A friend told me that actually i should not be affected by my parents views and remarks too much, since it's all just the matter of perspective, of what is of worth. Since I've been doing it, just carry on, YOLO, no second thoughts....... he commented that I am one of the influence in life, makes me feel so great! more valued, more dignified, more  motivated in life.......

 Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labor of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls....

Still....... Rejoice~~