Yesterday was off day,
A great break especially on Mid Autumn.

Surprising enough,
four days of feeling burning inside
and headache, and sore throat,
it all recovered ystd.
On top of that, I woke up early, full of energy.

Finished my chores early noon,
it took me lesser time to sweep and mop and wash clothes this time,
then off to cut my hair,
and repaired my bike,
along with clearing the rust off the bike.
Then, while waiting for dq,
cleaned the windows, and piano, and the 25 years old player,
and my display cabinet.

Felt so productive!

Then, we went to MBS for dinner before proceeding to
Gardens by the Bay for the lantern display.
This year, the display was huge!
It was all over the garden.
Seeing kids running around,
with genuine smiles and laughter......
Pity that in my childhood I didnt liked celebrations.
Perhaps the most memorable was in my relative house,
C and Y. With SY SL.
Those were the days.......

Took many photographs there.
But was so plain.
People enjoyed the occasions in groups of pair,
I had none.. yet.....

Why do parents like to take photographs so much?
I guess it's because that these are the only times
where they are able to see the smiles of children,
and when they are still willing to come out with you,
and enjoyed these festivals and moments with you.
When they are older, they wont be tagging along anymore,
and speaks lesser, and simple just drifts until perhaps old age.

Photographs........
Well I guess it's good to take photographs too,
it's a form of appreciation for whoever who made the creation.
Either human art forms and inventions or God's natural creation,
it's still appreciation.

Started my Intern at Chan Brothers.
Due to company policy I have no idea what could be shared and all....
So to be save, I shall not share anything.
But anyway it was really tiring.
Training was only 2 days,
Today managed to secure a sale for Japan tour.
I guess Im quite okay with the job,
just that the long hours and no off days
made me sick.

Had fever today morning,
thus waking up every hour to drink water.
Now throat still irritating,
trying to heal fast,
but got a feeling that if I dont go TCM soon,
it will develop into some big big fever again.
Shall go TCM on my off day,
as well as Mid Autumn celebration with family on that night.

Seeing kids playing lanterns and sparkles,
really wish that I have kids of my own now....
miss the days where I can still play these with kids from Pop or SCC.......
Eating the Jelly Mooncake a good friend gave, bit by bit.
Really, seldom people actually make food for me.
Esp mooncake. Something culturally symbolizes I am thought of and cared.

Last year on Sep 22,
seriously missed that day, that time,
it was just like a family,
thanks to C too who suggested "Eagle catch Chicks" game.
Now, it's all apart.......
Sigh........

Today had internship briefing, it ended early, 
Thus my classmates decided to go for an east side shopping tour. 
This caused me to be late to meet a friend, I think he was pissed off.
I rushed just in time as he was about to leave home. 

We went for Manhattan Pizza Company buffet. 
The pizza are not as nice as Sarpino or Pizza Hut. 
Quantity is really big, but gets too sick of it. 

I think I ruined the day?
And coupled with the lousy pizza,
I guessed this "last moment" wasnt that good. 
Sigh. 

Really had no choice, 
I have no idea how to make it up. 
3rd time make him angry lols he is seldom angry. 
Haishh.... 

Thinking of a bday present he told me he would reject,
I really wonder if he would actually reject?? 
Hope he's bluffing..........

Without my guitar, played my Ukulele, 
played Daylight by Maroon 5. 
It was cool cuz this song was covered by Playing For Change,
where they got street performers all over the world to be part of it. 

The lyrics is sooooo relate-able. 
Though no bgr for me, 
but the thought of 3 months in intern,
6 days work week,
9h a day,
I guess I had no time for anyone already.
Furthermore I had loads of people having curfews at night. 
Guess it's the similar feeling of NSmen going in for the 2 months,
away from civilizations?? 

Daylight - Maroon 5 (feat. Playing For Change)

Here I am waiting, I'll have to leave soon
Why am I holding on?
We knew this day would come, we knew it all along
How did it come so fast?
This is our last night but it's late
And I'm trying not to sleep
'Cause I know, when I wake
I will have to slip away

     And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
     But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close
     'Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own
     But tonight I need to hold you so close
     Ooh whoa, ooh whoa, ooh whoa
     Ooh whoa, ooh whoa, ooh whoa

Here I am staring at your perfection
In my arms, so beautiful
The sky is getting bright, the stars are burning out
Somebody slow it down
This is way too hard
'Cause I know, when the sun comes up
I will leave, this is my last glance
That will soon be memory

     And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
     But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close
     'Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own
     But tonight I need to hold you so close
     Ooh whoa, ooh whoa, ooh whoa
     Ooh whoa, ooh whoa, ooh whoa

I never wanted to stop
Because I don't wanna start all over, start all over
I was afraid of the dark
But now it's all that I want, all that I want, all that I want

     And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
     But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close
     'Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own
     But tonight I need to hold you so close
     Ooh whoa, ooh whoa, ooh whoa
     Ooh whoa, ooh whoa, ooh whoa

Sep 6.

Dark clouds gathered in the windy morning,
killed its freshness with shards of rain drops,
slashing through the morning hope we had to cycle.

However, evening came, and it was a fine day after the rain, clear sky clear air, we cycled. We went to Marina Bay Sands, drop by Satay By The Bay, love the Chendol!! Then Katong Immigrants.

A friend came too, was initially angry that he misread msg, as it was repeated.
Either he misread, or dont understand but didnt attempt to clarify, or didnt even read complete.
Sigh, so throughout he was rather quiet...... kindda spoilt mood.
Only till the end he talks more, but that was the time I needed to go Servathon.
Oh well, just nice today's sermon reminded me that I might be expecting too much.

Servathon is a 21 hour challenge to do Community Work.
We started off playing simple games like
treasure hunt among pile of real trash (smelly!!!!)
sieving rice and sand like some people do in our society
simulation of handicap
and some games we didnt get to play due to the rain like filtering water and medic.

Yes! A heavy downpour throughout the game. In a way, Im glad it rained, as it is so that we are able to finish the tasks and still have energy left, and have cool air in the night.

So we started packing the Love Bags, 5000 of them, consist of  Coffee, Milk Tea, Lemon Tea, Ginseng Tea, Biscuits, Moisturizer, Salonpas, Prickly Heat Powder, Toothbrush, Detergent, Soup, Lotion, Towel, Tissuebox..... woahhh cool right??

Yes, then we had to do the message cards to form the largest Mosaic Rainbow!!!

So the night is over, in the morning, we had to
Distribute the Love Bags
Door to Door greetings
Play games with elderly like Bingo and Balloon Volleyball
Doh making with elderly
Balloon Sculpting with kids
Play with the Kids
Door Hanger Decoration with the kids.

Angel, is one of the coolest person I seen,
that is able to host the games so well!!!
In hokkien, in chinese, in english, in malay!!!
Even the Doh making seems so engaging and fun!
And to the kids, how she ice break them,
get them to join in,
all the enthusiasm and passion,
UNBELIEVABLE!!!
Lives up to her name!

It's really cool, as what a member, Lit, mentioned,
to see that the residents are awaiting with hope for the Love Bags
or what the other girl mentioned,
to see every single faces of the elderly gleaming in the photo (not kidding!! literally!!)
and how the kids enjoyed our presence (itimidating at first cuz 7 kids 24 ppl).....
Really really enjoyable especially all these in 21 hours.
Makes me think that actually we can accomplish sooo much in these time frame.
I have to treasure every moment every day every hour more
to be more fruitful more accomplished, more joyful

Just as what I've learnt today,

But these small hours
These little wonders still remain~

It's thousands of small moments that makes a relationship strong.

So then today went to church.
Some message I brought home:

A desire for even for a good thing
Becomes a bad thing when
Desire becomes the ruling thing

True enough, obsessions.
Sometimes we expect too much that we feel disappointed when it was not achieved.

Like if career made you too obsessed in success
that you go home tired restless purposeless
and forgo your kids time family time love time
then it is wrong!

Like if you are so particular about cleanliness or punctuality
that you are irritated with the people around you
that do not observe similar obsession
and causes conflicts and bad feelings
that is wrong!

If I had so much community work to do
that I go home ignoring awaiting parents
feel annoyed of questions
that is wrong!!!

Luckily I didnt do that these days,
but used to, and I'm so guilty not to
continue my routine of 1h of undivided attention talking with them every day
these few days, so I continued after dinner just now.
On top of it all, my dad needs to work,
this hour of undivided attention is more and more crucial.

“A man is about as big as the things that make him angry”

Good Tree do not grow Bad Fruits
Bad Tree do not grow Good Fruits

It's called Organic Consistency,
the tree is our identity, what are we is all the way throughout,
we cant nail good fruits on bad trees it will rot!
no point of masking, our identity will surface,
from the roots to the fruit, from the heart to the actions,
though externally we are pressured,
but like a water container shaken,
the external forces can shake you,
but nothing would be spilled if there is no water in the first place,
similarly, if no anger, how to be anger no matter what?
Do not blame, search inside, look for the cause, cure it!

Then a friend came. With homemade lunch!!! Seriously he came at such a right time, when I had no lunch, and when I am trying to save up some money, he came with food!! Unexpectedly. Taught him maths, I guess he requests to do so intentionally, cuz I said that one of my biggest regret is not to teach him academically sooner, and alot of time due to fatigue, had to rest so he had to see me through my power nap without anything to do.

Few more days, hope I can make up for him!!

Strange, though supposed to be a relaxing week, was rather tiring.

Mon my friend from Taiwan came, 7 years passed..........
It was so awesome, that we, along with ZG,
still could meet up and talk like close friends.
We chat about the good old days,
about how we love to play around the neighbourhood,
and catch spiders in drain,
afraid of some dogs,
teachers in pri school,
and many more...
and oh!! I still have the blue sony walkman he gave me!!!!
working condition!!!!!!!!!
That will be the only tangible memory of the good old days.
Used to have the red checkered shirt and quarter pants,
had to throw it away at sec 2.

We went to Bugis, and then MBS, then Old Airport Road.
Really really awesome....
Today at 3pm...... he flew back........
sigh....... shall we meet again.........
Mid autumn is coming,
he gave us mooncakes!
was so surprised!!!
I thought I would not receive any this year......

Then, other days are filled with work and also accompanying  a good friend.
He always came at the times where I'm really free and alone.
We cycled to Defu Lane Hokkien Mee, then Kovan, and the Nex Serangoon.
Hahas, he's an awesome guy.

Looking back,
he is always there whenever we call him,
he always surprise me with little things,
sends me food gifts he made himself,
and though nothing much to talk,
he dont mind just spending time.
But after his N and my intern,
I seriously wonder how long we cold take this friendship once again.
It is friends like these that I really dont have in other cliques,
they are really really really unique.
Again looking at all the 1-year-close-friendships I have,
I foresee a part of me will die again next year??

Today, supposed to have clash with a friend's invite for movie,
in the end I think she was left alone?
but I already have plans.............
so sad to have to reject her....
hope she have other friends to help her......

     Is this the world we created
      we made it on our own
      Is this the world we devastated
      Right to the bone?

     If there's a God up in the sky looking down
      What must he be thinking of? what we've done?
      To the world that he created

Sometimes I think about how the world became so,
though I often have my answers,
but seriously,what should the world be like?
I often wondered by certain things happen?

Why so much complications?
Why so much lost culture,
Why so much conflicts,
Why irresponsible parents,
Why physically-imperfect people,
Why LGBT,
Why calamity,
Why weird social behaviors......

Queen has really really good songs,
hard to sing, but they sing it perfect.
They often reflects deep meanings,
deep yet relate-able.
Sigh, will make the world a better place!
Someday, shall take things to a higher level,
not only buying packet food for homeless,
but motivate them, talk to them,
listen to them, teach them to cast their nets.

Tomorrow Fri supposed to be excited for the
21hour Servathon Community Service marathon,
but the job scope seems too lame for me.
Nevertheless, go with open heart,
and passion to serve!!!!!!! =)

Watched English Vinglish,
probably the 2nd best Tamil movie after 3 Idiots,

Really touches me how Sasha, being illiterate in English,
is being teased by her own family members for such trivial weakness.
So she persevered on and took on English classes her own,
She said it so well!!

   Sometimes, 
   we do not feel equal in marriage, 
   we feel inferior to our spouse,
   but that doesnt mean it is a failed marriage, 
   maybe it is time to help yourselves,
   and then the equality is restored. 

She did not let her individualism suppressed in marriage,
with love, with grace, she made her husband and children ashamed of themselves.

    "Family should never be judgmental! Family should never put you down nor should ever make you feel small. Family is the only one who will never laugh at your weaknesses. Family is the only place where you will always get love and respect."

Also, something I see again, is that though family is a huge pillar of support,
a lot of times, in emotional needs, friendship counts.
It is through friendship you find dignity, find support, find refuge.

To the new generation of kids,
never forsake your parents!!
invite them to your lives!
to your world! to your culture!
and that they might be able to help you~!!
Never think that old dogs could not learn new tricks!!!
"Ginger is best old"!!!
Most important of all......
NEVER DEPRIVE THEM OF THE OPPORTUNITY TO LEARN
AND NEVER DESPISE THEIR IMPERFECTIONS!!!!!!!

Hi, It's been long since I blogged again,
mainly because for the whole of last week,
I have been a workaholic.
All i know was to wake up for work, 6.30am - 8.30am,
then rest till another work 5pm - 7pm,
and then bar waiter till late night.
One two of the days,
I spent doing Fullerton Town Job,
and Avalon Event Catering.

Both occasions, exposed myself to new perspectives and experiences,
really enriching, discovering places, meeting people, knowing backstage jobs.
So after the week, on Fri nd Sat went for Nightfest 2013.
Really amazing arts, esp the water LED, and 3 Gens of Rock.

3 Generations of Rock was the highlight,
Miguel Antonio Singapore started off the set,
the first line received grand applause from the audiences,
and the first verse of lyrics caught my ears to stay throughout.
covered from Xperiment - Living In The Past

Sun streaming through the morning dreamers
Brings back memories I can’t possess
Try to free myself from chains of the past
That lingers on and always seems to last
Yet I wish that I can bring back the time
I can’t stop living in the past

How should you feel to bid farewell to
Friends that all your heart cared so well
Deep inside you feel that you must return
To the place your heart belongs through the years
Nostalgic memories are all in my tears
I can’t stop living in the past

beautifully written, simple, straightforward, honest........