I saw this mom with 2 kids on an overhead bridge recently, the kids are naked due to lack of money for clothes, so the mother used the baby carrier as a blanket for them. They slept soundly, and the look in their eyes are as if they are contented in that state, with mother's love. Kindda strike a thought on me that we should be contented in life, with simple gifts of love and life.

There are actually may things in life we wanna possess of, due to our selfish nature, but that would result in so many "losers", because with the limited resource, one either have it all or have it none, wouldnt it be nicer to be contented with the things you can afford to possess, and enjoy the things that others possess through building friendship and social connections. Then, we could actually have it all by sharing what we have and be shared of what we lack. As I write this, an old lady came into the LAN shop selling cakes, I bought 2 only, she was delighted, on cloud nine. So contented. =,( 

 Actually, the true simple miracle in life is to be patient with those who loves you - family n friends, give and take. We tend to be very different ppl outside and at home, why cant we control ourselves at home as much as we do outside?

 There are more stories but abit more personal, but this trip home re-assured that adversities could be conquered, with a contented heart. Contented. Contented.

Speaking words of wisdom~ Let it be~~

Then another scene is a dog barking at the mother cat but playing and caring for the kittens, so cute lorh, kindda reminds me of that quote, "no matter how evil one can be, he will still answer the fake telephone a child give to him". LAN was closed so I gotta resort in paying lots for this slow like snail internet.

I heard more stories of people as I interacted, some ppl are just so rich that they can just buy plots of lands for each of their children to do business, even fail he also dont mind. Buying luxury cars for son in US which in the end havent even complete uni sell back assets and come back indo. Sometimes born into a silver spoon not good, gotta start from scratch, then slowly move up. 

My trip back here im reminded of all these ppl with problems, yet contented with life, easily satisfied, what more our normal sch stress, not even financially debt-ridden yet..... We are really blessed in sg, I hope all of you will appreciate what you have. 

Grandma had a few inspiring quotes, one of it goes like "Friends come easily goes easily"". Someone asked me what if we purposely make it hard, I replied, then it wouldnt be natural, its instead easy too, cuz its easily manipulated. Well, she is always a very diplomatic kind of person, her philosophy is more of she and herself against the world, in a sense she is neutral to all relation. She often advice to not have too good or too bad relationship with ppl around, to avoid being hurt. Its hard for me to do that now. All I know is im starting to feel insecure. but he holds one of my deepest secret. Hmm.

Thats when I was reminded of a quote my friend wrote not long ago, Sin Fai: 

 Sometimes we can't trust those whom we trusted, and we should have trusted those whom we don't. Sometimes we trusted ourselves to not trust those whom we don't and trusted those we thought we should. After all, it's all down to trusting your very own trust, whether or not to trust those we do and those we do not. In the end, we end up not trusting our very own trust, concluding not to trust anyone. We then come to realise, we can't just simply not trusting everyone, and there goes again, the Trusting Loop, or maybe the Distrusting Loop...

So after dwelling on that and watching some movies, I thought: 

 You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough. After all, trust and honesty is an investment you put in people and yourselves. As we open up, as we trust, we are actually liberated of the cotton wool stuffed in our lungs, that stifled us before. Then, its a matter of hope that the investment grows. Trust is a risky business. The inability to trust your own trust to trust, is the foe of courage and love.

"I can't stop thinking about the others out there, all those mind that I touched. I could feel them, their isolation, their hopes, their ambitions. I tell you we can start something incredible, Erik. We can help them. " - Charles Xaxier

Sometimes, I think superhero movies exist because we all have a wish, a hope, a fantasy that could only be realized in fiction.

And then a hero comes along~ 
 with the strength to carry on~ 
 and you cast your fears aside~ 
 and you know you can survive~ 

And when you feel like hope is gone~
 look inside you and be strong~ 
 and you finally see the truth~ 
 that a hero lies in you~~~