Hmm, 10 days into 2020.

I couldnt take it anymore.

Due to reservist, my income is greatly affected.

With that my bills are piling up, my premiums are pilling up.
My expenses couldnt be cut. 
And I think back again.

No.

I can no longer be a BD.
I can no longer do status quo.
My survival, my passion is after all still guiding.

I was promised a stake,
I was promised a fix,
but it was all but plain words,
and this time it's time for me to make plans for my future,
make plans for my survival,
make plans for the happiness of myself.