Today is another whole day of indulging myself in the sea of intelligent movies, which is so because it appears to me as intelligent perhaps because I am not intelligent therefore the existence of things that are beyond my intelligence would be deemed intelligent to me but not to those who are in the field and find it amateurish. Then again, the only thing Socrates know is that he knows nothing, and he finds joy in that, and so do I. Philosophies aside, it's rather great to know that you know nothing, so that everything would be a miracle to you, in doing so, we'll find joy in living.

Okay, you can see I'm going nuts, hahas, some stereotypes of psychologists and philosophies, that they would think alot, and become a patient themselves in the end chanting "Eureka".

Anyway, so the first movie I watched was "The Exam", a 2010 movie about eight people in a room sitting for an exam, a selection test. The whole budget movie takes place in a room. Its like some psychology experiment just like the movie, "the experiment", which mimics the Zimbardo Prison Experiment.

From the movie, a contrast of compassion and determination by hook or by crook is shown. In the end they backstab each other and kills each other, until the compassionate one is all is left. The exam is interesting but not fair, there has got to be guinea pigs to figure it out, like how the previous few tried to write what they think the question is. They are so innocent, they are "taking initiative" thus should be an encouraged behavior too.

Anyway, so from these, we do see human nature, which is why we do not need to learn to push other babies when they possess our possessions, or that territorial behavior we have, or how we took joy in other's misfortune, schadenfreude, why bullies exists, why greed exists. In psychology, thats all the words of ID, dont know why it is so, I do agree with a classmate it stands for Inner Demon. It is the one behind all the impulse just to satisfy a certain hunger.

However, there is a certain argument, like the Bundle Theory, whereby it argues that an object is merely nothing but the combinations of properties, an apple is nothing more than just a group of properties - red, sweet, round, etc. So, a human is nothing but an empty vessel that is filled with properties as well. So what process was taking place when someone possesses such primitive barbaric characteristics?

Then the soul of an object, would be the one that, if taken out, the vessel is nothing. Cutting is the soul of the knife, without this soul, the knife would not need its properties at all. The knife would then be nothing, or can become another form if another soul was infused in it. What then, makes me, me, what makes each individual human, human? The properties we possesses are common to all other too, what is then, our soul? What made us what we are? The soul, what is it made of? Not water, not carbon, not bones, what?

Back to topic, then I watched the last episode of Unriddle 2. Really interesting to find that the efforts of the protagonists are futile, because there was a mastermind behind all their actions. Ofcoz, the plot was excellent, but not the details, but that aside, it's rather crappy to see all the repetitive themes like vengeance and justice. What is the motive behind crimes? Is it possible to apprehend criminals before a crime? If so wouldnt everyone be apprehended because we all are suppressing our desire of committing crimes one way or another.

(Qu’est-ce que c’est? C’est la vie, c’est la mort.)
(What is this? This is life and this is death)

Could murder be a product of love too instead of hatred? A selfish love that only wants the target to oneself, and thus murdered to keep the "whole possession" of the target, including the memories, so that no other memories could intervene.

Anyway, the next movie I watched is the "Oxford Murder", really interesting, especially the famous quote: ‎"The only perfect crime that exists is not the one that remains unsolved, but the one which is solved with the wrong culprit."

In the movie, the twist at the end was excellent, to proof the motive behind all the series of murder, butterfly effect, was all it takes, and the over sensitivity to details and delusion of love.

So after all these movies I thought of something, what makes me, me? Then, if the "me" now, and the "me" 1 hour ago or 1 hour now is different, what changes takes place? the growth of insights? experience? wisdom? So if I trust someone now, it only meant I trust that person right there and then, for it would be different a moment later, same goes with myself, the essence of trust will change for both parties.

I remembered a saying my dad used to say after his meditation course, "Everything is consists of changes".

Anyway, 2 songs I wanna share that compliments each other.

Lost Highway - Kurt Nilsen ft Willie Nelson
About confusion as to where life might lead you to, and about snowball effect.

I've Never Been To Me - Charlene
‎"I've been to paradise but I've never been to me"
Life on a highway and pleasure, yet in the end, it's the simplicity of normal life that would make her life more meaningful...........

“Life is no brief candle to me. It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got a hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.”

- George Bernard Shaw

Monday I spent the entire day watching Unriddle 1, the prequel of the current drama. The whole show was about revenge for the victim, and burying the hatchet for the protagonists, which eventually they couldnt, thus gotta suspect each other and all. Lots of questionables story line and drama cliches but still rather interesting to watch.

Yes, entire day I meant 14h. Couldnt believe that too. Then, did some materials for patching session 1.2, sociology summary part 1.

Tue met Tai at tp for lunch, then patching session, then went to Alexandra Village Food Centre for the bak kut teh and avocado, followed by 2nd round of swedish meatballs, cheesed fish and chicken wings at ikea. These few days have been really close with Tai. Thinking back, it's really strange how such "territorial" person would invite me up to his house at our first encounter. He only invites those he feel comfortable with into his "territory".

Enjoyed the whole journey, talked here and there, with him and his mum. One day, we should all have a get together again. So he was telling about the dialectic approach to debate and so on, then I told him that Sheng, Jo n Sx concluded I reject everything that is not me. So this got me puzzled, cuz I always think that I would not reject another viewpoint directly but tries to argue my viewpoint then influence them. One day shall clarify.

Sx was right, that although together so many years, we do have lots of disagreements as to our work attitudes and all those, but actually, that makes us even a stronger group, because we have so many personality and perspectives, we have many "impressions" of ourselves too, like Cooley's Looking Glass Theory. So yes, in a way it completes us.

I shared with him that my life fluctuates, just like my marks and personality. Personality wise, I used to dont trust easily, now I trust too easily, too "que sera sera" which is not good, sometimes, Im so open that I do leak other people's info too, which is definitely a no-no, no matter how small the issue. Then anxiety, I definitely changed, I do feel anxious at times now, as in those kiasu type, gotta prepare beforehand and etc. Moreover, I now would like to grasp hold on everyone close to me, and never let go, and better still if they do not change and etc. Years ago, I never had that "selfish" feeling, I wanted to have fun while we're around, and after that, its all our own individual pathways. So there are a few spectrum that I step in and out of.

Unriddle 2 is ending, the story line isnt as great as the first, the issue here is that the protagonist couldnt trust anyone around her but Da Bao. Even her own mum refused to believe her and even threatened her. Spoiler here, she got her retribution~~ muahahahhaa, serve her right. Lols. So yea, sometimes, I do have a subtle fear of losing the 3 of them. Like our differences and level of maturity and social environment might led us to drift apart slowly, which eventually drifted too far that my dream of having our 4 families to meet up one day for a dinner, will never come true.

So anyway, I helped KeiYun scout for his class jacket thingy, and went back a second trip today just for that, after my revision lecture.

I had also finished watching the long slow movie of "Extremely Loud Incredibly Close", not really sure what is it about, mostly cuz too heavy for my mind to process. I think the central theme is about coping of loss, making sense of things, and perhaps the idea that maybe, sometimes the thing we're looking for is close to us. Every person the protagonist met had to deal with a certain loss, loss of physical function, loss of loved ones, loss of dignity, etc. The title seems to suggest the mother-child relationship, how he never understands her but vice versa, as she had been tracking him all along without him knowing. Just that I felt that the kid, though is a kid, its too LL, like so full of himself and unsympathetic, blunt, and simply childish.

“Explore your mind, discover yourself, then give the best that is in you to your age and to your world. There are heroic possibilities waiting to be discovered in every person.” -author Wilfred Peterson

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Tiring to the max......

Fri was a whoel tiring day, woke up at 6am to go queue for iPad, then went back home for the sony ericson guy to come, and settle mum's hp, then steamboat at night for official opening of WuXuan First Class, reached home late, but nevertheless played a little comp and read up a little until 1 plus, when I realized I gotta plan some lesson for Pop Excel, and therefore spend the next 4h setting questions and thinking ways to implement it.

I gave then a few problems, with exaggerated info, but simple Pythagoras concept. With these answer, it will be part of a word puzzle, which they have to unscramble the anagram to "escape" the room. Hope they learn something. Taught them a little behavioral psychology too, but realized my brain isnt working well.

So okay, then helped out at the Fruity Saturday event, had cell dinner, then went over to Tai house for some talk.

Ofcoz, we did a little planning of tomorrow's wushu, then side tracked to some reviews I guess. Somehow talking with him always seems to go well, like our ideas either clicked well or compliment each other, or perhaps its just opposites but works together to balance out or something.

Then we talked about various attribution error, and about certain situations in our own perspective, and the "what can be done" and so on.

So I came to mentioned that, "I feel that whenever I'm going all out, I dont get the equal gratitude back." that there are many hygiene factor theory, and different views. This got me more reflective for today, I seemed to be so gung-ho, and from here, we moved on to compare life in the past and now, and predict our future.

Overall, we do appreciate that we have really a wide range of personality, perceptions and behaviors in 4 of us. I think more or less we are stable, that we dont really take grudges and such, we have our different "roles hat" in us. So this goes back to the issue I raised earlier on the 3 Idiots, that well, perhaps, the real "Zhi Yin" (our appreciator of our music - which means one that understands us most) could be in a form of a few person, since there isnt really one personality-fits-all, so again to Cooley's Looking Glass Self theory. That made me feel better. =D so although all the lack of sleep and the foreseen fatigue I would be getting tomorrow for training and meeting, I think it's really worth it, got me thinking and boost self esteem.

Read the book “The Five People You Meet in Heaven”, it provided me with much details of the lessons and the life story of Eddie, the protagonist.

So there was this idea which the Captain brought up, what if we do not know what is sleep, when we lay down to sleep, we would thought that everything is over, that we would think that perhaps we will leave the world, and etc, only to find out that the next morning, live goes on, only that we have now something new to do, some more tasks to fulfill. “He has his yesterday.”

So the Captain spent his heaven trying to make sense of his yesterday, and tried to think what have his decision deprived Eddie of. All he asked for was forgiveness from Eddie, for it was his “laws”, his “duty”, his “responsibility” or “principle” to “leave no one behind”, thus he had to shoot Eddie.

Then, his third lesson was that he realized that he accomplished little without his harsh dad, so while he hated him, actually, the dad was training him in a harsh way, just like the short film, Eyrie.

Furthermore, he then understands that his dad was really marvelous, to be able to forgive his old friend, despite him betraying him, “your father acted on impulse, too, and while his first impulse was to kill, his final impulse was to keep a man alive.” He

Then there was this mini lesson, on silence. With no courage to speak up, “Silence was his escape, but silence is rarely a refuge. His thoughts still haunted him.”

His forth lesson, had this little part where Eddie asked his wife is she knows about him after she died, she replied, “I only remembered those while we’re together.” I find this so applicable, sometimes in romance, it is best to keep the best memories, and not care the rest of it, since it will only remind yourself with more pain and misery of loneliness, missing-ness.

Eddie wanted more time with her of course, but it’s not possible, just as in life at times we wanted more time spent with a person. Perhaps the song “I don’t wanna miss a thing” expresses this yearning best. “I could stay awake, just to hear you breathing.” Not being spooky, but sometimes, just to look at your loved ones, parents, partner, friends, children, being soundly asleep do give you a strange serenity, to watch the sunrays caress their faces, it possess some kind of wonderful warmth, that led you thinking that the world is great.

And then the various flashback of Eddie’s life, you could be how everything links up, even to his death by a lost key. This part is really literature-ish. Also, some expressions are simply beautiful, “It is never hard to act ordinary if you feel ordinary, and the paleness of surrender becomes the colour of Eddie’s days.” And also, “Eddie felt the emptiest kind of anger, a kind that circles in its cage.”

The Five People You Meet in Heaven

It was a brilliant movie, initially the title turned me down as I was expecting those "successful" people and "heroes" in heaven that boasts about their great acts on Earth. However, as I watched the first man the protagonist met, I realized I was wrong. It was more than that.

The protagonist is a circus maintenance manager when one day he used his life to save a little girl. He then arrived at heaven, which was way different than he thought. Heaven was subjective, some people think of Heaven as a Garden of Eden, a place where they can float on clouds and laze in rivers and mountains. But what is scenery without solace? The first heaven he went to was the heaven of a Blue Man, who told him that he would meet 5 people who made great impact in his life, and would teach him things that he never knew about while he was still on Earth.

“This is the greatest gift God can give you: to understand what happened in your life. To have it explained. It is the peace you have been searching for.

When he first arrived at Heaven, he couldn’t talk, just feeling more energetic, it was to mimic the state he was in when he met each of the characters.

“Your voice will come. We all go through the same thing. You cannot talk when you first arrive."

He smiled. "It helps you listen.”

The Blue Man was a stranger than was killed to avoid killing the protagonist, Eddie. So Eddie started feeling guilty and unfair. The Blue Man then explained, that Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know. There are no random acts. We are all connected. You can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind.

It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death doesn't just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between taken and being missed, lives are changed. There is a balance to it all. One withers, another grows. Birth and death are part of a whole. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone.

So the next person he met was the Captain. He had lost his life so the Eddie and his team could live. However, the Captain also admitted that he was the one who had caused Eddie’s lifelong leg injury. Eddie then understands that his act of burning caused someone to be burnt, and because of that, the Captain shot his leg, and thus, he couldn’t save the girl, and blamed the Captain, which if not for him, they wouldn’t survive too.

What Eddie learnt here was the willingness to sacrifice that the Captain possess, to know his duties, to know what is the best for everyone, to know that he has the responsibility over his team, and thus be prepared to take sacrifices.

“That's the thing. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else.”

This is really true, all the sacrifices in terms of time, and other resources, are all not for nothing, all the love we “sacrificed” for someone else, all are worthy, all are passed on to someone else, in one way or another. How ready are we then to sacrifice? For the most important moment, most important person, most important task.

Then, the third person he met taught him about anger.

All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like the pristine glass, absorb the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.

Many children or parents are in denial of affection for one another. All these, are perhaps because of the damages done.

Eddie then is told that holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves. That’s because no one is born with anger. And when we die, the soul is freed of it. But now, here, in order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did, and why you no longer need to feel it.
There is a cognitive behavioral therapy involved there. It is also true, as to at many times, when we understand the absurd reason behind our emotions, we are liberated from that chain, and thus lifted, and accept it, and eventually be cool about it. Same as grudges, repression, and fear.

Then, the forth person Eddie met was his wife. He learnt about love.
Lost love is still love, Eddie. It just takes a different form, that's all. You can't hold their hand... You can't tousle their hair... But when those senses weaken another one comes to life... Memory... Memory becomes your partner. You hold it... you dance with it... Life has to end, Eddie... Love doesn't.

Truly beautiful. Actually, in today’s context, the relationships do end, but the love, the history, the memory, lasts. Though we shouldn’t dwell on the past and so on, having good memories of the relationship should be enough to be thankful and grateful for. Perhaps, this is why Samy said that at times, to be able to forget is a gift too. Perhaps, I’m still not liberated from the selfishness, the kind where a child hangs on to his mom’s leg, not wanting her to go and continue staying to play with him.

The last lesson, then taught him that his presence made an impact on lots of people, as he prevented many accidents and saves many lifes. Also, that he was forgiven about that girl in the burning house earlier on, since he was in deep remorse about it.
So the whole book showed us that each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one.
Though I think the lessons are getting more and more cliché towards the end. Still, it was a great film. Some random quotes from the movie that worth mentioning yet no place to fit them in:

“Happiness in a tablet. This is our world. Prozac. Daxil. Xanax. Billions are spent to advertise such drugs. And billions are spent purchasing them. You don't even need a specific trauma, just 'general depression' is enough, or anxiety, as if sadness is as treatable as the common cold.”

“The manager once called me the 'best freak' in his stable, and, sad as it sounds, I took pride in that. When you are an outcast, even a tossed stone can be cherished.”

“Silence is worse when you know it won't be broken.”

Watched 3 idiots for the 5th time at KY house on Sat.

This film is so great, that all 5 times I will always take back some reflections on it.

The first few times was about education and pressure, like how the system emphasizes “failures” by comparing it with a yardstick, or how people believes in pursuing success, by adopting any means and methods, and by memorizing without understand, or finally, how extreme pressure in the head could cause “murder”.

This time round, I looked at their friendship.

Phunsukh Wangdu, known as “Rancho” to them, has been a really supportive friend. He is like a great pillar of support for his friends. He enjoys people doing what they like, and believes in equal opportunity to study, just as how he had taken this path of studies, and how he gave MilliMeter a chance to go to school.

He is willing to do all sorts of task to help his friends, to proof his judgements, and to give them education on life.

“I wasn't teaching you engineering, that you know better than me. I was teaching you how to teach.”

In this scene, the furious ViruS asked “Rancho” to teach the class instead. Thus, after a little thought, he wrote down 2 words, and asked the class to find out the meaning in 30 seconds. Obviously none could. The reason being, the words are derived from his two friends, Farhan and Raju. However, the point he was trying to make here was that during that moment, are our hearts filled with the excitement to discover new knowledge, to learn for understanding, to be exposed to unprecedented ideas, or simply to be the “one” who knows the answer. Life, shouldn’t be just a race.

So this, though it may looked like a view on education, I thought of it at friendship perspective. At the point where we interact with someone, what are our thoughts? So then to a close friend, would you be completely truthful and disclose everything to allow them to share your burden? To what extent would you then help a friend? Do we always consider “worthiness”? Or what if the person would be just an acquaintance in your lifetime? Friendship, isn’t just to find out who are the loyal ones, it is also about yourself, would you go all out for one who frequents with you, yet/thus be very peripheral to those “acquaintances”.?

He also stood up for whatever he don’t feel is right, like proofing how materialistic is Pia’s fiancé, how cramping textbook definitions led you to be easily manipulated at the Teacher’s Day scene, about Farhan going into Photography, for Raju to stand up on his feet after he lost his feet.

Their friendship moved me, I do hope I would have a “Rancho” in my life. He’s like an ideal heroic figure in terms of friendship. “Everyone is searching for a hero, people need someone to look up to”, a song from the legendary Whitney Houston. Yes, not only child, practically everyone should have an “idiol” to mimic, to admire, to be an indirect pillar of support. Admiration power. Simba has his Timon and Pumba to teach him about life, Mulan has Shang, the kids has Yamakasi, the 2 idiots has “Rancho”. So as for myself, I’m searching for one too.

I've always been a law abiding citizen. But in the last 24 hours, I grounded an airplane, nearly flushed someone's remains down the toilet, and helped Pia escape her wedding. All for Rancho. He would've done the same for any of us, too, like stealing a copy of the final exam that was designed for Raju's failure.

This is the proof of “Rancho’s” effort into the friendship. That made Farhan spoke that statement above. It was so intriguing, so ideal, so impossible, to have someone like that. Someone who you could release all the stones on your chests, yet at the same time take up weight bars on your shoulders, by knowing them, knowing their troubles, and share them.

Of course, I believe, this should be a peer kindda thing, age gap too much it would just be mentoring. Sometimes, I do wish at times, people would ask me, and show “concern” of me, instead of me just openly expressing my problems. A real friend, would tear down the smiling-face mask, and possesses no attribution error bias, to reach out, with helping hands and open arms, to the abyss of your soul, pulling you out of it and say, “Hey! Stop hiding, I know, and I want to know”.

Sometimes, I bet im not alone, we wished that we knew all the details, activities, and thoughts of a person, to better understand, to help, to maximise the potential. As such, that’s where companionship comes in, and that would give us very little time to understand too much people. Perhaps those are some interesting things about psychology, to be able to “generalise” and “predict”. Perhaps too, that what facebook is for, to “never miss a thing”. Well, to a certain, limited, visible extend.

It's been long since Ive updated my blog. Not because I'm too busy with life, rather there was nothing really new in life.

On March 2, I went for my haircut met a wonderful hairdresser, number 7, after 45mins of waiting. Just when I'm about to get irritated and grumpy about the "not being attended" service, she entertained me. She was in high spirits with excellent hairdressing skills, it took her 5 mins to get my hair done, and she was like "ohh, the Zhang Xue You hairstyle? Ok before walking out here gotta sing me a song." hahaha.

I have also learnt a little Korean, and wrote out my name in Korean. Cool much?

March 3 I went for Ted, signed up to be a volunteer in the committee, and then went back to church for cell. After that was pool till night, followed by usual wushu the following day.

This week, felt like my memory was like a sieve, dont really remember anything so I guess I'm home the whole day, teaching mum English I suppose. Ah Bah's Money, and the compilation of O level Oral.

Tue I had a meeting with the wushu First Class committee at Long John.

Wed I went for bballing with Alvin, and asked Angel along too. Then, played hamtam bola with the scc kids, then settling some minor accident, and barely meets the requirement before null hypothesis would be rejected... lols haha linking leeway for lateness to statistics.

Thur we had a Patching Session, where Tai Sheng Jo and myself would teach each other of our own module. Sheng was a great tutor, its such a waste he did not take on any tutoring jobs or whatsoever, he's really a potential leader.

So that whole day Ive learnt lots. Ive learn ThermoFluids, Econs, Engineering and Accounts.

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For ThermoFluids, Ive learnt the definitions of fluids being substance that cannot resist a shear stress without moving and deforms in continuous order. In NOOB terms, something that flow and had indefinite shape. So liquid is nearly incompressible, while gas is highly compressible.

The cool thing is the 3 types of force; the Compressive force where direction of forces meets in the centre, flowing inwards; the Tensile force where direction of forces go outwards, and the Shear Stress where the forces are at tangent to object, just that it such slide pass, like friction pass. So Shear Stress is a tangential force that changes the shape but not volume whereas the other 2 changes both.

Ive learnt viscosity too, the resistance to flow, or the internal friction between molecules to overcome shear stress. Ideal Fluid are Inviscid, whereas Real Fluids are Viscous.

Lastly, the dynamic and static pressure.

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For Econs, the 3h lecture from Tai was awesome, but really confusing.

Besides the Demand and Supply topic where Ive learnt last year, there was the Fiscal Policy: Aggregate Demand = C + I + G + (X-M) where C = consumers/household, I = Investments (foreign), G = Government Spending, X-M = Export - Imports. Then there are scenarios of taxation being bad, and the cycle of nation (inflation), which thus links to unemployment and such.

Cyclical: fired/sacked against will
Frictional: In time to come/looking for jobs
Structural: Jobs available do not fit Qualification

Cost-Push Inflation: Supply leftward shift

Demand-Pull Inflation: Demand rightward shift

The gap in between the P0 and P1 is the Consumer Price Index, where output fall, retrenchment occurs, unemployment rises, GDP plummets.

And to add on to that, the MPS (Marginal Propensity to Save) and MPC (Marginal Propensity to Consume). So the change in AD = reciprocal of MPS x change in government spending or tax, where tax decrease happiness, provide lower multiplier, thus not favourable, thus debts occurs to increase government spending.

Actually, was long since Ive been updating myself with the news. Rather, I should say I'm not updated with the Sg news. The last time I knew was the FT which called us dogs. I heard he's being kicked back. But anyway, yea, can be as angry, but seriously, the issue is over, why still continuing the fuss?

Sgreans are flooded with FTs, but somehow I think they are being too narrow minded. Often I hear sweeping statements, especially when it comes to FT stealing their jobs. I do understand and support some of their stand, for example about some FT who are given scholarships and allowances to study in Singapore and all, I think it's not about them stealing our jobs, but rather the fact that they get to skip NS and evaded their high expenditure in Sg.

If they were to come to Sg, with high qualifications, get into jobs of higher status, yet serve the NS for 2 years as well, and have to fork out money for living, I think the issue would not be that great. Ofcoz, by doing so Sg would be a less attractive place to sink their "talented" roots here, but hey, at least it's fair, and they get to relate to our lifestyles more, so as to understand our woes and thus would not blurt out insensitive remarks.

Then again, if that statement were to be said by a local, I think the issue would not be as great too. I mean, the person might just simply means, "there are many assholes in the world", just that because he is in Sg, he said so. I dont know, not very updated or cared to bother these pointless arguments, so I would only know the news in half-bucket-water. Haha.

I know quite a lot of foreign workers in sg, I think they are rather pitiful. Those who came in hope of social mobility, or those who came by the thought that the currency here is better without considering the cost of living, or those who faced discrimination and oppression.

Oh right, I could say Im considered a foreign worker too. But hey, I did loads of contributions I guess, Ive helped much people, influenced much people, didnt I made Sg a slightly better place to live in? And my spending habits and work, dont it help economy. I pay more expensive fees, with the same cost of living, thus gotta work harder to achieve what locals could achieve using less resources, in fact, some benefits are denied for me. I'm not convinced that Sgreans can just sprout sweeping statements of foreign people like us.

Somewhat, Singapore started off with nothing, grew by immigrants, what are they to restrict the influx of foreign people? Not all foreign people are assholes, please do not group us all together, just like it does not mean that one sgrean being elitism or ignorant means that sgreans are all dumb people, I think the key issues is on the policy of foreign people who could "Cut our lines" the moment they arrive at singapore. They should all some way or another, start on the same level as us, to get that bond growing first.

Also, I think to curb these social issues, please work on the income disparity first. These are the ones that caused the competitive job opportunities issues and such. Why not first, get those people of high status, to contribute to the society, by solely volunteering, by tutoring, by leading, by nurturing, not those who can, but those who have no opportunities due to their status and class.

Sometimes, I do wonder what are there atas people doing. What is the point of getting so much qualifications? What's the point of asking for more pay raise or write letters and etc, please, get your butts moving and do something for the society.

These few days were torturous.

Let's put these aside first.

Anyway, was watching HIMYM season 3 episode 8, about flaws. The whole episode was about them exposing one another's flaws, which shattered their images of one another. Which is kindda true. I remembered one point in time where I start to analyse everyone's flaws including myself, and felt really bad. However, as what was pointed out in the series too, if the bond is strong, these flaws are quick to vanish, and suppressed. However, season 7 episode 18 had a big twist in the whole story. Somehow, though finally Barney was cheated, the show is not as nice to watch as the first few seasons. I mean, after breaking up, no harm staying as close friends. What took so many seasons to create tensions between them?

Anyway, the other day had a dance movie streak, step up 1-3 and street dance 3d, made me so enthusiastic towards street dance. It's like their movies are not exactly too hard, but they could deliver it with clean transitions and matching moves to the song. Somehow, they had a certain posture as well that suited them. Sort of like wushu, not everyone could have that posture.

Tomorrow scholars meeting, then bball, then tutoring. Oh right, bad news, gotta go back indo just to renew passport. Sigh. Waste time waste money, and gotta wait for my supp paper. I dont know, still regretting my choice, shall have a little faith first. Really a stupid mistake!

Been sick lately, and yet lots of tempting food, for the first time I had headache to the point I rolled out my bed due to headache, and also I had no appetite for the first time, since usually my appetite was not affected at all.

Attending ted talk this week, but was quick to sign up for April 3rd, that I didnt realized it needed money. Oh no~! Shall sleep soon, to plan for tomorrow's lesson in the morning.