The entire sem is over. On Fri, seriously felt that great joy of relief, that euphoria.
Went for Martial Art Restaurant Feng Bo Zhuang once more, with the SJ clique.
I knew Im probably gonna be the odd one out,
but oh well, I was invited by one of them, so join lorh.
Besides eating gourmet, it's probably just another outing,
but it's great to feel the atmosphere ba.
A friend introduced the Hackathon,
so sad I could not join due to commitments and no interest in technology.
She is gonna pursue a phd for 4 years, and resume her 1 year left phd here.
She won the previous Hackathon and the ideas is still currently developing.
And why am I still rotting my life away????
Amazing that wushu groomed such a talent.
And then I thought back to my current situation.
Intern coming in sep, NS soon.....
How will my class survive?
I was hoping for Tai to takeover till dq is ready to take over,
I guess he is my last hope.
Probably the only one that had the same mentality of teaching.
I would not want to just loose this batch.
Really hoped that one day they would make us proud once more.
I really hoped for my students to precede us.
What I aim for my students,
Is to be disciplined without being disciplined
Self motivated to achieve their very best
Encouraging to one another, to foster a strong bond
Love of language and culture, and a moral character
What is character,
I think character is the state of comprehensive love,
only could be molded internally,
to achieve a greater good for all people.
eg, character, is when you leave a place better than it was before,
eg, to pick up a tissue left by strangers on your table at the hawker.
That day someone was telling me the system of governance in sg,
how people were forced to work whereas they get pension in other states,
I rebutted him,
saying that actually, it's really for our own good,
to give pension is like socialism,
people would get more than they worked,
that would discourage productivity,
hinders economic growth.
Then, saying about cpf,
it is enough to sustain the poor,
at least, their basic needs are met,
at least, the homeless had a better life here than any other country,
at least, they had avenues of help.
In any system, Im sure the rich will get richer.
Thats the surplus value theory.
But without the rich the country will be poor,
then there would really be absolute poverty.
Yes, we had systems that forces "good deeds"
such as CIP hours and philanthropist awards,
but as much as it is superficial it is beneficial.
What can you then, offer?
While you are complaining so much.
Do you distribute to the homeless?
Do you distribute powdered milk for 4,000?
Do you donate masks during haze?
Do you organize mass distribution of dumplings?
Do you learn in order to help?
Do you help your next door grandma with her groceries?
Do you take some time off your schedule to volunteer?
Do you contribute????
Why wait for authorities to do things?
Wouldnt that be "forced" too?
Be the change you wanna see!
Anyway,
then was talking about my future,
talked a loooong chat with my parents.
Firstly NS, I really could foresee myself either "misfired" at life firing,
jailed, death sentenced, etc etc
or kena confinement, or facing other deviant issues
IF I would be maligned.
I dont mind doing anything,
if there is a reason,
But I loathed any shit you make me do
If the reason is simply "I said so" or "I see you not happy"
Then, is what to after that.
On one hand I like to do events,
I think it's challenging and fun
for the sleepless nights to do something unique every project with different team.
But that is not stable.
I remembered JL talked about the
4 stable jobs that will guarantee your survival
- http://life-in-loneliness.blogspot.sg/2012/10/today-had-great-chat-with-jiaolian.html
I want to at least take one of them.
Becoming a boss is stress,
to groom a successor is stressed,
perhaps, I would want to be a teacher.
But seriously, throughout history,
I have failed being teachers,
be it in piano, in wushu, in academic,
my students all gave up halfway,
grew no interest,
incapable teacher.......
So what could I do??
Troubled by my future......
But then again, I came across this quote......
and it reverbrates throughout the weekend......
Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
God saw you through it, why wont you trust in him again?
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