had never felt so unbearable as now...
it's like...
everything's superficial...
so fake...
so different...
than what i hope this year would be...

The night sky is so beautiful now
i suddenly feel so puny
it has no edge nor depth
a sea with unknowns lurking
and i might be that only star there
at least from my window view...

The world is full of amazing things
and i feel like im wasting my time
learning dead things and plain theories
i wanna travel around the world
just sightseeing relax and talk
to new people, different people
weird and funny people
know the world in different perspectives
learn different cultures
their habits and language
and thoughts and hearts and feelings

i want to be worry free
so my heart wont be hooked by
the fishing rods
of families or friends
or responsibilities or society
so i wont feel sad angry or unbearable
when people just walk away like that

but to do that, what i need most is money...
money money money....
whether for selfish purposes
or good deeds or descendants
everything needs money

it's like the piano
with the white a tune can be played
of sounds of musics of tones
adding the blacks will expand the selection
with sharps with flats with chords
but with the gold pedals
a newbie could sound professional
by the sustain, the soft, the togetherness