It had been a busy weekend, a crazy one, a lazy one, yet I would say it was all worth it. On Fri, we rushed our project through the evening, and at night I read up on Psychology, chapters on Social Influence an the various related experiments. I also read up and finished Vitamin part 1 for BNF, it was 4am when I finish them. On sat, I woke up to do a little touch up of my presentation and script, then when to meet the usual 3 to go Bowei's house, before heading to JiaoLian's place for a vegetarian steamboat dinner. Every year we had been doing this, it's really rather enjoyable, just simply being around and eat, the whole togetherness idea, is wonderful. As someone asked me, why do we chinese love steamboats, I replied, maybe it's the togetherness, the atmosphere where we share what we eat, from the same pot kindda thing.

So after that at 8pm, I rush over to Jorgen's place for night cycling. We went to Cathay for Viral Factor at 2am, then cycle back, sidetracking to Old Airport Road for sugar cane, and Aljunid for Chee Cheong Fun. Overall it was fun, yet Jorgen had a few scratches, sigh. So I did not slept a moment at all, since I got to rush over to Sheng's house at 9am for the annual group bai nian tradition. So the whole thing ended around 1pm at Shixiong house, where I slept a good hour or so, before having another half an hour sleep at Johann's place before heading to CHIJMES for the GateCrash event.

The event was awesome, though it was rather expensive for it. However I think the way they hide the clues and such is really interesting. Yet I was actually expecting much more. I was expecting that we are trapped in a room, then we have to search for clues manually, or have those Liar Game type of psychology activities, or stuck with Nash-Equilibrium dilemmas, then complete them stage by stage, to escape the castle.

Well, at least we had sort of fun. Definitely going for the second round, and rather hoping we might be able to find some opportunities of event management jobs too.

So after all these, I had only completed 1 of my assignments. I rushed one of them today at my break time, and gonna rush the other one at tomorrow's break too.

Really tiring, especially the project, rather killed me much. Oh well, gotta compromise to spice up my life. Anyway, was again handling the issue of "Why not die?".... the "Vanity of Vanities, All is Vanities" syndrome. But this time Im more sensitive, instead of bo chup like I previously was, about this because of all the recent suicide news. Seriously, what's the point of publicizing all these into headlines?? Only to contribute more negative energies. Sigh.

So after the whole thing I went back into Ecclesiastes again, and glance through, and saw these few verses that I think it's really great...

"And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God."

"Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest."

Precisely, the purpose of existing is to finish this journey of life, as fruitful and fun-tastic as possible, so hesitate to do something, and do with all our might, and in midst of it, have fun~!

Was observing an ice cream man, business was good, but I realized every customer would leave with a smile on their faces, and often had a few joyous guffaws just in that few sentences of conversation. Despite his hard work, he's able to serve with such high standard of customer service, really awesome~!! =D Everyday's hero.....

Oh right, I participated in a new journey, for experience and to "force" myself to understand this topic, since Im totally not interested in these virtual illusions. Good luck for me and my team~!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zslsJGwk13I&feature=related

So cool, as a performer, he should be feeling really elated! To have the whole audience grooving with you, so cool~

Was listening to the few acapella by Metro Vocal Group, man they rocks~!! Their canto pronunciation are perfect in my ears! Then I drifted into songs by Beyond, and the bass of 光辉岁月 really reverberated in my ears like some rock concert, and then finally to an Eason song, 爱是怀疑, that was covered by MetroV. I think its really a cool song because of the beat, the pace of the rap, the chorus, esp the part that alternated the fake and real voice. So cool~ The lyrics are rather unique too, unlike most love songs.

So Jorgen just touched down on sg, and QinDa already planned for night cycling tomorrow~ Oh gosh, gotta rush my assignments either now or wake up early tomorrow for them, 3 essays, 1 presentation... sigh, should had done it just now, but went out with Angel cuz she had never been to PP, like OMG she went to suntec and vivo, yet had never been to PP??? We challenged katong laksa, obviously she lost haha~!!

Actually before that wanted to ask Johann out to BBT shop, since its been long time since we sat there to talk and play chinese chess, but then that annoying "orh" just dampen my mood completely, like what the shit cant you write more? will it hurt for you to write more, elaborate more? chuck in random topics and dont fucking kill the conversation? these days I think his One Piece fucking screw him sia!

Wait..... hmm actually last time he also like that, his lol, and kk, and sigh.... then kept complaining I always find him, sigh... personality... personality...... Walao, actually kind of think of it, seriously I have issues with almost everyone, just didnt really say out, am I that hard to please? Urgh, it's weird kind of think of it, that we could stay on so long, compromise, giving in, I guess, that made us last, since I usually kept them within myself and this blog. It's CNY, shall not display these fed up attitude.

Anyway, today Ive reinforced my stand that parents nowadays dont know how to be parents. Sigh, but actually some of parents also a little too unreasonable, cant always vent their frustration on the kids right? And kept using hurtful words like "dump you" or something like that, and their treatments too. Sometimes, I think using law, though very superficial, had its benefits too, like for couples to go through a year of "training and practical exams" before their ROM and maybe "Registry For Sex",
that can reduce useless parents that only know how to enjoy and screw the future generations.

Thats basically all for today. JYJY~~ after this week, it would be one module down~!!!

As shared on fb, was doing a project on Toilet Paper Dispenser, suddenly thought of a scene in , the part where the teacher say: "When people think of rubbish, they will think of you, rubbish, you, you, rubbish"..... so applied in this scenario: "When people think of toilet, they will think of us, toilet, us, us, toilet"...... hahahhaa

But oh well, at last it was all done!

Oh right, these few days I realized my topics with parents are about business already, sigh, the realization that im getting old sucks, especially when I gotta feed 4 families in the near future, where my Ji Pa Ban~~~??? However so far no luck in all the small business Im trying to establish, neither any attractive opportunities that I could spot on. An old friend was suggesting on potential market, but after analyzing it, seems like not a right time to strike since it is too new, so the start up cost still a little too high, and awareness or marketing of the product requires huge effort. Shall wait longer, perhaps High Achievers would be my forte.

Tomorrow gotta visit Bowei, then JiaoLian, then night cycling, Sun would be Bedok Wushu Annual Bai Nian, then the GateCrash event at chijmes. 3 Exams coming next week, excluding presentation. Sigh.

So for CNY, first day we had a video call over to Indo to greet my grandma and uncle, then cousin came to seat awhile until another cousin came. That's practically all, oh yea we ordered pizza, the fortune bag pizza (it was shrimps) since the hawker are all closed. On the second day, we had lunch at QQ noodle house since it;s the only noodle stall opened at bugis, then proceed to thomson to visit that same and only cousin (as in with the whole family around). After that, we went back QQ for dinner before heading to the River HongBao. Along the way, we dropped by Mondial, a diamond shop, and had a little chat, since they're probably bored to death there haha. So yea we had gained knowledge about GIA number on the diamond belt, and the investment practices, and the grades of the diamond, which differs with its shape, having triple excellence the best in the world for rounded excellent, and double excellence the best for other shapes like heart, oval, etc. There's also the colour difference and the grade difference.

So basically my assignments are untouched, waiting to rush over them these few days. Today consultation was not very smooth. Oh well shall leave it to the group first since they're more familiar with it, and yea today I devoted into the CDS project. Completed the entire report, and gonna work on the presentation probably on fri or saturday. Gonna be busy this weekend, with all the assignments lining up, yet the bai nian tradition with wushu on sat and sun. Gonna look forward to it, I mean, well, despite being rather plain and simple, we tend to have endless topics to talk about when 4 of us are together haha, as JiaoLian says: Last time, the food we ate have extra ingredients, their tears or sweats, of all the hardwork making the food, nowadays also got extra ingredients, our saliva, hahahhahahaha, cuz we sang and talked as we bbq the food hahhahaa.

Thinking back, actually I do not remember much about the details of 2008 tuan bai, but somehow it's the most memorable, most smiles-provoking as I think of it, but not sure how fun was it, I only remember the bang game and the various chalet games we played at JiaoLian and SX house. Well, anyway, thats the group that despite all adversities, would always be there to put smiles onto my face, and would never leave. Im rather sure of it now. =D Despite all the joys I probably could get with other groups and all, they last only for that moment, and perhaps that all, whereas this is the group we can have constant joy =D weird personalities we have, perhaps we're really destined to be in such a pattern haha, fire, water, wood, metal.

Just watched episode 23 of Double Bonus, seemed like the drama ended, yet it ended on such a weird number, shouldnt it be 20, 30 or at least 25? But the last scene seemed to conclude everything already, having the whole family together for reunion dinner and the 2 good birth news. Sometimes I do wonder, how is it that possible to display such happiness in the filming scene, imagine smiling halfway then gotta cut and redo haha, then they still can have a time of their life as if they were their real family, and that bliss.... Hmm...

Anyway, an under rated, humble, low profile, random song I heard from the River Hong Bao. It has an easy-listening, folk song kindda thing, simple tune, like Dao Xiang.

《榜样》

用顽强去征服每一个困难
用顽强去感动所有的风浪
Using determination and resilience
To overcome all adversities and storms.

该种下星星时就种下星星
该收获星光时就收获星光
There's a time for everything
Including to raise a bright shining star

用智商去擦亮每一个笑脸
用智商去打磨每一个梦想
To put gloss in every smile
To polish every dream

该撒下豪情时就撒下豪情
该扬起欢畅时就扬起欢畅
At times, be humble
At times, gotta celebrate

Happy Chinese New Year~!!!! May the year of dragon be prosperous and bountiful in all your desired areas~!! =D

新年快乐~! 祝你龙年吉祥，身体健康，笑容常开~！

Its CNY, and Im doing the 守夜 tradition, well, had a pretty hard time going into every person that still in my heart, posting greetings on their walls, spent like 40mins on that just to get 60 plus returns, but well, thats rather alot alreeady, there are some who seemed really grateful about it, really thankful of them too~ its really great to see people acknowledging your efforts.

The china CNY countdown was cool, lots of news like people who saved her kid from 10storey drop, a father who helped the refugees kids that he lost his own kid, and many more awesome story of awesome man doing awesome deeds. So there was this song they sang, and I think it's really great, that says that good people are everywhere around us, no matter what role they have, major or minor, they all made a difference to the world, and really, who knows, we can be part of the good people team as well!

好人就在身边，也许是老张小李
好人就在身边，也许是大叔阿姨
好人就在身边，也许是同事邻里
好人就在身边，也许就是自己

你不认识我，我不认识你
互相牵牵手，旅途就有了伴侣

你不认识我，我不认识你
互相帮帮忙，生活就少了风雨

你不认识我，我不认识你
互相暖暖心，冬天就有了含义

你不认识我，我不认识你
互相加加油，心中就多了勇气

Next I would like to share a video I watched just before my reunion dinner after sending Angel, Shishi and Chang Hong off,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OqOHxwRy04&feature=share

my comment: true true, parents often are not able to express their love clearly enough for us to feel it, but then again, why did they work so hard? isnt it for the family? to support us? that their burden of finding money overwhelm them that they often neglect us............ =D HAPPY CNY EVE EVERYONE, PLEASE ENJOY THIS MEAL, AND TRY TO MAINTAIN SMILES THROUGHOUT THE MEAL, ENDURE, EMBRACE AS MUCH, LEAVE EVERY HISTORY EVERY WORRIES AWAY, JUST EAT, AT LEAST FOR THIS ONE MEAL.

And just after the dinner, I saw this post on fb who said that the relatives all went home already when the countdown isnt completed yet, so technically it was not CNY yet, and thus it was only the person, the brother, the cousin and the family left for the grandma.... Moved me, it was liek so sad! I could imagine the frail old lady just having the moment of bliss to see the house filled with family members, enjoying, thus would carry a hope, a life, that was so uplifting, that they CNY would be great, and then the relatives all left.... sigh...... shattered....

And also Ive come to know some families that didnt have the reunion dinner, worst still to eat without the person, or to not taking it seriosuly, sigh..... Come to think of it, though int he past I didnt really take it seriously, at least I ate together at home, though might not be on the same table top, but yea, its homecooked, and at home.

Well, today spring cleaning was pretty well done I guess, re-did the chores again since tomorrow onwards cant touch the broom. Thanks the 3 people who came, though I think it was a bore for them, but well I told them i was busy and might not have time to entertain them. But yea still grateful much!

Then yea, now, im alone, in the middle of the night, parents slept. 2 more hours to go~! Oh yea, was looking around for deals, and saw many beautiful v-day gifts, and rather affordable, aishhh another v-day with me myself and i =D one day, I shall plan the greatest v-day for the one and only lady of my life, actually I would want to have a full day, starting out with homemade breakfast for her, then going into a dance worshop or baking or something or the day, then the usual sunset, and then take a stroll along sg river, ending up at a supper place of cheesecakes. Haha, then its all complete, 5 language of love complete~ and best if there are photoshoot too of the day, made into an album =D

Watched We Not Naughty; just now, pretty awesome story I think, despite lots of negative comments among netizens.

After the successful hits of his I Not Stupid series and Home Run, Jack Neo finally released another movie tackling certain teenhood social issues in Singapore. Themes he explored includes cyber-bullying, where the point he was trying to make was that as we generate hate, be it virtually or physically, we would have our consequences.

So this brings me back to the point about criticisms on net, I used to agree that anything virtually shouldn’t be taken seriously and should not be involved into the physical world, but guess I was wrong, I think it do will have its effect. Nice phrase in the movie: “Last time, being out would lead children turning bad, nowadays, being in the house would turn the children bad instead.” Haha agreed, somehow, actually being out with curfew actually is more beneficial I guess, had more interactions and experience of the real world out there. Thus there are some people I believe had been rotting at home too long that their academic excellence doesn’t equate to their common sense of the world. Thus, these people often are ignorant and oblivious to the society around them, leading them thinking the world revolves around them, turning them into selfish prawns, “Otak Udang” as I label, means Brain of Prawn (No Brain). Right, I suddenly thought of the joke I broke to a friend who just dyed his hair, I told him: Now you will definitely survive zombie invasion (cuz zombie eats brains which he don’t have) hahahhahahahha.

The next theme he touched on was on education, as usual, specifically the polytechnic/ITE, cuz he used ITP, so not very sure which is he referring to. Anyway, so there was this very dedicated teacher that tried very hard to help them, that believed in them, that refused to give up on them. I think this part of the story was good, where the teacher actually stripped and ran the whole school on losing the bet with his student. Despite losing his job initially, he had gained his reputation as a man of his word. He then gained the approval and admiration of his students, for one who is dependable, and trustworthy. I think this should be a model, a yardstick for all teachers to aim for. It’s really hard to do such an embarrassing “punishment”. If it were to be me, I would at most run with underwear.

Furthermore, upon knowing that his students were running for loansharks, he decided to empty his savings for them. 60k~! That was a huge lump sum of money! And not being stereotype, but seriously, is it worth it? 60k for people who had such high probability to make the effort go in vain? That struck me again. So, saying that we don’t look down on them, we don’t give up on them, do we really feel that way. By thinking about cost-benefits and turnovers or return, that showed that I did not have such magnificent heart, rather a hypocrite. Sigh. Well, the thing is, that sum was almost 100% of that teachers, not 10%, personally, I wouldn’t give more than 50% of my everything to anyone be it in verge of death, seriously, sadly. For me, I would help solve every problem halfway, and leave the other half to their efforts or for them to find more “beneficiaries”.

One really awesome quote from him, “能怪父母没教好你，能怪社会不理清， 可是未来掌握在自己的手中，自己的未来自己决定自己负责。你能怪父母和社会，但他们能替你坐牢，打偏吗?”

It translates into: You can blame your parents who did not govern you well, who didn’t show enough concern for you, or the society, the disparity, the biasness, the elitism, the inequality, that crippled you, that crushes you with all the obstacles, but in the end, your future is in your hands, the future is decided by your every actions and decisions you have made. You can blame everything under the sun, but can they replace you if you were to end up in jail or to be stroke?

And then, the next theme was parents, the examples parents showed to a child. I would say the script was good from the point of view that the way Wei Jie hit his sister was exactly like his dad, so there was this concept of learning. But there was this speech I think at the end where they say, sometimes, as parents, they could not express their love clear enough, but a lot of times, it is us who didn’t gave us a chance to, like these few years I have been occasionally buy them breakfast, chat with them, and I found out hey, they weren’t so bad after all, partly because of the scholarship perhaps, just like Samy said, “to shut their mouths up with your achievements”, but also because I initiated to start the bond. After all, they are probably the most willing to help me in times of trouble. However, in this society, ive seen many who do not. Sigh. Especially for mothers, seriously, don’t you love your kid after so much pain you’ve gone through during birth? It’s like at the scene where the 2 kids helped deliver the baby, it reminds me of the psychology lecture where they say men probably faint when seeing the birth process haha, which thus in some ways, women are superior in handling pain and stress.

The movie had a few nose-sour-ing part, like when the mom kept believing in “think positive”, when the small kid was framed for things he didn’t do, when the mother faint upon her husband’s violence, when the teacher tried to put sense into the 2 kids, when the teacher decided to run naked and asked for his wife’s support, when the daughter got her hair cut by her mum, when the brother bought a cap for his sister as he wanted her to study hard, etc……. I think the mood throughout the film is pretty well done, nice transition between funny and sad or serious, though in the middle a few boring parts. I do think that it was pretty well done for a movie to infuse in so many social issues. Though I think there are more issues to that. Oh I love the “foreign talent” part hahahahha~!

The pay-it-forward concept was there again, that the teacher had tried to help the kids, thus in the end, it was them who had helped his wife deliver the kid.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6bbOonyxq8&feature=share

Above is a short clip on CNY reunion dinner. Msg is straightforward and clear, so Jorgen went to Korea an hour ago, till then. Hmm, since yesterday stayed over at his house, this morning I packet nasi lemak and dumpling for family. I was home at 9.30am already, like wow so early... So spent time talking to them, about psychology, and various random topics and etc. It was a nice 3h, sort of bonding kindda thing.

So after that, since I didnt had anything else to do nor anywhere else to go, so I stayed at home watching movies and came across the above video. It's really cool, due to an Act of Random Kindness, the old guy got his family together for CNY. SO heartwarming.

(spoiler alert to 9pm show! and movie "Courageous")

So I watched miotv for the 9pm show, double bonus, and there was this scene whereby the "uncle" was found out to be an imposer, and the family was raged. Yet actually to my point of view, he didnt do anything real bad in the family, he had been good towards the "sister", so he's simply trying to give that "sister" a chance to care for a "brother". I think it's better this way being ignorant than knowing everything and make yourself so unhappy.

Well, though it might be freeloading, but to give a person an opportunity to care for someone close is really a big sacrifice, a big good deed. Not everyone is able to care for another one that they can be sure that their efforts would be worth it, and that the person is trustworthy enough to give your 120%.

So anyway, watched Courageous yesterday. The beginning was rather boring, until there was this part where that Javier was posing as the "Snake King". Haha, but overall, yea life works in an interesting way, that out of the sudden that Adam called Javier, mistaken him from another guy of the same first name. And a few nice parts, like how Javier stood upright against cheating, and that got him the promotion for the employers were testing his integrity. Speaking of which, I dont think I can ever par with that level of integrity, and perhaps so I often knew people who hide things from me big or small too, but it's alright, better this way, not too much of doubts and mistrusts.

One point I took back from the movie, is the ceremony where they signed the Resolution to be a good father, not good-enough, good. So these guys really cool, it was like the childhood perception of superman dads, and yea, wow that is loads of commitments and efforts. But the thing is, no matter how small is it, I think its good to have that concept of having a ceremony for it. Like wedding, like Xmas, like CNY, these are occasions that would remind us what our commitments are, and how serious are we into it, that there are these occasions, reserved to commemorate the purpose of these days. So IMO this is a great point to take away. Often we have the flame at the beginning, yet dies down fast, because we do not have grand visuals that could remind us of these decisions. Thats why Adam Khoo has loads of posters and etc.

Pretty cool, well the movie I watched today are "Our Family Marriage" and "Lottery Ticket". Our Family Marriage is cool too, talks about how 2 cultures of parents came together and plan a wedding for their kids, "Our marriage, their wedding" concept haha. This is a reinforcement of the "parents live vicariously through their children" concept. "Lottery Ticket" was lame actually, just a little sociology theory thats it, nothing much about life and all, and more of leading people into the delusion that we can strike rich by lottery.

Haha oh yea, today the 7m prize, sigh, weird numbers came out, and I found out that I had 5 of the numbers, just in 4 separated entries haha. Oh well, better luck next time. Seriously, if I were to strike, I would spent at least 50% of the 7m into others, perhaps supporting a family, or things like that, and others most probably for my parents, and I would just be contented with the 1m... Ji Pa Ban wish =D ofcoz if family allow, I would like to distribute them to some of the kids I know of. Though the sum isnt much, but it is a great start up for social mobility and opportunities in life of anyone's life.

Sigh, money is the source of all problems in society........... a constant worry for all......

Today in LAW we learnt about the Grey Nomads, and several travel choices, and thus led us to think whether caravan travelling is possible in sg. After enlightenment by Terence and Mala, it got me thinking that it is really possible, for despite the ridiculously high priced COE, there are a relatively high number of car ownership. Thus, we see that it is in our nature to drive, to speed, to enjoy the empty road, to enjoy the night streets. That encourages people to actually drive to JB just for a meal, and stuffs like that, and then we link to the idea that sg isnt spacial limited, in fact, most of our ancestors would agree that because they are very much connected to their roots, thus sg is connected to the neighbouring countries, that we can link all the way to Europe from sg. SO that brings me to a relative too that would bike across Indonesia just for the fun of it, despite their Silver age.

So anyway, there was this topic on foreign workers in sg. So I was sharing how pinoys foreigner have very high perseverance and great hospitality. I was buying food and had a little chat, which allow me to know that he worked 12h a night, 9pm-9am, everyday full time. So I was like "arent you tired", and he shrugged, "well, I've got no choice". So then I compared to the few previous pinoys I knew, and I said, well, they are all of the same build, and facial features, and a certain kind of expression. They're really awesome magnificent people. Then my friend mentioned about how he used to have a maid that served them 8years, and now she's doing well as an experienced maid, serving angmohs, which fetches her big money. So his family changed her life. Yet then the sad thing is that her son passed away just before her contract end. It was so sad, I conversed with many maids before, and it's really heartwarming to see them mentioning about their children in their hometown, and they share the photographs with you, "this is my kid"....

Then he went on saying these people are so sad, they torture themselves living in this environment, just to sent money back to their hometown, and usually a large portion of it, at least 50%. However there are many cases of their husbands using the money to feed other women, and stuffs like that, and also cases where they were looking forward to see their kids, prepared with sea of toys, yet the bad news broke. Sigh. How is it possible for these people to go through all these, where some people just spend money in the arcade like running tap.

As I walked home, 1am, on the empty streets, again the song came.....

And I will live
To carry your compassion
To love a world that's broken
To be your hand and feet....

And I will give
With the life that I've been given
To go beyond religion
To see the world be changed.....

So I was thinking, I know ive been spending tremendous amount of energy and time on random people that I feel "worth" helping, as much as I can, so what if 10years down the road, I couldnt devote that much time anymore... how? This kind of thing cant pass the baton.

So reminds me of what my dad used to say when I was young, that he hoped for me to be a big boss, to be able to feed so many families, by giving them jobs and taking care of their well-being, and yet have income to enjoy life as well.

Sigh. Big stress. I've started the moving blue project, trying to commission at a low rate of a buck per piece sold, and see if we can make this business grow, and if possible, get companies to invest on it for corporate tee or event tee, and publicize it, and could even open a branch here, by licensing it.

As for others, yea, just step by step, have faith in whatever I do now, the rest is all up to nature how it want to liven my life story. Soon, I should be starting to send resumes in to high achievers and try to get jobs there, and perhaps one day I could be one of the trainers too, making money with saliva like Adam Khoo, one of my biggest dream in secondary school.

Today I only had consultation.

Weird feeling, felt that Siva was rather pissed, dont know about what, hoped its not of me... one way or another, but its like I didnt do much though my part was one of the biggest portion, but yea it didnt take me as much effort. Grateful for Jordan to be there cheering the atmosphere, like always, very optimistic, often helped me to not think too much as well, like how I did a typo error and was rather down then he was like "who cares, its all over, look at the bright side". He's awesome =D

Anyway yea no one was at church, so I went to the library after snacking at bedok. Noticed as I sat to eat my dumplings, around me were single old folks too, some with headphones, others with newspapers, just like last wed when I noticed as I package food for my family back, I saw this folk carrying 2 packets of chicken rice (i think), and kopi o on another, with the same slipper I had, tee and shorts. So cool...

Anyway, at the library, I noticed some interesting behaviors too. There is this guy reading and studying, but after a while kept flipping back like go stun to read again. This is perhaps he lost the stamina to focus after a few pages, and thus as he read something that caught his attention, he gotta refer back to previous pages to link them up again for the transition probably. So I became a little self conscious and realized I do that too often. Johann on the other hand was completely different, he cant skip at all, not books nor movies. He gotta read every detail, and thus perhaps thats why it was a struggle for him to read Games At Twilight by Anita Desai.

Then there was this woman, she was smiling to herself, yet that kind of smile sort of gave me a warmth feeling, a friendly, angelic feeling, full of graciousness and greatness. However her behavior was weird, she would walk a few rounds to the back of the library, then came back to put on her slippers, then walk a few rounds to the other end of the library, and then sit back and have some time on her own closing her eyes as if thinking, praying or meditating. Really interesting person. She seems to ignore yet not ignorant about her surroundings. I noticed that first because many people were irritated by some school kids on the comp, but she smiled. It was a "adult" smile, like uttering "kids are kids...".

Anyway, just had a thought, the lyrics to Sometimes When We Touch, it's about a broke up couple, perhaps 两个对的人，再错的时候, like 2 right people yet wrong timing.This is read as a one person speech instead of a duet like I had always thought so due to the Dolly and Kenny version of the song. The couple probably broke up and the speaker still loves the other party, and hoped that they can still remain in contact, yet the flame is too overwhelming for the speaker that causes the suffering, and the fact that they were together and now they were apart.

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Thats why when this party had intimacy with the ex, the speaker would think about all their pasts, and then would understand that the speaker needs the other person, that the speaker still loves the person, but broke up for some reasons, thus would have this dying need to burst out with tears and shout "I love you" and go back to the person and never part again. The fear of parting, the fear of not in contact with the person anymore, yet with contact comes all the memories and pasts.

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

The speaker do not want to lose face, and also perhaps have other reasons not to patch up, but there's this inevitable feeling of like "begging", like "surrender" kid of feeling. It's like a romance story, but couldnt continue the story, blocked by the incident. The speaker is also someone who is competitive, perhaps the other party initiated the indication to break up, so the speaker is hurt with the first 'failure" in life. Still very childish attitude.

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

Sometimes the speaker felt that there's a need to make the other party put in more effort into that past relationship, that instead of the speaker feeling pathetic now, she would want the other party the one who was so deeply in love to be willing to do so, since it is blissful to be loved. But then again, what the speaker ultimately wants and needs is the other party to be around, to be in possession.

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by


Being together, at times the speaker thinks that the speaker knows the other party, as the person would had seen and known when the other party did great feats for the speaker, but yet the speaker self would know that the speaker had did things that the other party hates and loathes, and a little alternate meaning might imply that the other party had realized that the other party had missed out other kinds of love because of this romantic love.

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

Maybe the speaker would think that they are not suitable for serious relationships yet, and its better to remain as friends, yet it is rather impossible to do so, for the speaker is hopelessly inclined and devoted to loving the other party only.

Today I served in Church,

Today was full force. Tired due to sleeping at 2pm, but well, Made it through the day. The whole event ended 3pm++, went to Jorgen's house till 6pm or so, then went for dinner at KFC for the promotion thing. Should have ate at hawker... sianz... Next few days gotta save up alot alot for the pizza =D its been long since I ate pizza, hope by sore throat and dry cough be healed soon.

Interesting things Ive learnt today, the rest was repeats and are rather bore, was expecting more, but anyway, yes, sometimes, when we fall short of our plans, look forward to the next, dont be discouraged. Just like as we are busy in our lives, we often skipped meals, but that doesnt mean we dont eat anymore, we simply look forward to the next meal and enjoy it more. Same principle applies.

Next was the Parable of Toilet Paper haha cute uh? When the toilet paper was brand new, we pull a few sheets, it turned a bit, but as time goes by, when we pull that same number of sheets, it would turn revolutions. So cool... haha.

So yea thats basically all... Oh saw this challenge Naomi posted on chat for Yin Kei, give few words then lump them into a poetry so as I see these words I have some ideas here and there and... ta-da~!!

horses, war, wild, wind, gates of hades,
swords, shields, tears, freedom

The Gates of Hades flung open.
For as the Trojan horses broke,
And the war commences,
And the silent wind went wild,
Swords slashes, shields clashes
At last, tickling down their cheeks,
Tears of Freedom.

The poetry can be read from top to bottom for the perspective that the enemies are those in the city, and as they entered the city, they ambushed them, for the freedom, perhaps after years of suppression or subjugation, and they fought for freedom.

Read from bottom to up, it seems like they wanted to be free from these "unwelcomed" and "unexpected" guests, and thus the fought to drive these people in the Trojan Horses back, to annihilate them, to protect their city.

Oh no, weekends are burning fast. Fri planned to cut hair, play games, then rest already. However, due to MOUSEHUNT~!! I joined the tournament on thur that made me discard every tasks im supposed to do for that. So yea, it snowballed to fri where I got to stay in sch 11 to 3 to finish up the BNF and LAW projects. Sigh. So I ditched Jorgen at scc haha. When I reached, he was teaching Gerome. So it really surprised me but Im really glad he was arranged to do so. As his background, he should have seen several slow learners in his life too, so its great to train him in this field so he might one way or another help other people in his life too. I believe he got the ability to excel much, and help much.

So yea so I went there, chat a little here and there, so great seeing Alvin and Chalmers, and also Le Le too, and Javier haha, he hugged me and said: "You stink, but I dont care..." soooo sweet......

So then we went with Angel and called Chang Hong for basketball. We played till 6pm, then had dinner and went to Jorgen's house. I helped him downloaded utorrents and various applications while installing Need For Speed The Run. Woah he got an awesome comp and an awesome internet. Razor, made for gaming. So he was revising Customer Service. We went through the first 2 chapters and concluded it was rather crap, so much personal impressions than customers service, so I advised him to skip to chapter 8, Customer Retention. So there are certain new terms he learnt, and certain small details in customers service many would miss out, like the "Serve customer certain coloured cups or straw if applicable, when we "guess" what customer would like, and address their needs and wants before they even request". And shared with him the POM projects and learning points.

Then comes the sigh part haha. NFS was installed, and we tried, and frankly it was a great thriller. The stages are hard to clear, party because we never knew the acceleration button haha so we were playing without accelerating but pure nitrous haha. Anyway, yea so we played till 2pm.

Then we talked a little here and there about songs and music. Then we decided to sleep. It was 3pm then~! and downloads were done at close to 4pm.

We woke up at 8am then, planned for breakfast which obviously couldnt, which cost him a 7 bucks cuz he needed passport sized photos fast, which could have saved that money if he were to say that days in advance. So we had breakfast at Ya Kun, I had the french toast. Wow, speaking of that my stomach is grumbling now.

So just nice I enquireed about TCC solutions too, and cool, nice job for him. Maybe I would join too for a while just to adorn my portfolio and get that iphone plan benefit. Everything seemed to fall so nicely, we were studying about customer service, and he had to go to work today at last minute call due to manpower shortage. So I think he's still there now till 2 midnight. Really hoped he's alright!

Oh yea, because of that, he went home between 2 to 3 to put down his stuffs, which thus I tabaoed food for him and therefore late for the teachers meeting for half an hour. I thought it would be a very formal and serious meeting, so was rather kanchiong and all that, event thinking that if my 'attitude' was questioned, I would say that I didnt think my reason for latecoming would be justified yet I would repeat the same decision if there is a second time. Woah liek so "the oath" that show haha. Yea cuz I didnt drew money, thus he lent me 50, which made him pennyless, and no time to eat, and if he dont eat, his 4h of sleep wouldnt guarantee the energy needed to last through his work, so I made that decision.

So of coz, everything falls in place so perfectly, shortly after I reached, then they started the meeting, and bible study, and everything ended as usual. Cool~!! Amazing at lots of times how God works~! So during bible study, I was amazed my their deep and wise interpretation of the study verses. Impressed! Immediately as I read, I have lots of questions and doubts and all the whys, but they cleared it all without me uttering a word! Lots of it are simply because I did not read enough, or missed the point. But still, awesome because a certain verse was so trivial to me yet it was liek the crucial part of the study verses!

So A.Jacq was sharing about the ministry, and that till date there are 800 ex students out there, and how she hoped that each of them would find their way to the connection with God, but we shall focus one by one, liek the Parable of Lost Sheep. She mentioned Jorgen too, and about that day where we "昔日重逢" (met again after years). Im rather proud though, that I am still in contact with people liek WeiDe and Jorgen, and with KY's help, reached to Amanda, Jewel, Qinda and the rest. And she shared something so cool, that sometimes, we never knew if we are that crucial move in chess that would affect the whole game board, that would cost a huge advance or failure into the game. And the thing is that we dont have to know what is it, we dont need to move nations, we just need to do our best in whatever we are doing, and the rest will follow along.

Then, I met up with Chang Hong as he passed me old books for the scc, then went to Bedok Point for lunch and arcade, and Gong Cha~! and then finally back home. Hmm, 3 more hours to Jorgen's off, doubt I have the energy to last through though, oh well....

Arh yea, tomorrow is the Tribe Meeting. Seriously, I thought there was no wushu, when they asked me I was liek "only if I dont have wushu, if have I would be late and attend the gathering only" But dont know why got the image that last week was last week already, so I said okay I will turn up at 9am, and yea k I was just blur all the way.... So yea, was a little irritated when someone said to me: "More liek you agreed without thinking, more like you"..... Sigh, like for pass few events either I went after wushu or I skipped totally for wushu, can cross reference though this blog archive itself somemore, oh well, lazy to sort of "proof" myself, I always have a certain bad reputation in wushu anyway. First impression are anchored deep, hard to be changed. And also the Orh reply... oh well, personality.....

Right... Ciao~!