Today slacked at BBT shop, joked and had fun before going for tutorial for 2h.

Slept at WC house haha, then went for pasar malam at toa payoh since Im returning lib books.

These days started to watch the new drama, Yours Fatefully, I think there are some nice theme that the drama brings out. One of them is night blindness, filial piety (living with parents despite having family), culture, and paranoid behaviors perhaps. Other than that, the mainstream theme is the romance as I discussed in previous post. Hmm, just now in the morning I had a funny thought, that I shall set today's dinner for "the one", but in the end I ate alone. Hmmm. Sigh. 

Watched Jump by channel U, sort of a remake of Let It Shine, but I think Let It Shine is better. This remake is rather boring and amateur. Perhaps the only interesting part is the skipping, which got my interest to play =D 

Oh right, this June gonna be a busy month, planning for so much Pop Excel outings, jobs, voluntary work, and SCC. =D 

The brain is the most complex study one can ever embark on, sometimes Im really so so curious what are people thinking. 

Once I was talking with someone, thats when I heard that I had been placed under the impression that Im more distant to Wushu and more towards my other activities. Well, I agree n disagree. Agree, because yes Im trying to pursue the maximum happiness I could get. Disagree because by the portion, I do think they took the largest piece of the pie, just that I have many events and activities that they placed under "others". By further differentiating it, it should be consist of many many groups and subgroups.

But as I shared, my level of happiness decreases there, as I found the bond breaking, though I do feel really proud and overwhelmed of the revival. I do treasure bonds, but sometimes rashness would make me defend the new ones on the expense of old ones, until people stopped it. there was a few occasions that I upfront argued in favour of trainee to the trainer. Yet, sometimes, is like I cant really connect to them anymore? Or maybe it was just me, I find that my topics are typical turn offs in he social world. I do regret at alot of times, why wasnt I a gamer, to relate to people, to start the topic, to create the spark? Then why was I so "oldies"? Why am I so "cold and apathetic"? Can I be "normal" again, to really be shaken and excited by every single common trivial things? Im also often misunderstood, as someone advised, perhaps, we should ask ourselves, "why did I give such a negative image to others?". 

Well, connection is important. I do realize Im not the only one that has many vibrancy and dynamics in life, yet the moment the clock strikes 12, alone, at home, or sometimes anywhere else, we feel really lonely and empty, distant, and aloof from the world. It was as if something was missing. Sec 1, I felt as if there was a beast in me, caged, subdued. Now, it felt that there was a hole, a missing piece, and I suspect perhaps bgr has a relationship with it. 

No matter what, most importantly, I really fear that 10 20 years down the road, these people would just disappear, vanish, and the memories, dissolve into thin air, gone by the wind, weighted down into the abyss. One of the most saddening and scary song, All By Myself by Eric Carmen

Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody's home

With that, I do sms and encourage sec sch friends too, esp those that has better memories than I do, of the times we have spent together. I really have a lousy memory. I could forget passwords, and secrets,  other ppl personal stuffs that they shared and important yet I dont remember, and even memories, that needed so much hints to clear the dust and piece the faded puzzle back again. Thus, photographs and archives are really important to me. How I wish Harry Potter do exist, we can really "store" our memories.

Fri was a great time for me to finish up my assignments and have a nice chat with classmates =D

Went for sundown last night for some promotional job, met a few friends there too =D

Today after wushu, we went for basketball, then chatted. 

Well, today i had some thoughts, about if lets say you have to choose within a spouse who is really helpful to the family, shows much concern and care, an excellent submissive one, yet you are finding the "dream" spouse, which you have unknown personality and etc, who would you choose. I think I would choose the former. I think what really matters is a harmonious family. When you are sure of your spouse personality, I rather take the safe bet rather than risking the "dream" spouse with so many possibilities of unsuitable personalities. 

Well, was revisiting Green Forest My Home, the drama, and was thinking how environment can change one person, how can they recognize each other after so many years? And the thing about "sabotaging", and backstab, it really exists everywhere. 

Then, well, I dont know, as much my personality is used to dont trust any person completely, I do, at many times, self deny the fact. As much as possible, I would give the person benefit of doubt so as to not doubt their words. Or rather, the fact that they "script" a fake recount would only mean the person do not want to open up, thus there's no reason for me to shatter that barrier and barge in. Everyone is sort of in a constant act anyway. 

Who am I truly??? 

Oh right today GDOP, though I didnt attent the event, I shall pray for 2 person I know, one whose bed ridden of illness, one bed ridden of recovering from injury. 

Quoted from a Facebook status update:

walked into the lift
young cute boy in the lift in his cute laidback voice:
hello.. hello..i'm gonna ride my bike.. hello AUNTIE..i'm gonna ride my bike..
his mum's frantic reply: JIE JIE, NOT AUNTIE!!!!
his slightly older sis (toddler too): HELLO JIE JIE..

kids are brutally honest
then they are taught by their parents
about social etiquette and politeness
to exist harmoniously in the world
by receiving informal sanctions
and slowly understanding that the world involves more players
and moves through life transitions by developmental stages =D

After reading a Yahoo news, Parents ‘disappointed’ about having to serve more volunteer hours
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/parents-%E2%80%98disappointed%E2%80%99-about-having-to-serve-more-volunteer-hours.html?fb_source=timeline_news&fb_action_ids=10150915130513560&fb_action_types=news.reads&fb_ref=type%3Aread%2Cuser%3AR-JOTZ_iDTHRUi5RuG3wjov7ki8&code=AQDOcAICk1mjndIMuR8-thd0czhUoNqhodHpfiEeHFM_hDXO3woKwmVodahBMbq-N-0AiSAE_uE1vIVULUQ4nwiG84-nQlKjrmQtz3z8jJJn6ZQHNWyCfnQQ5m2Y3ldhzbCsNhEsDSfunnhEp36NBCEwrJ5mExanKCjOAvd4x52urXrWzWIb2Klv9pwz7UV_yWo#_=_

if parents could and gonna helicopter their kids more than this extend, then these extra hours are expected, its like supply demand, with more quantity supplied, graph shifts right, price equilibrium shifts up =D then again, the definition of "volunteer" is really complicated now....... though still have the willingness, but the objectives.......

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The Pearl Necklace Story

The cheerful girl with bouncy golden curls was almost five. Waiting with her mother at the checkout stand, she saw them: a circle of glistening white pearls in a pink foil box.

"Oh please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please!"

Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl's upturned face.

"A dollar ninety-five. That's almost $2.00. If you really want them, I'll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday's only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma."

As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. McJames if she could pick dandelions for ten cents.

On her birthday, Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace.

Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere--Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.

Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night when he finished the story, he asked Jenny, "Do you love me?"

"Oh yes, Daddy. You know that I love you."

"Then give me your pearls."

"Oh, Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess--the white horse from my collection. The one with the pink tail. Remember, Daddy? The one you gave me. She's my favorite."

"That's okay, Honey. Daddy loves you. Good night." And he brushed her cheek with a kiss.

About a week later, after the story time, Jenny's daddy asked again, "Do you love me?"

"Daddy, you know I love you."

"Then give me your pearls."

"Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my baby doll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is so beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper."

"That's okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you." And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss.

A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed Indian-style. As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek.

"What is it, Jenny? What's the matter?"

Jenny didn't say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver, she finally said, "Here, Daddy. It's for you."

With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny's kind daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime-store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny.

He had them all the time. He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her genuine treasure.

What are you hanging on to?

--- Author Unknown

Finally got a chance to blog again. Well, let's start on Sat.

Sat was with Uncle all the way, halfway through bought a man-u ball after running a few hardly-accessible places, then pass it to Tai, before continuing the tour. After that, met up with Xperiential Events friend for some Multi Level Marketing stuffs, then home. Upon reaching home, it dawned on me that Sheng's surprise got to be big, so without much hesitation I started to think how to craft a box out. Time flew and it was 3am, thus I had an hour power nap, before continuing, then off to airport, before going to Bedok CC roof for the surprise set up. Glad he's pretty surprised. I agreed that this year, the physical gift would be biased for him, since Tai's celebration usually are costly already, and the presents for him for the past years were rather biased for him. So this time round, I think it was rather worth it, though my bank is again poorer by a whole lot. Sigh.

So Mon, nothing much happened, today, after the make up lecture, I went to buy this graduation day sculpture from Precious Thots, I saw it the other day at Plaza Sg, and was so tempted to buy,  yet it would be meaningless to buy for self, and had to wait 2 years for graduation to own it, but today was perfect! I thought of YJ!!! I really liked to collect these stuffs, but since collecting doesnt invoke the meaningfulness of gifts, thus I shall buy it for people, so I can enjoy it. They would be like the storage box haha. =D Hopefully. Hope he treasure it..........

Then, since the cell is missing, felt like being flown kites again, so went to SCC to visit A.Imm. Haha so great to see how excited she was to finally found someone to help with the June 20 outing, as well as planning for the June holiday games. =D really glad to be back. Then she shared with me her feeling of being a widow and so on, made me feel more motivated to make contributions for this neglected group of people in the future. =D

A.Imm shared a story in the bible too.... It was so interesting I posted on Solid Rock page.....

‎"With his wife’s full knowledge he kept back part of the money for himself, but brought the rest and put it at the apostles’ feet."

Taken from Acts 5, really scary and interesting chapter, about this couple who suppose to donate away ALL their money to God, but in the end they were contaminated with "unwillingness" to surrender everything to God, so both the couple died in the end......

This is like trying to deceive God, deceiving a King, which is similar to olden China, the punishment is death. Do we habour such "unwillingness" feeling when it comes to God? Furthermore when we are made to be His branches, He the vines. For such a serious consequences, yet He, at many times, still forgive our sins. How great is God?! 

Which is a harder to say, "Your sins are forgiven" or "Get up and walk"?

To men, its probably "Get up and walk", since it would be on the cost of our face, and also great deal os supernatural miracle to physically heal a man. But I believe it is a much more magnificent task for Jesus to say "Your sins are forgiven", for he sacrificed himself for us, and to take all the sins away from us.

My one cent thoughts.

Then, just as I was going home, Jorgen smsed me that he is going to PP, so met up with him, again after 2 or 3 weeks, until now. Tiring, but worth it, just that I have to work harder tomorrow for the Gender Issues Essay before the paid survey job comes in starting tomorrow. JYJY Kaya!!!

The week went so fast and fun~!! Starting from Tue.

Tue I skipped the whole day of school. I met up with Samy first for a chat and then caught the 3D avengers. 3D do make a difference towards the end 40 mins of the show. It was an awesome day before I meet up with Tai for flashmob rehearsal at NYP.

Wed I skipped school again for the flashmob. It was fun, the first show had a great response, then the 2nd one where Eunice "Quek" saw us haha. Then I planned with sx for a surprise for the 2 bday boys. SX asked them out for a sudden meeting, emergency meeting, when I kept persuading Tai it was something serious because sx couldnt make it for training this sun. So after dinner with Tai at Changi Point's soup spoon, cold storage and desert shop, I told him Im skipping the meeting for mum asked me home. Then I met up with sx before heading  to Udders for the surprise. Haha they were caught off guard haha. Sx baked a cake for them. WeeSeng was there too, thats when we spoke about the WeeSeng being our timeline too haha. Then as he was asking Johann if he know Yusof, sx and sheng shouted at the same time, "I know, I know" while taking out their wallets. HAHAHHAHAHA~!!! Oh right the first reaction Sheng did when he saw WeeSeng was touching his hair like padding some kid hahahahhah! Super cute.

Thur nothing much happened because we are all busy for school. But as usual it was fun in school where Jane was teased by Siva, as always haha.

Today, CCN day was fun, managed to help the class sell 6 pathetic bowls of cereals, then went to the Party for a cause. Wow, 2 bucks entrance fee, free flow drinks, for 2h of party-ing!! There was a boys vs girls dance battle, the girls are really really wild and crazy. It was awesome! Oh I went to color my hair for the day to support Jo's class. Damn fail they still loss 3 bucks haha.

Then, is the epic moment of bashing Tai. Our original plan was to ambush him at his void deck using water bombs and other sticky food, but due to his late release, we ambush him at Sakae Sushi at Suntec. Really funny when we chose that 7 bucks cheesecake and the numbered candle (without the "1" as we substituted with the candle stick to save cost). Then, we totally ambushed him and caught him off guard, we had a challenge 4v2.5, with Me Tai Jomkwan at one table, and Jo, Nick, Sheng and KayJin at the other, they won us 60v55. But by average we beat them haha. But Johann wasnt full, he thought there were still more but the last order was sent. Had a fun time, especially when Sheng meet KayJin, 2 camera men, haha, they talked like old kakis the moment they met, wow! Really really fun. Stay tuned for more for the weekend!! before serious stuffs since I have a 2 weeks of inactive-ness in school.

So then I settled down, and got shocked on the amount of money Ive spent in this week.

Wow, then, I thought of all the bday contributions, it was really scary!!

Starting from my dear cell leader YongJie's bday, ive spent 10 bucks, the shared ball and the shepherd.
Then, KY, 40 on the bag, 20 on the cake, 10 for the frame and etc....
Then, Jo, I bought him a 30 bucks capo for his guitar...
Then, its the event just now, 26 on the buffet, 7 extra to cover for his cake and meal, plus another 10 for the joint present from WuXuan. Then, pending, it would be 20 for Sheng's surprise.
Oh, and one rather important person too is Alvin, 30 for his hat last year, but only 5 this year for the cake.
Wow! For these few vital people in my life ive become 200 bucks poorer...... Awesome....
It was fun though, with all the surprises and all, the planning, the execution, the fun~!

Wonder where did this birthday surprises thing originate from, imagine a social butterfly, that would be like a huge part of money spent on birthdays alone. If there were to be just 100 people that we are in close contact, that would be at least 1000 bucks spent! Wow. Luckily milestones are only at around age 12,18, 21....... =D these will have to be memorable and long lasting, and grand, the rest are just for thoughts. So far ofcoz the most expensive gift I ever give was Jo's Braun Buffel wallet, followed by KY, and then for Tai and Sheng, ever since we met, due to their consecutive bday occurance, I  usually spent most on the party itself, while the gifts are rather "thoughtless" like the garfield - doraemon, the dogs, the cake..... Sigh, thus this year I got to give them something longer lasting and memorable. Really thinking about those wonderful days of 2008. =D =D

Ok its late gtg, ciao.......

Today was really awesome. Full day of jokes.

The first was Wayne's friend, You Lian, came to ask me for tissue, he was like, "shi xiong, do you have tissue?" haha so formal for a tissue! =D

The next was when sx teaching ky fanzi, then I was secretly following with tai at their side. Then, sx asked ky to do the taolu from the start, so we followed, we managed to followed all the way through to the dramatic pose, but not ky, so sx turned around and said "even they get it and you're lost" hahahhaha.

Then, for lunch, sx wanted to go kfc, then jo said with much agitation, "cannot! sheng cough, tai cough, im sick of double down, kaya, i sumpah will qi kong liu xue!! (blood on all 7 holes) hahahhaha!!!!

Then we went for the Escape Game 2nd edition with Nickolas, Cheuck, KY, Tai and Jorgen, I really enjoyed this group much better. They're all rather enthu about the game and not moaning and giving black faces. Along the way we joked loads about blowing the upper holes and lower holes of the harmonica, and einstein, (which confirmed that he was married with kids), and many more.

Overall, I think they enjoyed it though as usual we almost cleared the game this time round. Next time we WILL emerge winners!!!

Then, an unexpected sms came and brighten my day even more! =D woohoo =D =D Ha! Ha! Ha! Beautiful Sunday~!!!!

Just finish rewatching House of Flying Daggers cuz of Andy Lau winning that prize.

When I first watch this show I thought the ending was sad cuz the girl was fooled,
but now as I watch I think she deserves it cuz loyalty was regarded highly in olden times
her heart could change so easily by companionship, too slutty
but still give her credit to deflect faster than Andy, her power of love is that strong
and I think its a brilliant script cuz the image of the drop of blood being splashed onto the knife was like life being ended on violence, as the scene depicts.

Avengers was really awesome! Worth every dollar I paid. Hulk was the funniest character of the whole show. The 2 hours was exciting on every second. Every speech, every actions, got its interesting point, and excellent jokes. Avengers was one of the best marvel movies, where every prequel and sequel are linked, as if happening on the same timeline. Haha, speaking of timeline, on sun, we came up with the idea that our wushu timeline goes according to weeseng's hair. When he was bald, when he had normal hair, mushroom hair, mohawk, and blonded. Haha. It is because as he changed his hair style, that marked sort of a period of time where there are changes in wushu.

Before Avengers, I met up with YJ n WC in school for breakfast, then accompanied YJ all the way to douby gaut before heading back to tampines to buy the tickets. Right after that, I  went to school with a severe headache that forces e to purchase panadol there. As I reached home, it became worst, so worst that on the fear of being MC today, I water-tortured myself, drinking half a glass of warm water every half an hour, then tried to burp because it felt uneasy on the inside. As I thought, after a while, I vomited out like the merlion. That was 4am. I felt that the heat and the aches was flushed out as I vomited, though the throat was slashed by the pricks of the fluid. I thought I was going to have a sore throat, yet now it didnt.  Still some uneasiness on the stomach though, but no more heat, no more aches, no more tortures. However, a slight degree of headache still persists.

Gotta stay strong! I cant afford to get sick in midst of academic demands and other activities, was still thinking whether I should go for the flashmob later at night, though with the lack of sleep. After all exercising will sweat the heat out too? If there were to be residues of it.

So I switched on my comp on the idea that since many of my classmates and other citizens are getting sick, it must have been because of the weather. Thus I thought of the students......

So I wrote to them, Yo~~ Had a nice holiday?? All the best for your remaining papers!!!! =) Do drink up too the weather getting mood swings these days and loads of ppl getting sick, including me, I had a rough night in fever.So dont let it be a hindrance to ur life~~

掌声在欢呼之中响起 眼泪已涌在笑容里
启幕时欢乐送到你眼前 落幕时孤独留给自己

Inertia, as he took up the paint
Cathartic, after the bottled up pain
Engulfed by the applause and the crimson cheek
A strong sigh, pause, for the funny freak
Jaunty smiles, frowns unspoken
Was all that he could do
When the drapes drew open
And guffaws too

- 2012, Kyanta Yap
Inspired by the song

The death of a talent seems to be mourned more than an unknown. Yet every life matters, have we placed a value & significance on people based their performance & talents? Death is also a reminder that life is short, so carpe diem and do what matters most.
- Quoted from Linnet.


Yes its true, that our society recognizes the death of many many famous people, and left the nameless ones "shi bu ming mu". Not really, but yea, just like an ancient saying, behind every great general lies the corpses of countless nameless normal warriors. 


So I was wondering, what would be my last words if I were to die? And what last words would I receive from the people around me? Last words usually impact people the most, especially closed ones, they are anchored deep within you, and they reverberates within your eardrums. 


Today, something really sad happened. Last week, I thought we had decided the group arrangement for a tutorial class, you see, it all happened because I jumped class into this current one, thus I have to join the class 2 people for the tutorial. So then, today I heard, and rather devastated me, was that they actually "kicked" me out, leaving only 4 of them. Well, just as I thought, I might have found a new social group, this happened. 6 years ago, guessed I would have cried real bad, and then throw stones into the reservoir, and climbed up that slope and doodle, or come out with some poetry, full of hopelessness and hatred, and alienation and anger. Sigh. So ofcoz, they had the stutters and uneasiness when they broke the news to me, I understands, since I'm int his social sciences field too. Guess, this is the way of men. 


Seriously, the story of Job impacted me much, he was stripped off his assets, houses, wife, children, wealth, everything, so in this context, since 2012, my life turned, my lifestyle morphed, my personality changed, my everything, seems to be so new, truly a huge transition. 2011 ended really well, why must 2012 be this way? Then comes his best friends accusing him, where mine no longer stayed as my listener, perhaps one, one really awesome one, that listens, and talk too, so there are interactions, that I wont feel tired to be always the one talking. Sigh. When life just doesnt make sense anymore, we tend to look into faith, and I shall hope that there will be a way, there will be an answer, there will be abundance once again. Perhaps, its time that I re-evaluate what matters most in life, perhaps I should start returning to the old me, where nothing really make sense in the world, where everything are Earthly, and shouldnt harbour any emotions in me, where I will be in my own world.  


Though tracing back, there was really that few times when we used to inform each other on upcoming events, but there was this talk where they excluded me, then from then on, everything went downhill, to the shark fin events, to other activities. Sigh. Everything was so superficial. 


2 sides of me. One, I really want to shout out, vent out, cry out, release the emotions in me. Two, thats how the world is made, no surprises, I was ready for it, why should I be so affected by it? I got through alot through my life too, and have seen much too. Unsure which is the more normal way to cope with it, perhaps counselling might help? Meeting with Samy soon, maybe he could give me a boost =D Ofcoz, thanks a few persons in my life who noticed a change in my verbal presence. But these things are too small to trouble you guys, too trivial to have you to be worried about. Maybe this one still able to talk out, but some other issues perhaps not very appropriate, as in better to have someone of the same generation. =D

Today sch was simple too, nothing much happened.

After sch I met up with a good friend of mine, had a good chat, though not as gratifying actually, compared to others, but still glad we talked. It takes both efforts to maintain a friendship, or any relationship too.

Perhaps, today, Ive learnt much more during tutorial. Yes, surprisingly, my tutor might not be the best tutor, and might be a bore to many, but she indeed has interesting quotes to share. The first was taken from the Good News Translation bible,

Proverbs 27:20 Human desires are like the world of the dead - there is always room for more.

This is interesting because though same meaning, I think this version gave a stronger image of the capacity of human desires. Surprisingly, this is one version that people seldom reads. Yes, indeed, human desires are like the world of the dead, people kept dying, just as our wants kept growing. As I grow up, I noticed my bucket list kept growing.

Then the next thing she said was: The opposite of love isnt hate, its indifferent.

Yes, precisely! Even in hate, there is a certain degree of love, because it still means something to you, that it matters to you because you loved, thats why you get angry, thats why you hate, but if you are indifferent, it simply means you dont care about it anymore, that it doesnt concerns you, you are not part of it in any ways.

It's surprising that I hear all these in an Econs class. For that, Im quite glad Im in this CDS.

Everything seems to pass so fast. I felt so bad on Mon. The whole morning I have been eating noodles and all, and totally forgot about that important occasion! Sigh. Anyway, school was alright, then I went out with class 02 to spend MW's birthday.

We went to Changi Point. Throughout the journey, there were loads of funny moments, it was almost chained. After laughing about the "Ms Chong", are you Ms Chong" joke (he wanted to  ask whether it was more appropriate to address her as Mrs on the sight of her ring), then comes the epic moment when 4 of us were on the back seat with a stranger wanted to get out. Then, for god knows what reason one of them let out a large sigh, "shit!" hahahahahahahha.

Totally awesome, laughed really hard for that. So we ate a simple meal, grabbed a slice cake, fooled around, and then I met up with Jorgen. Saw ZJ there too with Alvin and hmm, forgot who (psps).

Right, so we walked to Simpang, then slacked at his condo roof.

We spent the rest of the night Marvel-ing on facebook, and watched movies, as well as just talking.

So labour day, didnt do anything much, literally a good rest for me, slept from late evening to night. Didnt do anything too. Now just surfing youtube for The Voice auditions. I feel all the singers are soooo awesome and powerful! Especially the battle rounds, I think generally they are well paired, with very very intense and close competition. A few that I especially liked was the Jeese and Anthony pair singing If I Aint Got You, and Katrina and Angel pair singing Bleeding Love.

Then I was surfing facebook, while playing the song, Somebody I Used To Know. Wow, the mood is totally OMG. Really, I wonder if there's any formula to predict the rate of change of the drifting distance within two persons. Well, perhaps a common phrase in life, but its really so so bizarre that two or more closest friends could just drift apart to strangers in such a small period of time. Friendship is so superficial. Each one of us is so affected by the many social forces in our lives that it all boils down to companionship and common topic. There are no strings attached to neither friendship nor love.

So I was thinking that the entertainment industry is really interesting, where everything may be just of entertainment value, every kiss every rumours are just to get the paparazzi busy and the newspapers filled. They generate one of the most money in the world, where other parts of the world are suffering and all. Wrestling too, so interesting to see all the ridiculous acting and all, yet everyone is following it and making money out of it too. Charisma is the ability to influence without logic, a drug to the world.

Life is a stage, true enough, we are all actors, how much do you really reveal yourself, your thoughts, your feelings, to someone else? Sometimes, it's really great to share some of your deepest feelings or thoughts about something, but after that its hard to believe that you have just spurt out something you have been keeping to yourself all along, its like the efforts wasted for a brief moment of release, from some stones that has been weighing you down. Then again, after that release, there might be a slight feeling of embarrassment and fear of being humiliated and all. Not just problems though, that I was mentioning, perhaps more personal and private matters?