So a friend of mine officially joined my company.

Well, I was exhilarated about the news. This is probably the first step towards a mindset change of Tourist Guides. As I always mentioned, if you step into a secondary school and asked "Who would like to be a Tourist Guide" and no one raise up their hand, there is something extremely wrong about the mindset about the industry being a retirement job. Even the definition of it is often mis represented as a Tour Leader (Tour Leader leads locals to overseas and incharge of logistics).

Then again on another hand, Im opening up my vulnerability and persona in front of him. From young I have always portrayed a strong front around my friends, many people see me as a fighter, as a successful man. But behind that, lies so much burden, so much expectations, so much emotional roller coaster. I warned him not to be alarmed if you see a very different me in work, against outside. I'm someone who takes work more objectively regardless of friendship and whatever. But ultimately, I also told him to watch for my psychological wellbeing. He just entered the Adulting World, I really hope I can groom him more like me, or better, surpassing me. I think people around me had so much potential that can be harnessed and molded into a greater being. All they need is a little confidence, a little resources, and a little opportunity. I hope to be the one providing that.

Then I remembered "3 Idiots", when a quote goes like "Your friend fails, you feel bad. Your friend tops, you feel worst.". But it doesnt really seem to affect me that much. I actually love to see people around me succeed in life. It's that touching moment, that heartwarming moment, where you see their talents utilized. But to be honest, it's always that one aspect of life that I cant help but to envy, where most people around me seem to always have that charm, that magnet, that attractiveness, that I probably gotta change my face, my shape, my voice to attain. But bright side is, if fate throws me a girl, thats probably "The One".

Well, gonna be a busy year ahead, cant be too distracted. Another friend of mine seem to step into my world a little more. Have been meeting up since last Saturday. I feel young around him, though being sleep deprived of 2-3h a night, but the kind of madness, the youth, the energy, havent really felt that for a long time. Got to know him more ofcoz, and thought that he had such an interesting life. Then along the way, another friend was being very very very kind to make the effort to come over and tried bonding. Really grateful for people like that. I always considered myself very lucky, to get a group of friends like these. Many criticism ofcoz, people claiming that I'm often used, or buying friends, but the kind of effort they showed me is definitely more than just a motive-filled friendship. I am rather sure, this is the bunch that will stay by my side 50 years from now.

They probably seen my worst, and probably seen my best, someone that has flexibility to be impromtu, someone that I can be comfortable with even in silence. Though some of them expressed their lost of friendships before, I really really really hope I would not be that kind of person to them.