories of me singing with friends flashed back, every pixel of them, every melodious and grinning tone all brought smiles on my face. How I love to spend my days singing with friends, sigh, those are seasons that had all gone, everytime think back my young days, so funny, sometimes I want to return to the past, but well, we would not be the young ones very long, must cherish what i have now... aiya, at least still got throat to sing, btw just now watched campus, omg shawn break voice now so much different, sad for him, at least still can sing. More and more young people so talented, being william hung is not a way to fame now haha, last friday afer school suddenly high in spirit, sing non stop, but felt so relieved, of god knows what thing haha, just felt much alive. But still I sang with melodies fly freely, carried with the wind so swift so brisk... its not compliment, melodies fly freely mean out of tune, carried by wind means tune might jump dramasticli, so bisk means always change songs to songs... but dont really care, bo bian, people only critisize, wont make correction, so too bad anyway my mouth, my choice to sing haha, 3A wouls suffer, muahahaha... 

Brainiac - Burning a Candle

Ever wonder what happen if you burn candle at both ends?

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sigh, my tip top condition more lit book is gone, threw a tantrum yesterday, my house gorrila kept mentioning amaths as an example to say i suck at everything else, its been like that since yip called, that devil had ruined my life, my family was so far from harmony, for that i dislike home once more, days isnt like this before yip called, this sucks, last year, we used to play piano, that was my best year with least conflicts at home, the piano was an angel, but now, i wouldnt even want to touch, he would probably say 'go continue study, dont think u knew all, like amaths blah blah'. i just couldnt believe, before the ebast came back, was happily enjoying life with family, going for lunchs and dinners which i had never had, peace and quiet atmosphere at home, was thinking that maybe my family would be great with him around, playing together maybe, but no, a complete irony. frankly, as a family, we had never played a game together, never go for a picnic together, or other forms of activities. would want a studio apartment by myself, small yet free and peaceful. as again, i work best willingly, not under nagging or forced... exams are coming, the more they nag, and the more i have no mood to study, haha, thats life... a typical pile of shit

Your Risk Taking Level: Medium

What's life without a few risks? You're willing to be daring when the time is right. You know that there's no reward in life without risk. You just always make sure that you look before you leap.

Are You a Risk Taker?

well yea I would want something more in my life than to be controlled by the system of society. I would want to achieve someting great or thrilling, what's life without fun, you would die sooner or later why not risk while there are time.

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings
  

The free bird leaps
on the back of the wind
and floats downstream
till the current ends
and dips his wings
in the orange sun rays
and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks
down his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings
with fearful trill
of the things unknown
but longed for still
and is tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn
and he names the sky his own.

But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing

The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom. 

Maya Angelou

find that people are liars, and have no sense of how to not hurt others' feeling, this is the world we live in, well, no harm to me though got used to the wondeful homing missiles.. sigh, another week gonna pass soon, exams soon, wonder if still can hang on to my studies, sci and amaths borderline, sci okay to me just have to work hard, amaths need a tutor to coach me 1on1 for maybe few hours, should be enough. Lit is screwed therefore ss no matter, chi confident yet english below average, sian... went to pizza hut. Worth my 10 bucks as I learn quite alot of english, and got to try the chhezy lava crush, it was delicious. We spam all the cheeze there, in fact, one full bottle of it. Due to the free flow of drinks we scamed through as 2 people shared a glass, haha. Bad thing is we always kena distracted, playing language games, joking all day through. Soon gonna start dued homeworks, sigh

牛仔很忙改編版-老师很忙

first part not bad then crap haha

sigh, exams coming, good luck to all candidates. Parents have been nagging to study. Sigh, frankly speaking, I'm in fault for being lazy, but seriously in the end I will still be in that average marh. Sorry larh I give in to temptation fast, that doesnt mean I completely dont study. Why cant they just relax, I know study is like rowing a boat on a river, if dont row the boat will only be swept away my the waves, but here I am throwing an anchor into the water, I would be still in the same position, no deprove nor improve. Sometimes I think what if the world changes. Changes into a world where everyone is equal regardless ranks or status. Then all will have equal salary, but that would result people wanting the easiest job. But then can rotate marh, it would be better, then everyone would at least have basic knowledge of each of the jobs in the world. Sigh, dream on Kaya... I found out parents are more worried since I kena yip-ed. Nowadays the moment they utter a word to me would be on studies. Sigh... sigh... sigh... 

game on http://apps.facebook.com/quizdoyouknowme/take_quiz.jsp?q=671681&key=3IU4

2nd edition to my quiz hahahahahahahahaha.....

hmm, back to posting, try this:

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dont think anyone could attain 100%, more coming out if good feedback, anyway was talking to jo, we chatting about class, so for my class, i think people are suckers, when somebody did something wrong or something, one will start the blam, and the rest all follow... suckers as in they dont have a mind of their own, only know how to use the words 'ya lorh'. Then again, dont u think the one making the mistake feels sad and guilty enough? One phrase for my class: luo jing xia shi, jing shang tian hua, Sigh we humans, all different, just have to be used to it...

Then for his class: people always side the majority. Jo, along with the class, was asked if a train is approaching a group of playing kids, you got no choice to do anything but only the ability to change the trackto an unused track with a poor boy playing, what would you do. Obvious is let the train go, who ask the kids to play, somemore the unused track might result the whole train to be sacrificed. But Jo class chose to sacifice the boy, and Jo followed, critisized by his friend afterwards for not having his own mind. Not saying not good, but one should follow his/her own rights, Im an easy influenced person, should start sticking to my own rights from now on. 

Then a question poped out, now obviously the right way to live is having moral values blah blah, but who knows that the actual right way is the opposite, it's kindda mysterious... like who knows someone up or down or anywhere else set a rule that the right way the the opposite of the mroal values. Or there must be a balance to good and evil, who knows bad people is born to do so, is there a fix fate or destiny??

Speaking of destiny, today we were out for study group, went pasir ris mac to eat, then study for an hour, and then arcade since we all have not been to the arcade for a year, and then we wanted to do either tamp kfc or airport, then i took out my cards, black means kfc, red the other. The outcome is 3 black 1 red. Then i said 9 or bigger kfc, it turned out King, then we tried red kfc, outcome 3 red 1 black... freaky? We tried around 10 times already, even stuffs like our hands plus together over 60 go airport, or vice versa... wow, fate or destiny or curse???

Oh ya, in arcade we played time crisis, and we 4 got into 6th position, completed the game, cool eh? I had never played throught the boat stage lorh, coz dont bother to continue marh, sometimes barrel stage die liao... we used 2.5 tokens average each person...

I think this would be my first long post this year. These questions just poped out... So lets just stop here for the day... Oh ya, we didnt study in kfc too, instead we played warkings and in progress creating another game with that same deck... conclusion: study group with them will never work, lucky didnt print out papers and good compos for them...