2018 is indeed an exciting year,
So many changes to life.
Since my 24th, Ive been catching up to several groups of friends,
Very heartening to see how some of them are excelling in their fields,
When we all came from the gutters once.

I guess it's maturity, we start to value education,
We start to take charge of our lives,
assume autonomy of our decisions,
and became much more earthed.

Whilst so, on the sideline also guiding some of the youths,
but it's almost impossible to fully motivate them,
as how we were all unable to appreciate too in the past.

I guess thats the purpose of education,
at the end of the day, it's not teaching you knowledge,
knowledge cant get you far, if anyone wants knowledge, just google.
Education before tertiary is teaching you the complexity of problems,
How subconsciously we are trained to find patterns, seek solutions,
understand the layers and affiliates of each problems,
and then diligently work towards it.
Whether or not you understand the concept or plain memory work,
both are valuable skills to the society in time to come. 

And then we talk about death, there's a philosophy discussion about it.
A very interesting topic and opens me up to some of the view points.
Could be a more meaningful discussion but anyway, some of my takeaways, 

Death - The victim
What is a good death?
How do we prepare for death?
How much of a taboo is death?
Are you frighten of death or jovial?
Is death selfish?

Death - The mental state
To learn how to die is to learn how to live.
To be able to accomplish things you always wanted to do.
To be able to help those you wanna help.
You see, without death, life is meaningless.

Death - The left behind
To recognize our time is finite enables us to cease opportunity.
To be able to be generous in praises and forgiveness.
To be able to accept phrases of life.

Death - the visit
How do we comfort? and why do we say what we say?
Why do we visit the dead? Closure? Memories?
What do we go at the gathering?
Emotional Growth. Social Support.

Death - The suffering
Is death a liberation to some?
Views on Euthanasia and Assisted Suicide?
Why do people suicide? Is it really painless? or simply less pain?

Death - The cultural differences
Funeral practices in Western and Eastern doctrine.
Singapore context of funeral and death - Crypt, Cremation, Festivals, Laws
Types of funeral - Heaven, Fire, Water, Wood, Earth, Wind
What are the superstitions related to deaths? Colour white, Red, Yellow, Black, etc
Views of deceased - gone to better place, or life ends, or rewards for suffering, or detached

Yepp, so anyways, some greedy dude spoilt my week totally.
1 person in the team, always inconsistent in the words,
Say come out with something, but never did,
Say company buy something for stakeholders, but dont want to do the job
Say my planning sucks, but felt not paid enough to takeover
Say be transparent, but never was,
Say we are family, but skeptical whether got reciprocate,

And on the side all of us have been very considerate and sacrificing for this person,
Last thing that tipped me off is that this person felt that either me or another person,
has been not doing jobs, but getting paid a same base salary.
Freaking hell im so damn pissed, not having jobs means we fking get lesser pay,
and we sacrifice our slots for u and thus very free, thus go on holiday,
for fk sake be grateful! Fk it has come to the point, I really dont want this person in the team.
Either this person or me!