Today I served in Church,

Today was full force. Tired due to sleeping at 2pm, but well, Made it through the day. The whole event ended 3pm++, went to Jorgen's house till 6pm or so, then went for dinner at KFC for the promotion thing. Should have ate at hawker... sianz... Next few days gotta save up alot alot for the pizza =D its been long since I ate pizza, hope by sore throat and dry cough be healed soon.

Interesting things Ive learnt today, the rest was repeats and are rather bore, was expecting more, but anyway, yes, sometimes, when we fall short of our plans, look forward to the next, dont be discouraged. Just like as we are busy in our lives, we often skipped meals, but that doesnt mean we dont eat anymore, we simply look forward to the next meal and enjoy it more. Same principle applies.

Next was the Parable of Toilet Paper haha cute uh? When the toilet paper was brand new, we pull a few sheets, it turned a bit, but as time goes by, when we pull that same number of sheets, it would turn revolutions. So cool... haha.

So yea thats basically all... Oh saw this challenge Naomi posted on chat for Yin Kei, give few words then lump them into a poetry so as I see these words I have some ideas here and there and... ta-da~!!

horses, war, wild, wind, gates of hades,
swords, shields, tears, freedom

The Gates of Hades flung open.
For as the Trojan horses broke,
And the war commences,
And the silent wind went wild,
Swords slashes, shields clashes
At last, tickling down their cheeks,
Tears of Freedom.

The poetry can be read from top to bottom for the perspective that the enemies are those in the city, and as they entered the city, they ambushed them, for the freedom, perhaps after years of suppression or subjugation, and they fought for freedom.

Read from bottom to up, it seems like they wanted to be free from these "unwelcomed" and "unexpected" guests, and thus the fought to drive these people in the Trojan Horses back, to annihilate them, to protect their city.

Oh no, weekends are burning fast. Fri planned to cut hair, play games, then rest already. However, due to MOUSEHUNT~!! I joined the tournament on thur that made me discard every tasks im supposed to do for that. So yea, it snowballed to fri where I got to stay in sch 11 to 3 to finish up the BNF and LAW projects. Sigh. So I ditched Jorgen at scc haha. When I reached, he was teaching Gerome. So it really surprised me but Im really glad he was arranged to do so. As his background, he should have seen several slow learners in his life too, so its great to train him in this field so he might one way or another help other people in his life too. I believe he got the ability to excel much, and help much.

So yea so I went there, chat a little here and there, so great seeing Alvin and Chalmers, and also Le Le too, and Javier haha, he hugged me and said: "You stink, but I dont care..." soooo sweet......

So then we went with Angel and called Chang Hong for basketball. We played till 6pm, then had dinner and went to Jorgen's house. I helped him downloaded utorrents and various applications while installing Need For Speed The Run. Woah he got an awesome comp and an awesome internet. Razor, made for gaming. So he was revising Customer Service. We went through the first 2 chapters and concluded it was rather crap, so much personal impressions than customers service, so I advised him to skip to chapter 8, Customer Retention. So there are certain new terms he learnt, and certain small details in customers service many would miss out, like the "Serve customer certain coloured cups or straw if applicable, when we "guess" what customer would like, and address their needs and wants before they even request". And shared with him the POM projects and learning points.

Then comes the sigh part haha. NFS was installed, and we tried, and frankly it was a great thriller. The stages are hard to clear, party because we never knew the acceleration button haha so we were playing without accelerating but pure nitrous haha. Anyway, yea so we played till 2pm.

Then we talked a little here and there about songs and music. Then we decided to sleep. It was 3pm then~! and downloads were done at close to 4pm.

We woke up at 8am then, planned for breakfast which obviously couldnt, which cost him a 7 bucks cuz he needed passport sized photos fast, which could have saved that money if he were to say that days in advance. So we had breakfast at Ya Kun, I had the french toast. Wow, speaking of that my stomach is grumbling now.

So just nice I enquireed about TCC solutions too, and cool, nice job for him. Maybe I would join too for a while just to adorn my portfolio and get that iphone plan benefit. Everything seemed to fall so nicely, we were studying about customer service, and he had to go to work today at last minute call due to manpower shortage. So I think he's still there now till 2 midnight. Really hoped he's alright!

Oh yea, because of that, he went home between 2 to 3 to put down his stuffs, which thus I tabaoed food for him and therefore late for the teachers meeting for half an hour. I thought it would be a very formal and serious meeting, so was rather kanchiong and all that, event thinking that if my 'attitude' was questioned, I would say that I didnt think my reason for latecoming would be justified yet I would repeat the same decision if there is a second time. Woah liek so "the oath" that show haha. Yea cuz I didnt drew money, thus he lent me 50, which made him pennyless, and no time to eat, and if he dont eat, his 4h of sleep wouldnt guarantee the energy needed to last through his work, so I made that decision.

So of coz, everything falls in place so perfectly, shortly after I reached, then they started the meeting, and bible study, and everything ended as usual. Cool~!! Amazing at lots of times how God works~! So during bible study, I was amazed my their deep and wise interpretation of the study verses. Impressed! Immediately as I read, I have lots of questions and doubts and all the whys, but they cleared it all without me uttering a word! Lots of it are simply because I did not read enough, or missed the point. But still, awesome because a certain verse was so trivial to me yet it was liek the crucial part of the study verses!

So A.Jacq was sharing about the ministry, and that till date there are 800 ex students out there, and how she hoped that each of them would find their way to the connection with God, but we shall focus one by one, liek the Parable of Lost Sheep. She mentioned Jorgen too, and about that day where we "昔日重逢" (met again after years). Im rather proud though, that I am still in contact with people liek WeiDe and Jorgen, and with KY's help, reached to Amanda, Jewel, Qinda and the rest. And she shared something so cool, that sometimes, we never knew if we are that crucial move in chess that would affect the whole game board, that would cost a huge advance or failure into the game. And the thing is that we dont have to know what is it, we dont need to move nations, we just need to do our best in whatever we are doing, and the rest will follow along.

Then, I met up with Chang Hong as he passed me old books for the scc, then went to Bedok Point for lunch and arcade, and Gong Cha~! and then finally back home. Hmm, 3 more hours to Jorgen's off, doubt I have the energy to last through though, oh well....

Arh yea, tomorrow is the Tribe Meeting. Seriously, I thought there was no wushu, when they asked me I was liek "only if I dont have wushu, if have I would be late and attend the gathering only" But dont know why got the image that last week was last week already, so I said okay I will turn up at 9am, and yea k I was just blur all the way.... So yea, was a little irritated when someone said to me: "More liek you agreed without thinking, more like you"..... Sigh, like for pass few events either I went after wushu or I skipped totally for wushu, can cross reference though this blog archive itself somemore, oh well, lazy to sort of "proof" myself, I always have a certain bad reputation in wushu anyway. First impression are anchored deep, hard to be changed. And also the Orh reply... oh well, personality.....

Right... Ciao~!

Today in LAW we touched on financial issues on the Older Persons. Terence started off writing the three words: $$, Families, Older Persons, and then asked us to bombard him with our first impressions, and whatever we can think off, onto the board, then link them to the three words.

Now, here's the interesting findings, most of us would put the words "burden" and "dependent" under "Older Persons" and "Sandwiched Generation" under "Families". Then he questions us, how many of us are financially independent, and how many of us actually fix broken appliances, pay the electricity bills and all these stuffs. So what he is basically trying to point out is that nowadays, it is normally the other way around, where those baby boomers, even up to perhaps 60, are the Sandwiched Generation. They are the ones who would take care of us as well as their parents.

So the next part of the tutorial, he made us divide our time spent into a pie chart. And categorize them, as well as rank them. So after much categorizations and etc, I ranked them, and calculated them, and for the next step, he asked us to think of two Older Person, one male, one female, and do the same thing. So then I compared my pie chart and their pie charts. One finding is that, generally, females tend to have more category, and thus look more interesting, and for the males, work and family tend to be the top most priority, yet the rank of work might be one of the lowest, simply that it's now their chores, their responsibility, their duty to work, thus compromising time to be spent with the other higher ranked priorities in life.

Then, there's a vast difference between our pie charts and theirs. We have lots more categories than them, at least I do, and work is one of the lowest rank as well as portion. So as usual, he asked us how do we think our 3 pie charts would differ in the next 5 years and 10 years. Probably, we see that the older males or even females would start to have more categories now, since their can focus more on whatever they had missed out like gathering back their friends, pursue hobbies and interests, upgrade personal skills, etc, and for us, sadly, our categories get lesser and lesser, and more time will be devoted to work. So yes, I do feel that social network is really important.

Social Network is defined as simply the belonging in some kind of group or club by a certain membership by labeling or religious practice. This would then lead to Social Integration, whereby it is defined as how close the group is, how high the sense of belonging, how much we feel as a part of the group, or how useful, how recognized. Then it is Social Capital, defined as the opportunities and benefits we reap from being part of the group.

He gave us a economist pov of overseas cip, which cost around a thousand for a person, thus lets say 50k per trip, doing probably amateur standards of work, for the self contentment of the students such that they would feel good about their effort put in, thus felt benefited. Also, these students are most likely to want to repeat the act if given chances, as they formed a certain type of bond. Yet practically, the 50k would be better optimized if the money was sent there, assuming it would be trusted and etc, and would minimize wasted expenses on aircrafts and other stuffs like that. This is interesting, because I personally am strongly against sending money, but rather go there and contribute my effort. It wouldnt shake my stand though, but yea this is sociology.

So he was sharing about job opportunities and stuffs like that.

Then the last thing is that he said that you wont know that you are lacking of Social Network until it is already lost. Which is really true, sometimes we are too focused into our "ranked" priorities and even those low ranked but its a "needed" kind of priorities, that we slowly lose our Social Network, only to realize and dawn upon it when we retire, when there is a transition to life stages, a disrupt in lifestyle. As for myself, I sort of understand the shrinking of the categories, and sort of hoped that somehow or another, the bonds we forged would be resistant to time. Ofcoz I know its rather impossible, but Im really grateful for facebook, for it will somehow keep us updated, and thus years down the road, we wont be too awkward.


Shela Solita: As we grow older, we'll come to realise that we have lesser and lesser friends. But on a positive note, at least we don't waste our time on those fake friends anymore.

Weilun Ng: Life's about love & friends, & $$$. Although friends won't be there for us forever but i am sure we can't live without friends. (:

Both are really nice quotes, but look, fake friends are meant to be there, if not our categories can be really boring, and our Social Network would be small, so as Social Capital, and life could be really mundane then. For myself, I even have a small category devoted to "Misc", means random strangers I meet like Bubble Tea Shop Aunties, Helpees, stall owners, customers, etc....

http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DkqTc5snEtC4%26feature%3Dshare&h=MAQERrstWAQF7VfaCQ2VFPgpiR465m2KEIfd9CdUOb7491A

My once cent worth after watching the above video, basically the video is a series of interviews regarding monetary ability and marriage or love. I especially like the last guy who said that if women are so practical, why should men be so devoted into "love", the "love" which the hollywood framed as the ideal happily-ever-after criteria. It's seriously an unfair statement to say that men without capability of earning a certain amount of money is rubbish, is worthless scum, its like saying that women that couldnt bear child is like sex toys. Unfair? Totally.

First of all, the society now is consist of men and women in the working population, why must the men always be the one expected to be working and earning? By using the capability of earning as a yardstick as to how suitable or ready the man is, it showed how materialistic are women in the video.

As such, now to think of it, in the olden days, couples come together may not necessarily because of romantic love, could be matchmade, could be due to some culture or as a solution to other problems. Yet alot of them could sustain the family unlike nowadays. Why? It's the commitment, it is the commitment that they are recognised as husband and wife, thus gotta support each other to survive and live on and gave rise to the future generations.

So hollywood love is fake, so fake that I have seen many 'un-virgins" people in my social circle already. They simply just play around. However, there are also those who did a little thinking and took some responsibility to decide to raise family at such young age. They seemed to have happy families, as all worked together with effort put in by both parties, to compromise and support each other.

So even without money, the couple could think of ways to survive, after all, life will find a way!

Women with materialistic mind is rather pathetic, its like they are marrying to money instead of the man. With this mindset, when disaster comes, I really doubt they will last, especially that lady that wanted 5M yuan!! Seriously, I wonder if she will marry.

Ofcoz, men, in my opinion, are worthless only when they do not wish to upgrade their personal goals and fulfillment. If not, I'm sure, due to face problems, men will definitely try to be the main breadwinner of the household.

So they also point out about Social Exchange Theory, where social change and stability is a process of negotiated exchanges between parties. Social exchange theory posits that all human relationships are formed by the use of a subjective cost-benefit analysis and the comparison of alternatives. SO it's like trading, like economy. Women will go to men with a certain condition, and vice versa, does this call love then? But really, I think this is how the society goes now, there is no hollywood love at all. Maybe there will be staged hollywood love for the beginning, or the dramatized effect, but it will fade after some time, and then it is all up to the couple whether or not to stay to their commitment, of just "update" their goods.

Ofcoz, this is mainly sg i guess, first world country with big income disparity that led to social problems. In other fell behind countries, love is more feeling than brains, imho. This is because their needs are much lesser, their criteria as such are lesser too, which thus they have more room to find the "perfect love". They are simpler, married to a common goal, lesser complexities, more commitments and efforts made.

So yea, I think thats all I gotta say for the video clip. But last but not least, I find it ridiculous when 2 couples treat each other like mutual enemies with eternal grudges after they break up. Cant you be like FRIENDS or HIMYM or dramas, remaining as close friends after breaking up. It's like hey its all about practicality, no harsh feelings.... After all even the true definition of love is a one-sided willingness to commit to make and give the best out of the other party. So things will fail, no rights and wrongs in love, just treat as nothing happened, and remain as friends? Majority Ive seen broke up sour, but there are a handful still in contact, becoming best of friends.

Alright, 4h to sleep left...... zzz.... ciao

Today wushu was rather dead, but those training days feeling was there, which is really good, not so slack, more disciplined. So yes as I discussed with First Class, I think what we are doing now is merely taking over the baton form the senior circle, we arent thinking of progression yet, as such, at least for the "activities" part, we had came up with several "games" that could train certain areas of skills or physical training. I do term this as "games", but looks like the definition for First Class is different, though clearer. So the next step I think I would like to improvise the warm up part to inject in some life in it.

So then me and sheng went for lunch, then waited for Johann, and we proceeded to play bball, and then we talked... and talked... and talked... wow first time lasted so long in conversation with sheng so cool~! Haha. Yea, so then I was mentioning about the wheelchair bound lady, and then for a casual remark I remembered during childhood, while watching "Xi You Ji" (Journey to the West), I asked, why must heaven aid only when one is really in deep shit, great pains, so when life graph d2ydx2 is more than 0 (amaths differentiation terms means the minimum point). So sheng replied something sx mentioned long time ago, that perhaps the person up there had already a fixed number of "sufferings" that is just being distributed or concentrated to make the intensity of "blessings" increase or decrease, long run short run thingy. I remembered I thought of whether we have a huge "misfortune" that every deeds are to decipitate it.

So then not long ago, after watching the channel 5 show about confessions of crime, which is rather boring and common, so while im googling for jobs, I uttered unconsciously, amen, after thinking about the many unfortunate people Ive came across, stranger or not. So then this passage of Job in the bible showed up, wow speaking of hearing the voice. So I read up a little, get a summary of it, and cool, looks like a relevant source to read up, though its rather long, just take it as another literature text I guess, heard of the story, but now shall look deeper into the words.

Oh yea, during wushu jiaolian was telling about the olden days lion head, about the centipedes, clouds, bat, pearls, teeth, and the eyes that swivel left right and not fixed on the front like modern crap lions, which even included a snake on the head, with no logic haha. He mentioned about the olden days disputes settled on lion dance as well, the fighting lion, which includes spear heads on horns and tails, blades on the rim of mouth and leggings, thus the fierce and widespread leg patterns.

Cool culture, liek its a lost tradition that will never surface anymore. And I think these cultures gotta use the snowball research techniques to find out, which the internet cant reach out that far. Asian culture, usually passed on verbally, no publicized journals or whatsoever, thus often lost very fast, just like how hours long ceremony of lion dance could be shortened to an hour or so, with limited knowledge, if not complete ignorance, on the traditional zhen formation and to cai the veg.

Then there's this youtube video, om Feeds Family On $4 Dollars a Week, really cool, I was expecting someone that uses debts and such tricks to circulate and somehow end up with 4 bucks expenditure, yet the lady merely uses coupons that she have searched for hours, and able to pay off 267.23 bucks worth of shopping goods for a cent~!!!! Wow, only available in US, here in sg, everything will have terms and conditions, even first customer will need to purchase to enjoy privileges. Though US had quite a complicated society and lifestyle, but these "policies" and such made people liek these possible, ultimate saver~!!! Feeding a family of 6 spending $4 a week~!! And the one previously having 10s of kids with age gaps of 20 years old or something, surviving on benefits from government only~!!! Really crazy! In sg, its either donation or charity, connections, community, cuz nothing is free in singapore. As we always joked with Marco, in sg, even gettign a girlfriend needs first and foremost, MONEY, no MONEY no HONEY, dont even care how pretty or charming, or kind or intelligient or patient or romantic.

Right, thats all, only possible regret is that I supposed to plan to take my family to Alexander Road, yet was talking till I forgot the time, so we didnt go in the end, and also that the laksa I cooked dried up so they couldnt really taste the laksa soup but just noodles with laksa flavouring....... sigh.....

Woke up 8.30am today, to collect my bike at Tanah Merah, and then met WC, Alan and Jackson for breakfast, then cycled to TM to search for Birthday Gifts for YJ, and then went to Ikea to search for nice frames or stands cuz we were thinking of getting him a basketball for display. So After that parked the bike at church before heading home, did a last minute card since I was afraid that the mass card might fail. Oh well, guess I worry too much? Not my style though.

Anyway, yea then I went back to meet them at Manhattan Fish Market, and went with them to search for gifts, which due to my previous trip I made up my mind to buy the basketball and the sculpture from precious tots, the sculpture was a shepherd sculpture looking up on the sky. I think it's very suitable, because he had been a shepherd to us, herding us, and used his life as a great example of God's works. And his hunger for God is just like that sculpture, so faithful, so sincere. It's his 21st birthday, I really hope he can grow up strong in Christ and everything else too, and fulfilled all the emptiness he had in his heart, including being a good father, for he had not a chance to experience one himself, he shall live vicariously through his children.

Oh yea, joke, so I actually bought the "shuang xi" wedding wrapper for him~!!! It was totally not on purpose, time was running out, and precious tots had no nice designs for the cheapest 1.20 bucks wrappers, so I picked this since it was red, and from far it looked like ordinary present wrapper, until we took it out!!! Hahahaha super joke~!! Oh right, his mum was so cool, he refused when we shouted for him to kiss PY at the party, until his mum said so~ "qin yi ge!" hahahahahah~!!!!

Oh, then Pop Cell have him a set of jersey, which coincidentally matches well~!! It was red top black bottom, just like the ball we gave him~!!! =D so cool, we took few shots of him, one was especially nice~!! =D

The whole party was like celebrity meet, so cool~! Just like on news, with many reporters flashing the camera haha. Cake was awesome, sad I dont really eat durian, esp Mao Shan Wang~!! So strong durian, even the Udders Ice Cream of it I cant finish it. KY was emo-ing whole day, I think its just that he's tired from his medicine effect, hope it was like that, yet you-know-who messaged me, so...... hmm..... (link link, think think)

So yea, that day before the badminton, there was this Wheelchair Bound Lady whom I helped her to CC, along the way I chat with her, as usual, she was complaining about her state, and that she could do much due to her condition, yet there are people gossiping behind her back, labeling her as useless and lazy due to her size, and even her children refused to raise her anymore, and so she's a lonely widow now. Sigh. Dont know about the whole background, and though not surprising, not the first time I see, still, many times I feel, did He who made the lamb make thee? How is it possible to make 2 powerful creatures be of predator-prey relations? Dont it hurt to see your creations fighting another of your creations?

So then as I turned to desktop, this wallpaper appeared to me, something I did long ago. It wrote: Though with disparities, we share the same road n destination, on the walk of life. So yes, be it worrying about 3 meals a day or how to meet quota, after all, we still have our own individual exclusive problems in life, so somehow or another, life is still fair.

Today I drew closer to few persons, shall keep it up. Sometimes I feel more and more lazy about social relations, at times really, I took a shortcut to not think of pick up lines and try to search for common topic, I just ask straight what they are interested in. Sounds weird, but even to the extent of asking, how to cheer you up? haha. I missed the times where I used to skip stones at the reservoir when Im feeling down.

Life is just mot that simple, because if it were to be simple, there wont be any ups and downs, no roller coasters, then there's no need to sieve the strong and the weak in mind, then there wont be films and books that could attract many, there wont be fun at all.

The storm will come, so we shall embrace it, we should tell it how great God is, that we will get to the "yu guo qing tian", that everything will be okay in the end. Though many times Im really wondering, if everything was a part of a great plan, is every decisions made predestined? So wouldnt everything falls in place like a movie? So no matter how we tried to change the world or some sort it will all be futile because is either planned for you or not? And whatever planned to have will have, not will not?

But I dont believe so, because I do believe I have a great purpose here, and I shall fulfill it! Though might not seem very clear now. Anyway, Im still enjoying life, not much big troubles and difficulties.

Been popping by this chatbox, Solid Pop's, not all though, so I once in a while make some noise........

The people there really mingled well, liek so surprising, better than I can ever imagine. =D Their jokes so funny, free entertainment, just leave the chat open and see wha are they saying, while doing other stuffs, works best especially when listening to TED talks, sch works or just surfing youtube. If they were to be on stage, their impromtu can last the audience 3 meals already...... (full because of the air they suck in while laughing) and free workout too (abs are used while laughing).So cool, and they actually are meeting as early as 8am~!!! Woah Im just gonna pop by and cycle and jaga their barang barang...

anyway yesterday just after my blog post, I came by this classic song,

The world is closing in
Did you ever think?
That we could be so close..... like brothers

The future's in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change~~

It's by scorpions, and it really speaks into me, exactly what I was feeling. So today I had work, and sigh, there are some things that I wish I could do better if I were to be a boss one day. And yea Rose is gonna be transferred, so there goes one money source. Nice working with her really, but I never knew how she felt about me, as in work wise. Shall send Johann to spy on her hahahha nah larh shall use Johann to find out how she think about me, and also to find out about the new manager, so I can decide whether to continue or to find yet another work environment. Actually, this isnt a bad thing after all, since last year I started to feel like changing environment already. This is an indirect way to open up a chance for me to jump again.

Regardless the future, I should think Ive done my best, broke lots of rules, learnt lots of things, Im satisfied enough. Yepp, I learnt about how trivial stuffs like throwing potato chips container could be noticed as a potential case and etc. I overall enjoyed my working experience, though I know some who dont, but comparing their attitude with mine, I can safely say I deserve to feel good. Guess this is what the oldies kept emphasizing on, do it with your heart, and "we" can see it.

And so tmr is YJ 21st, gonna wake up early to meet the boys and a girl to run..... then I should be going to tm to look for bball for him, then we can sign and give to him =D and then his party at night....

So 2012 is here, economy doesnt seem too good, and maybe changes are taking place, places like 123 bubble tea shop, mindcafe safra tampines, scc bbtc, bedok wushu... oh well shall have new lifestyle....... oh right, now then remember sx might have part time job for us as instructors =D

Then yea I might work with Tai for all the possible games to put in some education values and fun in it, to be proposed to workshops like MoneySense and other such workshop companies, and from there could make extra $$. And I shall start finding companies that often do events and shall write in to ask to be involved or to see or anything that I might help, even doing sai kang will do. And ofcoz eldercare, though this would be volunteering.

So 2012, shall look forward to Jack Neo's film, hope can have a good laugh though the trailer looks rather dumb, sigh, actually got several funny things from scc, these small cute incidents can be used for movies also, like the remixes of songs by the kids haha, and yea always thought of having a movie of teenage relationships, but kena chope by Apple of Eye already, on newspaper it said to even outshine Kung Fu and other Stephen Chow's shows.......

Wed I went for badminton with Chang Hong, Angel, Jorgen and Qinda....
Surprised, cuz I was expecting Qinda most skilled, yet the opposite, skill wise they're all better. o.O wow! haha.

So a sudden decision urge me to go for night cycling with Jorgen. And so we went. Our first stop was Udders Ice Cream, then I12 Katong, and finally Old Airport Road. The trip was enjoyable I guess, I got to visit I12 which i had yearned to go since dont know when. Throughout the trip chat alot with him, though most of the time Im the one to start topic, almost exhausted of topic already. Well, yea 9 Jan..... where new chapters of life begins, may existing chapters be remembered and never be devoured by dust.

So as I was talking with him, environment is really important. He's one of the decent NT I have met, I really hope this can continue despite the complexity of the future. Though our time spent was so little, I grew a bond with him too, somehow I find him rather loner too. After hearing about his cliques, and his lifestyles, and how his life revolves around me and the SCC volunteers, and his self discipline and self concept to not be influenced by the "mainstream" ppl of his society, he's so cool.

So yea, some of the topics was about business too. So he's wondering where to go to after his first year, so I was suggesting either Event Management or Service. Cuz I think that Singapore is going to become a hub for Meetings, Incentives, Conventions and Exhibitions, (MICE), thus will definitely involved in many foreign investments here to set up events big or small. As such, the market for this should be really big in the near future.

So yea, it doesnt really require lots of capital too, but might need a diverse bank of social connections. Service, on the other hand, should be good too, though I think that it would be a waste of time? Since like you can learn it from workplace. Oh well, hope he will find his most suited area next year =D and perhaps, ten years down the road, we will meet again, perhaps becoming partners or something of that sort? Since looking at his current background, he should be capable to doing big stuffs with his big capital. This made me think of someone who told me some time ago, about him and his sister, being "sweet and adorable kids, but with challenging background". So far, I still dont see that yet. "Yet", because many thorns are not noticed as we glance through the surface of the field of red radiant roses. But anyway, not very important, whats important is to not waste whatever he is blessed with.

I sort of have a new dream to work to, is that 20 years down the road, the 4 of us (WuXuan) will come together often, to meet at a cafe, with our families, having great time bonding the 3 generations. And 4 of us would be successful people, whether together in partnership business or not.

Anyway had some chat with family too, about other companies, and how handful of companies, like Shu Dynasty, fall under the reign of their offsprings, which sort of include our family? Sigh, looking at their lack of guts to pia another career, and their stagnation of at least ten years, and their lack of interest to find opportunities in their hobbies, and their inertia....

I sort of have a self imposed stress to make them proud, to prove to them that everything isnt as complex as they think. With this mindset, I grow more and more afraid each day, that I wont succeed, and trace back their steps again. I notice my strong level of trust lately, and scared that history repeats itself and allowed betrayals to affect or rather to bankrupt a prospering business. Therefore, I really hope to establish good relation with potential partners, to minimize the trust issues and such. I also really hope that people around me can do well and not waste whatever they are blessed with now, for I will definitely need some of them in the future, and hopefully I wont be despised upon, since Im rather pessimist about my capabilities, and my status in the future. So yea, STRESSED..... STRESSED... STRESSED.....

KTV-ed today, some of the nice lyrics:

1)

爱的痛了 痛的哭了
哭的累了 日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好 像上瘾的毒药
它反覆骗着我

爱的痛了 痛的哭了
哭的累了 矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手 闭上眼让你走
烧掉日记重新来过

2)

宁可空白了手　等候一次　真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上　
一定会遇到对的人出现在眼角

After a great December, January first few days were more or less used for rest and family time. Since New Year where I went Orchard with family and cousins, Monday invited First Class over for the meeting because I wanted to stay at home, Today I invited Tai's mum too for the Manhattan Fish Market deal =D

Was planning, if possible, to complete all necessarily works to be free on Fri to bring family for the Alexander Road Bak Kut Teh too, and the Serangoon Prawn Mee perhaps some other time. Fri, well, if smooth, I might be able to meet First Class again for SP open house, then drop by Alexander Road before meeting Shixiong for our planned training plans for the first 2 months of wushu classes. I had included in many skills components which I think it might be useful for them outside wushu as well. I had also incorporated the schedule to match NAFTA times too, at least they will sort of train up for their school NAFTA too. =D

For future training, Im planning to include activities that is fun, that can help them learn some sports skills, with some wushu essence inside. Sports skills include ball skills, fielding or batting skills, and other interesting sports like tchoukball. We would also plan to train their reactions and mind too, and if possible, chinese culture, the chinese language itself, perhaps not to extent of tang poems, at least basic characters?

So then I had this idea to set up this committee to help people plan for ice breaking or amazing race games, that we would host them, like the laser tag team. Thus, we gotta come out with many interesting unique games, which we could pilot with Bedok Wushu first. =D As sx said, this is a platform where we could test our leadership, management and creativity without affecting much to anyone, since there isnt report book sor such things that would get parents complaining and questioning.

Next, I would like to bring Moving Blue over to sg, but sigh since starting of the year I only get limited photos of their products, website not updated, samples not sent.... How to do?

And so, hmm, over these few days, I got more insights to social problems in sg, especially in teens. Really, many of them were shocking, and some more common problems are ofcoz bgr. So I see that the recent few cases I see, it can really be a good thing, that love can change one person from head to toe, but there isnt really right and wrong, and what comes around goes around, so...... hmm, shall see how these episodes turn out in years to come. That got me curious, do people last time have all these problems too? Are they really that conservative? Or just that we assume they are more old fashion, or that they kept in to themselves. But one thing for sure, bgr is taking place at very young age now. Ofcoz, as I discover more about a person through another, it could be that the information provider is trying to use me to change the person's view of the information provider instead.

It's not a bad thing I personally thing, it teaches them to care, to manage, to plan, to love, to handle failures, to have responsibilities, to stick to commitments, to deal with social problems.

Anyway, had this talk by some random guy, Im inspired. He had a strong and interesting point, he said that giving allowances would discreetly condition the young to be employees, to work hard, in order to receive a fixed pay, determined by someone of higher authority. As such, he gave no allowances to them, but to let them look around and find things to do, then negotiate with him the incentives. Though this might give rise to money face people, but it actually encourages them to take the initiative to change things they can, to find opportunities themselves, to look at the diversity around them in one more perspective - money prospect. It also train their negotiation skills, their tact, their public speaking, their creativity.

So, a year passed so fast. However looking back on 2011, especially while I write my Lengthy Note on FB, I realized other than 2008, 2011 was my most memorable year! Lots of ups and downs too, from the feeling of crushed as I was almost got rejected to volunteer in SCC, to my academic, to some other problems, and to the opposite scale, to receive standing ovation of hundreds of people, to win my first medal, and first gold medal in wushu, to achieve academic excellence, to receive appreciation from Samy and church leaders, to make new friends.

The year ended and a new year started with me working OT in MindCafe, simply because they are unable to find part timers for the night, and Rose and Marco was on the verge of collapse. Oh yea sent them 2 gifts, Marco was especially happy since I was the only one to sent him a gift. =D gleeful =D But weird too, 2011 ended weird.

So a sudden request from Rose to work got me to burn the midnight for that Lengthy note till 2am, and that night I actually gave a friend a mashed up verse, which Im surprised I could remember exact wordings for the first part despite not paying much attention to it in the bible study days, as I used to think I wouldn’t need it since I believed my self control is great. I realized at times like these, these words, these apt words are crucial, for I might be the only medium to reach to. I said:

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

So hope that the person could grow strong too. And then somehow someone almost complete stranger, who used to dislike me, jealous of me, came to find me at work. It was about bgr, well at least the person felt better after that, yet it kindda spoilt my reputation in MindCafe a little. It all started with me throwing the chips with leftovers broken crumbs which I knew it would be thrown and not served so since I’m going to the toilet I ate them. That caught boss’s attention and perhaps grew suspicion on me? Then as I talk to the person, I think boss was monitoring the camera and disliked me talking. Ofcoz all these gotta thank Johann a lot a lot for covering me. He was exhausted I think.

After these many years of friendship, this was one example that I could rely on them completely, with complete trust. He was understanding enough to help me. Also on the same day, as I need to book tickets using credit card yet Im at work, I actually for once gave away my credit card number to Tai, I completely trusted him, for he had trusted me with his house keys once too. Though this might be a bigger issue and even bigger when my parents find out, I don’t know, maybe this would be a test of our friendship, and sure enough he is completely trustworthy.

So the year ended with many weird decisions, from accepting the work, to the buying of tickets, and meeting of the unexpected person, to OT, and such.
Anyway after that we went to 85 Market for supper, and then talked till 6am, knew more about a friend, which I find his character is really good, the environment that kills it.

Sigh, again we touched on commitments and etc. So first is ofcoz bgr, so I was like asking him that is he really serious, or still looking around to find the type of lifelong partner he have, but then I notice signs of love, really love, one that is one sided, basically to hope for the best for the other party, that he would speak sense to when the other party is wrong or something like that. However, yea as many men do he did quite a lot of things too. So his intention of love is good, but too much lust? Sigh. And his choice of partners of far are like…… But anyway more girls with looks are that way, until they decided to find a serious relationship, they started to change, but will eventually end up crushed, because party it should be the first time experienced being rejected.

Then we were saying about friendship too. I mean for myself, and for Johann too, we have this automatic reaction that for major events like New Year or Xmas, our first reaction to appointments are always “no we are sure we will have something on”, no matter how many people asked us out. So this time round, yea, we didn’t feel complete, it was like someone was replaced with another, don’t have that feel of the past few years. I don’t know, it’s a trivial thing though, not a bad thing too because the person I believe is trustworthy and dependable too, just that the person wore many hats, that gotta change time to time, and as he wears one, he’s focused on that one. Few years of friendship, I don’t know, a dilemma question struck me, if it would be a time to choose them or church which would I pick, I said them, because the number of years and bonds we had build. But 10 years down the road? I had now strong bonds with Solid Rock too. These people do care about me too as much I care about them. Especially one cell leader, she's very concerned about our well-being, often very appreciative, and very devoted to us, especially her Saturdays. Same as the other one, to decide to shepherd us instead of other one. And the members, despite age differences I think we are really very gam. So yea, difficult. Sigh. But yea it wont happen at all anyway.

Anyway after that we went Tai’s house to rest to 9am for JiaoLian’s distribution of goodies to the neighbourhood. Perfect way to start a year~! To do good deeds and bring joys to the citizens!

And so I started the year with a chapter in the bible too, Psalms 25, start of a new year, started off well, lets have another year of fun too~! And hopefully prosperous too.