uploaded the photos into facebook bit by bit. 3 days with them fly so fast compared to a whole year, 2 years in fact... since the last time i saw them. suddenly a fear builds up, fear of losing them, though not likely, but who knows, our topics are limited, our language is slightly passed the conversation line, if i dont brush up my indo scared cant even talk already, and who knows too, humans may change.. feeling like a was in such sweet dream until the alarm sound wakes me up, just like how i felt when i stepped into bds, also when ding hsuan left to taiwan... just cant believe the dream gone so fast, wonder when can it come again. anyway, speaking of sleeping, havent slept for such short period yet felt so alive after waking up. not in s'pore, not here, but there in puncak, mere 3 hours of sleep felt so fresh, like a same old brand new me.... that feeling of freedom and easiness... btw indo songs are easy to catch up, at most 1 time should be able to predict the tunes. sigh, so again, happiness is transient, time is cruel, memory is sorrowful... Happy Memories are addictive drugs that made us feel alive for just that brief moment yet had left me in such unbearable plight, yearning for more, and got no choice but to counter the eagerness by consuming more...

took the True Fear quiz again after almost a year... was totally astounished to be such a big change, well, my death fear had built up, so do the being alone and losing someone, it is again proving the fact that as you grow old, you're more coward, and also you met more people, which means u have to much people that you once got along well and you will start to fear that they will just vanish away, leaving nothing but memories. you will soon rather them to remain in the same state as they were once you met them, regardless how good or bad they've changed...

i will miss you both Christian and Yohanes, aku akan merindukanmu, btw they are also earning a little by rf online, they're audition are so pro, 8k 150bpm with crazy9, wow, not many guys i seen could do that... though ofcoz this is a layman saying it... was wondering if wanna propose a exchange programme between them + family and wuluowuxuan... they come singapore for a week and we'll go there for 2 weeks... 2 weeks coz indo is too big to be able to enjoy much in a week, at least 2 weeks... and i think they will be bored in singapore for 2 weeks... that would be cool.. well if they accept, they have approx 6 persons at least and might range up to 10, at least a 2 room flat and able to cook, dont mind family dwelling but must have 2 vacant rooms as they could sleep on the floor... can find, guess not, jy kaya... for us, houses here are so big, can easily cramp 20 people in a shalet such as the one i lived that 2 days, or my own house if possible, not as comfortable though, or hotels, their house if no choice, gotta sleep on the floor, wonder if wlwx will mind... haha... but it's alot easier that their temporary settlement in singapore...

now back to wlwx, a month of sickness and being confined at home doing nothing much bores me, bet im gonna lose out alot when i return, miss them much too, wonder if i could make it for countdown gathering... will reach home only at 10pm... sigh... last post for the year i guess, it's luck internet is good today, very very good...