Cats loves Fish,
Yet couldnt enter the Waters
Fish loves Worms,
Yet couldnt go Ashore,
Life is about one hand receiving and one hand losing,
Life is about one hand choosing and one hand letting go,
There is never an absolute smooth paveway,
It's just matter of perspective, choices, sacrifices.
There is always a way, as long as you dare to sacrifise.

So 2019 seems like a good year for me..........
but only me........

You see, during the first year of this,
I've put in all my blood sweat tears,
To come this far,
and to assemble the best of the best around me....
or so I thought.

Until today,
I realize,
Money talks,
Money rules,
Money overwrites everything...

And its so easy for employees to shun the ownership,
who thinks everyone is dispensable,
and half of the battle is lost,
and people dont like to be stagnant, even to help team members
dont like to take charge, or to think through things.....
how?

I have to say though, thank you for the opportunity,
Thank you for the times,
Thank you for the momentary blissful few months of my life,
and now everything gonna crumble down,
The rock I thought I have built, is crumbling down,
Everything is meaningless, everything is futile,
Let us all be selfish and that actually fills our stomach.

Passion dont feed, and this is not the first time I say this,
Im naive to think it could.
It's really really not easy to be in the modern world,
People needs are insatiable,
There is just so little one person can do,
There is just so little one person can endure,
Times and again im so sick of living, so sick of adulting, so sick of being here,
There's just so limited resource, so much greed,
So much deep pockets and short hands,
So little understanding,
So little heart........

"Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?"

Maybe we're worst than fowls....... we're worthless useless human beings..... 
Just perish....... 

Then again, im still young, long way for me, screw the adults!
Screw the negativity!
It's my life ! I fail all I want, I got another 50 years ahead!
More opportunities ahead!
Nothing last forever, screw everything!

Nowadays it's really a "Me" world,
Hardwork dont pay off,
Hard to succeed in life,
Utopia dont exist,
Too many people to please,
Boss, Client, Colleagues....

Those who thinks achieving where we are is easy..... it's not.....

- Free Walking Tours (FWT) are our bread and butter in terms of Guides, but company dont earn
- Private Tours are how company earn but means Guides will receive less and its not competitive with Industry Practice
- Back Office will need to earn through company profits through Private Tours
- Price point is the max we can go if not no bookings then it will be worst
- There are no ownership from the staffs because when asked "How can be find a solution?", staffs replied thats not for them to think but the owner. And to them everyone is dispensable.
- There's always the Diminishing Returns, more job = more guides = more mouths to feed, to what end? How can we actually increase value?
- To what extend we need to keep the integrity of things? Before falling back to the mass marketing easy cash flow?
- Venturing into different Target Groups takes manpower resources out of company and thus replacing FWT with freelance which is not why our Guides join us
- Getting freelance to do Private Tours are weird as Private Tours should be represented by our best Guides