It gets really tiring.

Nothing in my life is actually going very smooth.

Is something really wrong with me?

So I failed my BTT, like such basic test, failed by that 1 mark.

Then I guess I failed the Guide Course too, Im just not up to that kind of in depth knowledge and expertise in anything at all.

And I guess I failed my company.

Whatever falls in my hands I screwed it up.

Handling emails, conversion 10-20% whereas my boss achieved 70-90%. Might as well don’t hire me right?

Handling guides and schedules, missed out a couple here and there, and guides gets misunderstanding, simple matter also screwed up.

So someone flared out to say that I have been pressuring, to ask for feedbacks, and also saying that i send guides over to check on him. Firstly, I've said it to all the guides already that occasionally I might send people over, to attract more guides to join us, and for everyone to learn from one another. He is one of the few I had NEVER even send people to spy, it's just new guides to join his tour completely to understand the tour model. I did nothing to spy, which I actually did for other guides, but not him! And he mentioned about filling up slots etc, what the heck nothing is confirmed, and I ensured fair chances for all. Cannot la no matter how much he says he bury the hatchet, but still this kind of suspicious character, I cannot tahan, Im fucking transparent! cant people do the same?! Then he made it sounds like the feedback is I pressure, but seriously the company give u a platform to earn, and company gains nothing but these valuable feedbacks to find out where we should focus our marketing, very hard meh!

I was so close to making walking tours big, making concurrent tours, now everything just screwed up, I have shown ZERO success in any shit! ALL my collaborations etc all in the end ended in failure.  

Joined the company in hope to come out with interesting off the beaten track tours and food tours. Working okay in the beginning then now scrapping everything already. Even the After Dark gonna become something super out of the world, not the current “Development of SG” theme. Then why do I even go through all the knowledge of the guide course.

I wanna promote sg, I wanna guide, but this seems to be more like event organised now, event host.

I guess im not that capable as I thought I am.

Then at home, every month end need to explain data usage, need to explain expenses. Yes I know im over spending. But then again, it’s a kind of lifestyle I want to live. I need my travels every month I need my theatre and shows and events. Then extra expenses here and there for drinks if not it would be weird to not drink on my tours which involves drinking. And smokes of course. And occasionally here and there to cover for my generosity.

I didnt.really have this problem back then though. Had much more time, had more spending power. And I seem to excel better at F&B. At least in F&B physcially tired, not mentally, and I think Ive achieved that kind of level to handle anything more emotionally detached.

Why did I chose this?

Am I on the right track?

Am I being a quitter, am I not persevering enough? 

But why struggle to get what might not be my destiny?

Sigh.......... Why am I not born in a silver spoon?

Why is my luck not picking up?

Why am I so tired………. Moodless………

Reviving a dead blog.....

Well, it's been a while since I started running this Special Interest Travel Agency that does inbound markets. Honesty it's luck to step into this, as this was exactly what I wanted in life - The freedom to do and develop what I always wanted. Again this rash step of life was due to reassurance from my friends that I am suited in the Travel Industry, during my ORD trip with WH and friends.

Anyways, the Travel Industry is definitely exciting now. There will be some drastic change in Travelers Profile. There will be a rising trends in FIT, as people are so widely traveled they no longer needs souvenir shopping and commercial photogenic places anymore. Many started looking into local experiences, when they actually start to eat, drink, sleep, pray, like locals, to fully dip into the local scene to see the world in different angles.

That's what we aim to provide! Not so much on restaurants, but normal hawker centres, with good local street food, at least for our Foodie Express, with commentaries about what makes the Singaporean Dishes special. These are popular ethnic enclaves, Little India, and Chinatown, but how many actually went to explore every corner, every alley, every story?

Then we do Night Tours, not many operators are doing this, or rather I think we are the only one, that breaks from the standard 4 bars 1 club model, and actually provides for a range of personalities. With inclusions such as  rooftop bars, local supper scene, speak easy bars, night dating spots, and ofcoz the iconic Singapore night view of skyscrapers, we are fun, but not the wild clubbing kind. We do what the locals do at night! Chill, date, stroll, eat!

Myself, I'm a strong advocate for Asia 101, a tour developed for travelers to taste and explore the South East Asian countries around Singapore, Myanmar, Indonesia, Malaysia, Vietnam, Philippines and Thailand. This should be promoted for cruises and travelers who came to Singapore for a layover but may not have planned South East Asia in their itinerary, then this is definitely be a value added experience.

As for the Foodsteps of Gordon Ramsay, I developed it as that was the very first Tour I ever did when I submitted this experience with a Local Experiences hub like WithLocals or AirBnB.

So when everything is getting established properly in just these 2 months, we run Daily FREE Walking Tours and are rising in fame with more outreaches to Hostels and Accommodations, as well as F&B establishments. Yet, come June, we will be facing lots of strong competitors emerging, backed by strong big players overseas, bringing the model here.

Commercial tourism will decline definitely, which would be beneficial to us, but a huge paradigm shift in the industry. It WILL definitely affects the traditional travel suppliers, such as Hotels that solely depend on Tour Agencies, and due to the surplus of hotels nowadays, but declinign supply of mass tourism. Hotels and hostels will be taken over and combined into something big, because the small ones can't survive the price war and the old 3 to 4 star hotels too much vacancy since commercial tourism not bringing them people.

Sentosa will burst, with Locals and Travelers, and soon there will be measures for traffic flow. Ethnic quarters will be the next "in" thing, Chinatown, Little India, Bugis, even to heartlands and outskirts like Changi, and Jurong, and Mandai will rise in Fame. Ethnic and Culture will definitely shift to be more commercialized and may lose some of the very traditional practices and start to become like staged acting for travelers, but then again, as long as culture lives on, knowledge are passed on, why not right?

Tour buses will decline too, more smaller kombis and mini bus or vans would be in demand.

So I could sense the excitement and all already! Yet then again, in terms of resources, financial and manpower, do we really have enough? Are we able to grasp the attention and exposure before some big players come in and steal the limelight? I seriously do not know. And myself, my experience with fate isnt that great, I always considered myself unlucky by nature, but lucky due to strong support from the people around me, which I'm truly humbled by them, I wish to do more, but more often than not, I'm only as a man can do, there's only this much a man can do. Opportunities are there, but I'm not fortunate enough to score the right ones, I can only bang more walls and walk my way there eventually, but slowly, hopefully surely.

Anyways for those of you who has not:

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Late night thoughts......... again

Well, today just watched a Movie about Frauds, Master.
crazy people,
earning money from people who
snowball their pending doom?
these kind of money can sleep at night?
then again undergrounds and black money are fastest money....
Great movie, but then again,
seriously, it's amazing how people can earn so much money really.
money makes the world go round.
It's true, was talking to a friend,
then on hindsight now,
feel so "poor".

I mean ofcoz when compared to many others I'm more than well to do,
but then again, looking at people around me, closed friends
they are never bothered by money,
though they may not live such a crazy life,
but they grow up typically,
they follow the society path,
isnt that bad after all.......

me,
my lifestyle cost above average,
my parents loves money,
and everything they talk about it money,
they are fixated with money,
not that they are not loving,
but ultimately,
money matters always ruin every family warmth there could be,
this is not present in others,
as they are not lack of money you see.........

i feel bad though,
my dad is always supportive of me, 'my mum are at times overly concerned that
it may become a hindrance instead,
too much naggings,
instead of encouraging you see,
so little understanding,
so many reprimanding or lecturing
like adding legs to a snake drawing,
i'm really not complaining about not born in silver spoon,
it's never their fault,
but you see,
same life different circumstances,
not like we are far worst then others,
but then a little more wealth would solve so many issues.

Then again,
often the rich are the stingy, crafty, cunning ones,
that counts to the last penny,
if i were to be at that stage,
would i be as wasted as spoilt as ignorant?
not saying anyone is that bad now but thats the general description of silver spoon?

ultimately,
to break from the "work=money" cycle,
is through passive income,
but then again,
totally no talent in these,
then i thought of people who did,
they are doing fine even at young age,
and im now searching high and low to forage some penny,
not to mention some already bought a condo at 22,
like wow........
admiring........

life's hard yo...........