these few days my comp had been not co-operative, will seldom blog, kept hang like crazy, couldnt even go to start page just now morning, reformatted now, still hangs once in a while...

... sigh...

well it's the last week before i bid farewell to singapore, gonna be bored back in indo. well hope i could still go puncak, at least there is karaoke there, 24/7 somemore, all by myself, though the songs there is quite old.. really old...

well, at least can kill some time watching movies on that huge screen...
and pool though the stick it kindda.. u know...
and the peaceful surrounding..
the fresh air...
and the scrumptious foods...
the 5-or-more meals a day...
the loneliness... sigh...

well its not my home, no matter how great it is, without kinship, as in father or mother, or brothers, it's just an empty mansion...

wushu is an exceptional ofcoz, through there i think im encouraged and learned to be a better being... note i use being not human.... humans are not a perfect beings nor kind beings... gonna miss wushu though it's only a month, next year gonna have a prison life... maybe a bull-in-prison life, bull because it is a busy year and i really want to get out of that confinement... just hope that i could survive that year, i dont think an l1r4 or 10 is achievable for my current plight... just jy anyway. then i swear im gonna take a not-so-well-deserve break..

wow so late le, so far so good, great life im enjoying, though my thighs are hurting like mad... it requires a significant amount of effort just to stand up from the chair.. hope it recovers tomorrow, poker was fun haha, won 10k from.. 200 chips!! haha, guess it was luck

Second day passed peacefully, went line dancing for the 2nd time in the morning, added 2 more dances to my memory, it's kindda easy when you got the hang of it, but it does requires a significant amount of concentration haha. As usual, praises from the uncles and aunties to see a youth in their kind of thing... I know im just different... though fun, the atmosphere just isnt there, it has to be a whole bunch of people dancing.

Played basketball with Alan after the dance, 2 friendly matches of 5 scores with a slippery ball similar to the one I used to own at p5.. those memories.. haha. Started a brief conversation with him since it's already the 3rd time we met.

Then went for dentures checkup, modeling or something like that... 3k will be gone next year... Moreover a couple of hundred a month for english tuition.... damn money wasted on a forlorn being like me, pitiful... Common, the internet is full of resources, as if im gonna use whatever is bestowed to me, furthermore the few thousands in university or higher degree of education. ABSOLUTE BIZARRE!!! SUCH FATUOUS PLAN !! PREPOSTEROUS EFFORTS ! If I'd set a path I want to take, by focusing on that route, could save a whole lot of money!! If the society do not need a certificate just to do a job that might not even require much academic excellence but common knowledge and street wisdom.... Sigh, yet again, work for what? MONEY MONEY MONEY !!! RELENTLESS PIECES OF SHIT !!! AT TIMES, SHEETS OF SHIT... though i would greatly need these shits to survive in the world....

been posting frequently these days haha, coz got more freedom, well it's a day passed peacefully, hope it would continue. My style of life had just begun, got up, go out, come back again, worry free, own time own target....

why the rush?
slow down and waltz with me...
a little sway and then you'll see...
the rapid world, the estasy...

when it stopped?
slow down and waltz with me..
a feather step, the music ceased..
the human beings, the main mischief..

how is it?
slow down and waltz with me.
just take the lead, and she will be.
to contradict? or let it be?

why not just slow down and waltz with me

1000 Years (Or More)

one of the 3 dances i learned today.. my fav so far

... totally worn-out..

...dead beat...

wootz survived through the night surprisingly without any fever acting up, yet injured a finger from the volleyball haha, damn my waist still hurts a little...

tmr line dancing, something i got interest in, and it's free! great haha, too bad all aunties, anyone care to join? 7am nia, or thur night... missed flash mob, but line dancing should be fun too i guess haha.

bbq today was great, though sometimes like out of place, soon blended in with some songs and jokes... and volleyball... their chalet no offence looks quite boring haha, well its always up to themselves to make it fun.. ofcoz my kind of fun is doing insane stuffs or being lame for a night hehe

wonders if can go down on fri, well dad's not around, a little more freedom haha, just have to finish up some hol hmwrks i guess...

Damn getting sick.. slight cough coupled with cold... nevertheless im still gonna go the rv bbq after seeing my dad off...

投名状 (Warlords) is a sad film... with casts like Jet Li as Pang Qing-Yun, Lau as Zhao Er-hu, Takeshi Kaneshiro as Jiang Wu-Yang. Their actings are excellent, and the props vividly displayed a battlefield, the storyline is rather standard and easy to predict but it's worth the show for the actings especially for their expressions.

You are 8% controlling/perfectionist!

 

You are not very controlling at all. You often do not like to be in a position of control, finding it to stressful, and as a result, you often get pushed around. You are not very judgmental towards other people, though you can be sometimes. You tend to go with the flow, and are often very submissive towards other people. You don't sweat the small stuff, and you usually aren't very stressed.

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Well, no doubt I'm getting more stressed up every year....  Sigh

You are 38% Suicidical

 

I think you're most of the time happy, but sometimes you just need a break from life. I don't mean that the break i'm talking about is death. NO WAY!! Cause there are to many happy moments in your life and people love you. Music is a great break, just sitting somewhere with music that just says what you feel! So take a deep breath and keep on living! LIFE IS GREAT! Bye and good luck, Karolien

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At times living to death coz it's the safest way to heaven to die old

Below is my lit assignment which i sped 2h composing and analyzing, no offense whatsoever, it is just a homework!

Analyse and write your interpretation of the song "Flightless Bird, American Mouth" by Iron & Wine from Twillight soundtrack, hint: commenting on society in general.

In general, the song is commenting on America society, pointing out the dark side she have that had overwhelmed the justice and righteousness.

The first verse talks about America in her early stage. ‘Quick’ is used as America’s history is shorter than most countries. These founders of States strived hard to build up the nation, just as described, diving deep for coins. Then other countries started to grow interest on America, mainly because of the American Dream, where it is described as eyeing on the boy’s toys. Yet all these efforts of the States early settlers were in vain when laws and regulations established, forcing America to follow the society, leaving the past life behind; cut my long baby hair, where long again suggest the effort of States early settlers had put in building up the nation. Dog implies loyalty, and map implies direction, therefore by stealing a dog-eared map probably means that America had no choice but to follow the direction society wants her to follow, therefore using ‘stole’ as the direction is not hers. The last phrase ‘called for you everywhere’ suggests that America do not have her own mind already therefore needing the society.

The second verse talks about America in her current stage. She is now but a lazy, well-fed cat, treating her tongue that could attack painfully by being frank. This refers to all those scientists revealing defects of other countries hurting many hearts. Then again, ironically, she couldn’t manage her own internal problems such as the Federal and crime rates. This is expressed in the expression where she could only watch the "poison rats" that come through the "wide fence cracks". These ‘rats’ knew that the society is misleading therefore pissed on the magazine photos. Blood of Christ mountain stream symbolizes the pure living and spiritualism, and this is only a lure for the innocence, and true enough these magazine photos were thrown away later, indicating that the society debases religion and honest living. The mountain stream reinforces earlier expression of the wet boy diving for coins. Everything has been lost and flattened and is used as nothing more than advertisement and cast aside, and our basic humanity is lost in its pages.

In the first chorus America was uncertain if she had founded a nation by following the society as religion (flightless bird) had been lost to jealousy and war (when in war, Federal makes money but people would be deprived) and freedom of speech (American mouth) being threatened by the dark side (might be killed anytime).

In the first chorus America was uncertain if she had founded a nation by following the society as religion was confined and attacked (by sciences) and those daring souls that had spoke up dead (big pill=dangerous drug, going down=swallowed).
Therefore the whole song is commenting about the cruelty of America behind the scenes, after devastating the past and now masked by the potency, wealth and advancement of technology.

Here's the lyrics:

Flightless Bird, American Mouth
Iron & Wine

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys

And when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair

Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down