phew.. damn beat today....
yepp, tmr is olvl chem spa yet im still roaming the city...
well, must try to not miss any opportunity to experience new stuffs...
this world is cruel, time is vicious...
happineess is transient....
some may disagree, but it is best being a kid, at least for me...
to be so carefree, so curious and unafraid...
maybe the older i am, the more coward i've become
to always think about consequences and stuffs like that
to always consider my image to the public...

well... as said, just living to die...
nothing last, so just cherish, treasure, smile and move on...

well.. life is indeed meaningless
we are not history, so just live ba, let fate decide..
but ofcoz must give your best larh...

that day dont know why told my dad about my 'ambition'...
which is being entertainer, counseller, actor.. stuffs like that, his reaction was negative le, but seriously, i appreciate these people alot, it is a form of art, a form of entertainment...

mrs ma showed a video of a boy dressed up as a girl dancing to 'nothing but you', she condemned him so bitterly... for goodness sake he was just entertaining people larh, must give credit to these people who boldly gave abit of laughter into others'lives... just like a clown, ever wondered how hard is it to kept faking a smile regardless of your mood and be humiliated for the sake of the laughter of the audience?

why must men be so unkind, condemning others, to stereotype and discriminate... to turn a cold shoulder... to hurt others... be abit more kind ba, the world would be a better place. To be a little more selfless and open up your heart, no need full, half door okay le...

Sometimes selfless to the point to go along with what others enjoy, dont give a gloomy face when friends take you to do something they like but you dont... well must be righteous ones larh.. I must give applause to sin5 to try to ice-skate though he got no interest at all... he do pick up fast, at least he didnt fell as much as me when i started to learn.. well my style larh, die die pia one.... but seriously now i could not learn a new skill as fast as last time.. as stated.. the older i am, the more coward i've become... ms hoori agrees too after sharing her experiences... damn i wonder what would i be in the future.. sigh...

wow, such a long post.. hehe i think i post more philosophical stuffs than francis... well enough thinking for today... bb... sharing about my horoscope:

此星座的人有坚韧的毅力，勤奋，遇难时有可自解厄的能力，亦可平安度过。缺点为有疑心，常会妨碍了命运。除了喜做善事，不问收获，不断付出，贡献，绝不可为贪小利而借钱给别人或借人钱财。
此星座的人易获得众人敬爱，也能蒙受长辈、上司的照顾和提携；个性恶嫉扬善，种善因得善果，有佛缘。有智慧和胆量，不怕吃苦，处事认真，能忍耐、天真幼稚，乐于助人，有“平稳”的潜能，具有稳定的行动力。

and the facebook :

PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY QUIZ

Dear Kyanta Yap, below are your PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY test result:

You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You appreciate simple things in life... You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect.

You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!